Thinking of giving up medicine as an undergrad course... totally... please tell me that's a right choice~~~~~

Hello hello~!
I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
muahhahahahaha

Got the same tester as the last time and this time... he let me pass!!!!!!!!! (^-^)

hello dears!!
I went back to st nicks today~!!!! *grinz* to help Mrs. Wong out actually... (wasn't too helpful though...)
anyway... dears... if your memories of St. nicks is the lovely stylish blue, pink, white and light purple..... sigh... can't bring myself to ask you peeps to not return... okie, think of this... the external of the school is painted, yellow and red (pam calls it griffindor colours...), every level, is then of a different colour... ,for the Primary block that's done painting... the first level (P1 classrooms) is purple, the second level, is bright green... the thrid, orange... and the fourth, yellow. Use your imagination to think of the grossest colour combination you can think of......

........

I'm shocked beyond words.

Nevertheless, it was nice meeting Elizabeth, Pauline, Hua Zhen and of course Mrs. Wong again and to talk to them again. (^-^) One happy morning and afternoon spent with my dear ones in the dearest place on earth.

P/s: yes Jaslyn! I saw the announcement on TT~ The day is finally here... (been having nightmares that it won't be here.)

I find something very disturbing recently....
I'm watching AND enjoying this particular korean drama on scv (18 sui xin niang).... and I thought that korean dramas are cliche~ okie... they still are... but I'm actually really enjoying this one. Very much... because it's plain funny and enjoyable. I mean.. even though I can probably tell you what will happen in the next 10 episode or even the ending, I really am enjoying this drama!!!!! (-_-''')

Some one wrote to Takuya on his radio programme about his mum liking the korean actor, Bae Yong Jun... the listener wrote, My mum like Bae now... before that, her number one is you, Takuya. The reason for the change in mind.... because you guys (smap) has not produced a single/album since 2003!! hmm... the first thought that came to mind was that the girl who wrote in must have been waiting very hard for SMAP's new album/single... tell me which fan isn't... then, in the forums they started talking about how Takuya seem bothered by this popularity thing... I've always thought that he will not be affected since he's been in this game for more than 10 years. Oh well... once again he has proven to me that he's human with manly feelings and jealousy. (and I like him for that... ^^)

But some of the fans feel... as long as he's that special only one and do his best in whatever he does, it's okie... conflicting ideas actually... think about it: why work hard if you don't want to be number one? but yet... being number one should not be your only focus... it's also more important to that special you... so, now what?! -- don't care about rankings and competitions and be you? probably risk being left behind by this ever progressing society? or get yourself lost in the search for fame, rank and power?

I think I've been trying to be that special one.... but I'll be lying if I tell you I'm not bothered by rankings... becasue... it decides so many things, I really don't like myself being like that... but I'm no monk, no sister who can live out of this society's expectations of me, of a person... (no offense)

sigh... okie, no more time for reflection.... time to talk to sitong and meli...

Meli, if you're reading this... wanna give ya a HUG. waiting for you to come back on 20 dec!!

hello dears~! I'm back! ^^
miss me? muahahahha...
okie... to explain for my disappearance...

initially, before the exams start... I'm struggling with school's darx programming methodology, electrical engineering, mathematic, physics... now.. tell me that just hearing the names don't put you to sleep. Thats their effect on me... *sigh*

Then, the exams... also getting crazy with this chinese Takuya forum called Takuya's Town... Became a boardmistress in a small corner over there called English Corner. Yes... I know my english is no way near to being good... but... okie... nvm...

Anyway... I really got addicted... it's so fun that it really catught my attention.. you can dress yourself up there... catch mushrooms to earn ttp(cyber money), buy all sorts of funny tools to use in the place etc..... yes... I got so addicted that I think I kinda neglected my studies... and that's not good. I don't think it's that huge an effect on my studies... but it wasn't good anyway...
so, I asked to 'resign' from the post... but got scolded for not studying hard by the webmaster....... (-_-''') sigh......

Think I better learn self-control next sem...

and... went for UWA's interview for med... been thinking these days that graduating with a bioengin degree from NUS's not too bad an idea... that'll make me more flexible... and well... it's never too late to take med after that... so I'll see if mel or uwa accepts me and then decide if i'll go...

anyway... that's what I've been doing so far... my driving test's next wed, so I'm training hard... gonna go back to sn to help mrs. wong out on tues because she's asking for an early retirement... can't wait to go back~ pam says that mrs. chong made the school look like a kindergarden... so, I'll prepare myself for the shock.

Dear Kimura Kun,

Happy 32nd Birthday!!!!!

May you gain charm and wit as you grow~!
(and I totally don't mind you being 32, have looks of 22 and a brain of 12! *hee*)

can't wait to see Howl's Moving Castle. **\(^-^)/**

hello~ haven't been writing for some time...
been... living an escapist life I think.... a fangirl life, watching smap stuff... getting buried in the forums...
exams for in 2 weeks (less than) time and I have not settled down to study. 1 semester is almost gone... how time flies... somehow, I feel like I've been trying to escape from life and not move on. I don't know. The complexity of my mindset now is so bad that I just don't wanna bother about it and... live a day by a day.
I know it's time for me to start working hard... to a certain extend, I don't want to. Wonder if I made a wrong choice by choosing this course... people tell me that it's difficult to get into this course... but it doesn't matter to me at all... it's probably not want I wanna do. Or is it not? sigh.... I'm rambling non-stop, with no direction.
Life's busy, I've not been watching the news, not been catching up with my friends, but yet, I feel like I've been wasting my life. I'm missing out on important things in life. That's the feeling I have now... what is it? I have no idea. And I have no time to seek. It's time to settle down, get focused and study. That's the only thing that should be bothering me now. sigh.... have no idea what I am driving at.... but I think I know one thing: I am not happy.
good gracious...

hello dears... just a quick note before I go back to the world of mind-boggling C programming... I'm still alive. haha... and thanks to the dears who have left note for me... I've been busy with many unimportant stuff and hence... busy screwing up the imporatant things in my life... (><) yes... if you have guessed.. it's Takuya... been off the board these days online in the forums... neglecting my work...

The shock of sat's EE (electrical engineering) test was a wake up call... so I hope... I'm back to mugging mode again. okie... quick note to those who think I disappeared for good... I'm still around. *wink*

bleah... failed my driving test. Was so nervous that my leg as SHAKING on the clutch pedel.... so he can tell that I was very nervous.... argh!!!!! kissed the kerb a little on the S-course and there went my 10 point... ended up with a whooping 28 points. (-_-''') 15 Dec, try 2. That's gonna be the last try too. bleah

jaded.

Didn't lodge a complaint because I think what they did was reasonable. There is nothing wrong with not allowing me to have a make-up session, I understand that that's being a tat unfair to those in the even week. They just could have done better by allowing a make-up session for all who missed it. Could have sent in a suggestion, but as my first word of the post suggest, I just can't be bothered.

It's the 5th week of school and I'm so sick of the way things are going. *sigh* I can't explain this.... I'm just.... jaded.

Okie... on a lighter mode: anyone interested in joining me in the japanese cultural festival's preparations? Anyone in N U S that is... Sitong's the pres and I'm her vice... gonna post an advertisment on I V L E soon... take note and let me know okie?!

I am PISSED.

Can you imagine being down with a bad flu, having bad headaches, gotten a MC from the doctor and being left with almost no choice but to go for a mind-boggling programming lab session? That's what happened to your truly over here.

The week's tests have taken it's toll on me and yes, I got sick. Wait! I still am sick! darn. Went to see a doctor last night and got all the medicine and stuff... as well as an MC to certify that I am unfit for school. Then, remembering that I have programmming lab this week (ie: today), I emailed the lecturer to ask if I can do my lab next week with the even week groups, knowing that what I need most now is REST. (Programming labs happens on a bi-weekly basis and I happen to have my labs on odd weeks, so there's still gonna be one session next week.)

Okie... so, being worried, I emailed by tutor to ask if it's likely for them to grant permission for me to do the lab next week... he replied and said most likely. So, being more or less reassured, I went to bed hoping to get my rest.

This morn, I woke up still having my bad flu (that doesn't seem to have gotten any better from eating the medicine) and read my email to say: No, in order to be fair to students who cannot make it for next week's lab and hence, will not have another chance to make up for it, I am not allowed to do the lab next week. And as if to make me feel better, he told me that only three out of four labs are gonna be counted in the final score. BOOM!! I screwed up the last lab and cannot afford to screw up any more labs! This lab is SUPER important to me!! I packed my stuff... gave my mum a call and asked her to fetch me, in the blur state of battling with the flu virus, to school for the lab session.

Now, I am blur, VERY sick and VERY pissed. Thanks man~! GRRRRRRRRrrrrr...

Why on earth are they so darn inflexible? To start with, they have a HARD deadline for lab submissions: 1hr 45min from the time your lab session is supposed to start. Anything later than taht even by one second will not pass through (you submit everything with the computer). Think about those who arrive late for the lab and will probably finish the lab if given the full 1 hr 45 min. (-_-''') Now this. I mean... why not have a make-up session for all those who missed their labs maybe? I'm sure out of 1000 students, there will be some who have problems going to labs every week right???

And the best thing that made me pissed is: I dare not complain!! Why? Because I am a student and I need them to give me my results. I'm really starting to hate myself.

In case you're interested in knowing how I did for today's lab... what do you expect from a person who's half dead?! Praying that I did better than the last lab... but think I'm still gonna fail it... (-_-''') as long as it's better....

ting!! *runs over and gives ting a big tight hug* miss ya! I know you added me on msn... but I carn seem to catch you! day and night!! and with my tests these days.... haven't really been online for very long...

think I'm getting sick... been having a sore throat since yesterday and this morn... a runny nose's acting up too.... bleah. Tons of work to catch up with after realising that there's tutorials next week... and since all my darn tutorials fall on tuesday... I can go and drown myself in Singapore River. There's Genes and Soc quiz tmr, a programming lab part 1 assignment to submit by tues midnight, physics online assessment by wed midnight, programming test next sat, driving lessons on wed (and I promised myself to read the advance theory book again)... I need 72 hours a day without sleep!!!!!!!!!!

The tests have been okie or far... I think.. physics was the tougher one... I need more practice!!!! sigh.... I'm a mugger. sad life.

I'm supposed to be mugging for tmr's Electrical Engineering test... but guess what? It's almost a day since yesterday's Physics mid term test and my progress is still 0!!!!!!!!! I want my holidays... I want my mid term break!!... that is over officially from today. sad life... I want to breathe Orchard's air...

Ting left for Ireland last night...

wonder when will she be able to appear online again... starting to miss her already.

I must:

- stop slacking and start working
- come back to reality and live each day fully (Carpe diem!)
- practice programming or die for lab again
- aim to understand every lecture and not fall asleep at the endless monotonous drone
- stop using the internet excessively for honestly, not much purpose
- sleep enough and sleep early
- care for the people around me more and not get lost in the pursuit of 'knowledge'
- stop typing aimlessly at the blog and start doing some work

Just watched monday's SMAPXSMAP... woah... I didn't know SMAP's songs are actually very meaningful if you bother to listen to the lyrics...

don't mind me. (^-^)

君は君だよ
kimi wa kimi dayo
you are you
(I'll just do the translations, tell me if you want the romanji lyrics, use unicode to decode the jap words)

夕暮れを足早に歩いてく
I walked briskly in the evening sun
君の後ろ距離を とって 歩く
keeping a distance behind you as I walked
なぐさめるなって背中が 黙って言うから
all the consolation, I said to you from your back (ie:tell you softly facing your back)
僕も声には出さないで 話しかけてる
I also begin saying things that I I could not bring myself to voice out.
君は君だよ だから誰かの
you are you, therefore, for someone else's
望むように 生きなくていいよ
expectations, you don't have to live by (it okie for you to live without meeting other people's expectations)
君は君だよ いつも自分が
you are you, always for your own
やりたいこと まっすぐ見つめてなよ
things that you want, look straight for them (go work for the things that you want)


こなごなになるくらい 傷ついて
(till you) become hurt like being broken into pieces
ダメになる手前で 持ちこたえる
before you become totally unable to go on, you will achieve it
ホントにまだ たいして長く
really, not yet that long as compared
生きてないのにね
you didn't live (ie: you didn't live that long after all)
これでけっこういろいろと
with this, there's still quite a little of various
あるもんだよね
things yo~!
君は君だよ だから誰かの
you are you, so someone else's
真似なんかを しなくてもいいよ
mimic or look-alike you don't have to be
君は君だよ 心が決めた
you are you, your heart's decision
明日ならば それが本当だから
of tomorrow (the future you decided) is the true and real one

一人一人が 泣いて笑って
each individual person, cries and laugh
同じ時を 歩いているよ
as they walk ahead/walk forward
つきはなしたり 意地をはっても
be it without luck (unluckly), even if you are stubborn
わかりあえる そう信じてる
to be yourself and know yourself, believing in yourself
君は君だよ だから僕には
you are you, so for me,
かけがえない 一人なんだよ
you are one irreplacable person
君は君だよ 他の誰にもかわりなんか できやしないんだから
you are you, do not change yourself to be someone else
LaLaLaLaLaLaLa…LaLaLaLaLaLaLa…

copyright: Japanese lyrics from Uta-net
english translations by Puriko

hello~! A quick trip up here to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SMAP!!!!!!!!!!
Happy 13th Birthday!!!!! May you shine your brightness to the rest of the world soon!!!!

and... it was so nice to see Claris again!!!!!! *hugz* and I like your hair!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha I really do. (^-^)

sigh... why is time slipping away so quickly????? Test in less than 2 weeks time!!!!! (-_-''')

p/s: excessive use of exclaimation marks

You're Element is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensitive, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
brought to you by Quizilla

'Kopped' it from Janise's blog.

Puriko tells herself that she's not gonna paste many more of these personality test (even if she loves doing them) on her blog anymore.

I'm exhausted... will be every tuesday (lessons almost straight with 2 one hours break in between). Done zero work, surfed the web aimlessly and finished watching last night's SMAPXSMAP that has David Beckham as the special guest.

dears... it's gonna be here on 30 September~!!!!!!

what?

are you curious?

want to know what's so worth anticipating for???????

it's........ 2046!!!!!!!!

duh?
according to very reliable sources on Golden Village's website, the much anticipated movie (okie... by me...) is gonna premier on 30 Spetember 2004 in Singapore~! *all sorts of imagination*

if takuya goes to china to promote the movie on 28 Sept... Singapore is a mere 7 hrs flight from there.. so... they'll probably think that since Singapore will be a good enough market to promote the film in, takuya and the rest of the cast will come down... then I will make sure I get a ticket to the premiers... since he's new in Singapore... he'll need a guide to tour around the place and with my mediocre Japanese Language (better than nothing) I shall volunteer myself... *starts to fantasize* \(^o^)/

heard that Ghibil's production, "Howl's Moving Castle" 'stunned the world' in Venice's Film Festival... when will it come? Can't wait to hear Takuya's Howl!!!!!!!!!! *going totally gaga*

Chatting with janise just now online... she was telling me about how a friend who did not get into medicine quit school in N U S and went to poly to pursue physiotherapy. WOW. That must have taken alot of courage and determination.

I told janise... in the medical related jobs, I only want to be a doctor. For one.. I know I cannot be a nurse.. because that takes so much more from a person to be a nurse than a doctor... (at least that's what I think) you face so much more stress from patients interaction... and well.. maybe it's the 'glory' associated with being a doctor. I hate myself for being so... but I know a part of me is like that. I feel proud when I get something 'prestigious' and something that's supposed to be 'difficult', I like to be above people in things.

I know there are other reasons too... afterall I did consider doing physiotherapy after not getting into med... but somehow... I don't have the courage to put down that little everything I have now to go to poly. I don't think I will be satisfied being a physiotherapist. I don't exactly know how to put it... but I feel that I will probably spend the rest of my life regreting my decision if I did go do nursing or physiotherapy.

This blog has became a place where I put my innermost thoughts on... *shiver* your friend is a devil afterall. (^-^)

Rumors on the bbs boards has it that there will not be any concert (SMAP.... duh?!) this year. The single, SUSUME! Gold version will not be released either. It was said that it's because Takuya insisted on producing a new single instead of one that is a re-mix of an old song. (Susume was from last year's album)

Oh well... it's almost the end of the year... I'll rather they not have a concert in the freezing winter where they have to wear sleeveless shirts. I don't like the idea of Susume being re-mixed and reproduced either... (they simply changed the music of the song)

I'm just really disappointed. *boo* Hope the new single/album that comes out next year is good...

Faith

Meli was telling me about this quote on her poster about life... about how life really depends on what you think of it and how you face it. Simple facts that we all know... but when the going gets tough, when you feel desperate, exhausted and even disillutioned, that faith disappears and it's so tough to continue believing in "YOU CAN".

The escapist in me just wanna leads a simple life. I don't need to be rich, I don't need to be famous, I don't need to live a life that makes a difference to people. I just need to lead a happy life. That's it.

But the realist in me tells me that I do not want to let life slip away like that. Since I'm alive, I should do something to it! Fulfill my dreams, my hopes and do the things that I want to do my my life!

You realised that I'm not a religious person who think that all things are zero (buddhism) or that we live life to fulfill god's will (christianity?); I am a human being who's lost in the persuit of desires... (not that I think it's anything wrong honestly) I want to accomplish something in my life so that when I die, I can say that I did something in my lifetime.

But now... what is it that I want to accomplish? It's just so easy to give up and let that escapist have its way, but yet I know, that's not what I want.

hello people~! *trying to be lively and cheerful*

I AM SO TIRED~! and it's wierd because I know I had even more hectic lifestyles in secondary and jc~ but I am just so exhausted.

had my first tutorial class on tuesday that nearly brought me to tears. wonder if nat and min knows... there's this girl called d e b o r a h who is suppposed to top HC for every bio common test and another called v a n e s s a who's supposed to top in physics in my class... (-_-''') I stepped into tut in a half-asleep mode at 10am in the morning and recieved the first shock (cum wake-up-call) for the day: every one's mugging. Then, a couple of them seems to know everything they need to know about programming in C and were shooting questions during tut while I was sitting there desperately trying to understand the tutor (who's not too bad a chap). after class... a couple of us sat together and forsee a difficult and torturous 4 years to come.

I've been pinning hopes on graduate medicine for some time since I didn't get into med and decided on this course of study, but it does seem that the dreams is gonna be difficult to fulfill. After all, the graduate school will not take in some one who did not get a 1st class honours for their undergrad right??

then, there's this problem about ex-co elections in the jap society... as you can see from my tag board, I actually ran for ex-co for the society. I ran for 2 post : local liaison secretary and publications secretary. so... my senior got the post for local liaison (and I am really happy for her) on the first round of voting..

Then, I ran for publications secretary thinking that it's about making pamplets and magazines only to realise on the 'self-promoting' speech that that's the job of the publicity secretary. (ie: I ran for the wrong post) They asked me if I'm interested in running for publicity instead, however, there was a walk over for the post of publicity secretary and someone got the post already. So, in order to not make things ugly, I decided not to...

Eventually all the posts were settled except for publications with this guy and myself running. Looking at the situation, accompanied with the fact that I ran for the post mainly because the rest of my OG in the freshman camp were running, I decided against running and 'gave up' the post to the other guy. (ie: I walked-out of the elections)

However, the situation now is that... they want me in the ex-co... (because of my japanese background, relations with the moelc and r j as well asmy past experiences dealing with the japs I think...) So, they are gonna 'create' a post in the ex-co for me... doing logistics. My job scope will be to tidy and manage this little cardboard that the society has to keep their barang barang. (-_-''')

you probably realised, it's practically squeezing a position out...

and the fact that I literally 'walked out' during the elections, I feel extremely awkward to be attending ex-co meetings and activities.... while I'll love to work with the present batch of ex-co members, it's just not right that I 'stay'/'slug' in the ex-co as a "trial ex-co" member. argh... and the best thing now is... I have absolutely no idea how to get myself out of this pile of mess... I don't wanna strain relations with the pple in jap soc because they are some of the few pple in nus that i really liked so far and because I wanna take part in their activities... but staying on in the ex-co under such conditions is absolutely wierd.

And... although I don't stay in the halls and will not need my cca points, the 'trial ex-co' position will not be official - it won't be unless they pay 140 dollars and change the constitution. Call me practical, anything you want, but I am not willing to work equal work load as the others in the ex-co team if I am not gonna be acknowledged and recognised for my contributions. I'll rather be a member, help them out on my own free wll when I am free~ Now, I feel tied down - I am an "ex-co" and have a responsibility to the society.

Seeing the road again in my course of study as a difficult and hard-work filled one... I really don't see myself being active in any society or activity...

argh... you're probably seeing stars merely by reading this entry... I am seeing stars AND PLANETS thinking about them~!

It doesn't help that the lecturers are trying to teach 2 years work in 3 months and I am practically falling asleep at the monotonous drone of theirs... I'm feeling miserable, stressed out and utterly confused that I think I cannot be cheerful anymore~

Takuya's goldfish, Ikura-chan, passed away~

Ikura-chan is a goldfish that sleeps facing upwards (like humans)... =(

Ikura-chan's name came from its lumpy head that looks like fish roe (ikura).... Takuya talked about it on SMAPXSMAP about a year ago... it passed away.....

You know something? Takuya buried Ikura-chan in his garden and sowed some strawberry seeds on the soil where he buried Ikura-chan... and according to him, the strawberries grew very well... he said, "Ikura-chan became strawberries and returned to me... every year, he will return to me as strawberries" (-_-''')

Takuya, are you a girl???!!!!

Jiawei lost...

There are some things that I wanna blog about - thoughts that had been bothering me for the day.

But I'm just too exhausted from school to type a long entry explaining everything. I thought I had finally climbed out of my hermit shell, but somehow, maybe I'm wrong... I'm still experiencing the inertia to move, the reluctance to compete... I just wanna have a simple life spent doing things I wanna do, not for any reasons but just because I feel that it's what I want to do. When can I become a person like that? If I can't when can I change this mindset of mine?

okie, back to mugging. (-_-'') My brain's NOT WORKING!!

and... I just realised that I enjoyed the genes and society lecture very much!! Maybe... I do like biology, just that I refuse to admit it?

to my dear leader of SMAP, Nakai Masahiro san,

OTANJYOUBI OMEDETOU~!!!!!!

Happy 32nd Birthday my dear leader, thank you for bring SMAP to what SMAP is today and thank you for loving SMAP so much. Not only are you the leader of SMAP, you are also the leader of all SMAP fans. For your 32nd birthday, may all that's good be to you and may you find someone you want to be with for the rest of your life soon!!

hey dears!! add me to your msn contact list okie!! it's

(my english name)(my surname)@hotmail.com

p/s: it's to filter out pple who read my blog but dun know me personally if there's any. if you're my friend but so hopelessly don't know my name... tag me, and I'll consider adding you. *wink*

NUS lecturers teach so fast!! if you even consider that teaching... *sob*
uni's been burning a hole in my pocket with the books... and no offense, but somehow, I don't think 2nd hand books are very much cheaper... I get the impression that our seniors are trying to 'cheat' us to buy the books from them at a less-than-reasonable 2nd price.

ok, look at this situation i encountered:

For the module, Programming Methodology, we need to buy a certain textbook that's actually notes written by our lecturers. There's two edition to the book, and I want the 2nd edition because it's more updated andl.... edited with errors in the 1st edition corrected.

So, I was trying to look for a 2nd hand one from the seniors... then, there was this senior I asked (whom I do not know personally)... I asked her if it's the 2nd edition and she told me she didn't know... so, okie... nvm... I asked for the appearance of the book and checked with my friend who have bought the 2nd edition new from the co-op. (all conversation took place through sms btw) and found out that hers is actually the 1st edition because the 2nd edition is out only this year. so, I smsed her to tell her that since hers is the first edition, I do not want it... then she replied: "I have gone through with my friend and found out that the one in the co-op is not much different from mine..."

...

so, she does know that it's the 1st edition she's holding?!!! Or did she think that there's 3 editions all together? I'll like to think that it's the latter. besides, she's selling me at 12 bucks, and the 1st hand one from the co-op is 15.60 dollars... so, no point compromising accuracy and buy a 2nd hand that's 3.60 cheaper.

and I realised that there's a CO-OP card!!!! gonna get my hands on it... 5% discount i think... which is... 20 dollars if I buy 400 dollars all together. better than nothing... for those who want it too... go to the CO-OP with 2 passport size photo and ask the lady at the counter for the application form.

clare: that's an evil plan of yours to get me to blog more often right?? haha... love ya~!

I'll just like to say,

SUSILO, YOU RULE!!!!!!!!!

go on and bring that medel back~
ok, no pressure, but your performance this morn (midnight) was FANTASTIC.
(not that you read my blog...)

I think I am gonna fall into the evil trend of engineers - be a silient worker.

Somehow... after one week fo school, I find myself not wanting to express my feelings, make known my thoughts and rather... even to think about things apart from maths, physics and computing.

die... I don't even know how to continue writing this entry!! grrrrrr....... die... I need to read more... books, magazines, anything!! anything to keep me active and thinking... yes, maths, physics etc are DEAD. They only make a portion of my brain work... by the end of the 4 years, I think I will not know how to speak properly anymore.

hello hello! back from first day of school. Nothing especially excited really...

Went to school at 8.30 this morn even though my lecture starts at 12 to look for our Prof. regarding the module... then, they finally got it settled. Although those with A level bio are not supposed to be allowed to take, it was their mistake in allowing us to take the module for bidding. So, this will be an exceptiong for those who have registered for the module. (^-^) Just to be fair... since bidding now for another module that doesn't clash with our timetable is almost impossible... (all the modules are snapped up!)

ok... time to read programming notes... (o_O)

p/s: I think this blog is getting BORING... ok, to liven things up a little... Takuya just went to HK last week to film 2046... (not sure if it's the promotional film or the actual thing itself that's supposed to be finished during the Cannes Festival). TAKUYA~! come Singapore!!!! *grinz*

Happy Birthday Singapore!!!!!!!

now, back to the fantasic problem I have now.... apparrently, I'm not allowed to take Genes and Society! Now, I'm left wih 50 points in my account and a redundant module that I cannot take.

hello dears... I used 200 nus points to bid for Genes and Society.

...

so, I am now left with 50 points in my miserable general account. Blame it on my lousy timetable that allowed me to fit nothing else but this gem in... and guess what? there's 2 lecture groups for this gem.. and the other group, used 1 point! grrrrr..... not that you can use nus points to buy anything except miserable modules to make you mug your butts off... but this means that I will have less points to carry forward for the next sem and hence put me to a disadvantage in bidding for popular modules~

honestly, I'm not very sure if the system works this way, but...

okok, i admit that I am a scrouge ok?! paying 200 points for a module is really expensive! though I know pple pay a few hundred for theirs...

I am no idea what am I getting upset about... it's NUS points... not food, not money, not power, not marks... haha... nvm... I guess it's because the other lecture group got it at 1 point. (^-^)

I have a feeling that my english is getting worse by the day... (not that it has ever been anything near to 'good') but the idea that I am... as my sis told me earlier on today... more and more... crude? Been swearing and using... not very elegant language. haha... can't imagine?

okok... don't forget what your 8 years in sn taught you. wen1 wen2 er3 ya3 gao1 gui4 da4 fang1

takuya's in hongkong!!!!!!!!!!!!
*please let him come singapore, please let him come singapore~~~~*
*please let him come over the weekends because school is starting and I can't go fetch him on a weekday*

shit~! the next min bid point for genes and society is 31?! it was 11 2 hours ago~! sigh... i need to get this GEM (General Education Module - ask NUS) you know how tough it is to even find a module that timetable doesn't clash with my timetable and is interesting enough to study and easy enough to score?! sigh..... *pray that the bid doesn't get any higher*

hmm.. let's see what's new... I finished stage 2 for driving!! did verticle parking yesterday, later in the day it'll be land changing in heavy traffic.

wonder if it's bad not to go for orientation... but I need this week for driving! not that I can finish lessons, but I need it. A single day helps. well.. and I'm glad that I dun have to join games... heard that it's wet and muddy. But on the other hand, I'm missing out on socializing with fellow enign students... why can't orientation be dancing, eating and performance watching? I'm asking for too much right??!! *grinz*

okie... doing a free advertisment for a friend, anyone living in serangoon/kovan area, please let me know if you are interested in teach tuition to 2 boys, Primary 3 Chinese and Primary 5 Chinese and Maths... it's be most prob 3 hrs per week, one hours for the P3, one for P5 and one mix. Price: about SGD260-280

as usual, commitment and responsibility required and make sure your chinese can make it hor... primary school shldn't be that bad... but knowing our singaporean chinese standard... just in case.

leave me a tag if you are interested?

been busy with the darn bidding system these days... so I might not blog very frequently for a while... dun miss me!

Hi people... haven't been blogging for some days.... let's see... it's because I have nothing joyful to blog about. well... except that I found a new smap fan friend in carol...

Life has been pretty much a drag these days as the day to the start of uni draws closer. I know I chose this route and I cannot afford the luxury to regret or feel self-pity... As many of my friends take their first steps into the fulfillment of their dreams, mine's still a mist. The inertia to move is not from being stagnant for too long (according to puriko's first law of physics), but the plain dislike of the things that's going to happen. This is a period of time I know I will have to learn to master up strength and courage to move on, to brave what's instill for me in life. However, I feel weak. I have no desire to push forward. While the strength has to be drawn from within, it's not there for me.

I have no desire to join activities in uni, I just wanna hide in my little hermit shell and escape from reality. But another part of me tells me that it is not the way to do things... for my own sake, I have to move. I'm still not going for orientation though, I can well cramp another week of driving... that's my pirority at the moment.

Sometimes, I ask myself... what did I do to end myself in this state? Did I do anything wrong? I'll like to tell myself, "no", but I cannot be linient with myself. Something I learnt over the years is that only the people who work hard for something will get that they are looking for, but not every one who works hard get what they want. That's life. I did not work hard enough. Is that right? I start to question myself. I have lost who I am... or probably, I never knew who I am. I am a person who will bend and adapt myself to whatever comes my way... I have no strict principals to talk about, and I don't like that. I don't knwo what I am driving at already... as you probaly noticed, my mind's in a whirl. I cannot think without not giving myself a headache. I'm leading life day by day under the inertia to move on. I know I cannot afford to do that anymore, but the force to push on is not found. argh.

I passed my final theory test!!!!!!!!!!! muahahahahahha~ thought I'll fail because I found one mistake already... (you can have only five mistakes to pass)

heard from shuyan that you are not supposed to wash your hair after dyeing for 2 days so that the colour will not fade (to a lighter shade)... die. Washed it once and conditioned it 4 times last night (to get rid of the smell and to not let it get so dry). win... thanks dears for your comfort... argh... how????? looks like a tiger you know?? my hair base is black (natural colour) with blond highlights... sigh major disaster...

hey people!! I dyed my hair... ok... highlighted my hair. It's this blond colour... and guess what?! I think I look like a major ah-lian... or rather... ah-beng.. (-_-''') and I was wearing super loose berms and t-shirt~ can you imagine the major ah-beng I looked like??!! shld have chosen a reddish colour instead. it'll probably make me look more feminine... maybe I shld get my ears pierced or something, will that help?? (ok, it's only a mention, have not brought myself to the needles because of the fear of pain) now I look like some major delinquent. and guess what?!! there's a bioengin welcome tea session on tuesday, I have to get myself to look more decent!!!!!!! (-_-''')

Sigh.... Pam... learn to live for yourself, who cares about what other people think? At the end of the day, you live for yourself.

Okie, change of topic, I have a sister who's as stubborn as a mule. And, if she doesn't care to change that attitute for herself... no one can help her. Thanks dears anyway. ^^

I love Sena and Minami~!!

two 'O' level takers who are obviously stressed out here... well, you may not believe it, but ask your seniors, none of them will remember those 'O' level days well.  They remember those days they spend in school with their friends. It's just a phase of your life that.... shld I say, you have to go through, but just go on from there. It may seem like the world to you now, but after it's past, you'll realise how... trival it is. Not to say that you don't have to work hard for it, but that there are just more important things in life.
 
well... I really think that life is beautiful...
it's a matter of perspective.
 
when you wake up in the day, when sun rays pierce into your eyes... the orange colour that you see, the colours all around you, red from the flowers, blue from the sky, yellow from the sun, green from the trees... aren't they beautiful? Take a deep breathe, feel the air in your lungs, the instant wakening of your senses... isn't that feeling wonderful? The feeling of being alive? (try drowning yourself for a while and you'll get what I mean better) The rising and setting sun, the changing moon, the moving clouds, the twinkling stars... all the miracles in life! Have you ever stopped to think about all these? Or have you let your life roll past you without feeling the sweetness of it? Have you been letting your busy schedule blind you and desensitize you from savouring these moments that fills your heart with warmth? Poetic you may think I am trying to be... but it's these minimal things in life that we often forget.
 
Yes, it's because you are alive, that's why you have so many responsibilities... so many things to do, that you don't really want to do. So many expectations to meet up to, so many eyes looking at how you perform. There's even more things that you want to do, you dream of, that doesn't come through. The restrictions in life, the boundaries in everything we do... Are they suffocating you?
 
well... look at it from another point of view... you are able to do all these things, feel being stressed, because you are alive!! And being alive enables you to feel other things other than stress. The hug from a friend, the love of your family, the joy of a joke, the faith of believing in your god and even the feeling of being in love... wonderful feelings of life aren't they? Don't expect things to always be perfect... don't desire them to be flawless and life to be nothing but a bliss... you will not be able to feel those good things as much without knowing the feeling of the bad things.
 
It's all a matter of perspective.
 
ok... talked a little too much that I'm feeling that I'm getting irrelavant and idealistic. Maybe because I'm a dreamer, I like to see things in their most beautiful manner. It makes me happy.

it's downloading!! it's downloading!! SMAPXSMAP!! Yamaguchi Tomoko! Minami! Sena!! *excited*
 
read that Takuya is totally... shld I say... under-performing today!! haha... finally! (he ALWAYS wins) they say... he's so shy, he dare not even look at Yamaguchi!! haha <--Mr. Shy~! \(^-^)/
 
wanna know what I am so excited?
1) Takuya mentioned before than one girl he had always made him very nervous is Yamaguchi!!
2) Takuya seldom loses in games and he lost today~!! (reason: because Yamaguchi's around and he doesn't know how to act!!)
 
dear Takuya... you are a married man! don't need to be so shy right? and what's more! you know Yamaguchi so well!! (he even knows what kind of food she likes)
 
Nakai (the leader of SMAP) was trying throughout the entire episode to get Takuya and Yamaguchi to kiss... he says it's the wish of all the live audiences and the audiences in front of the tv (and mine!). that's didn't happen though... and Takuya lost for the Bistro SMAP session... so he got no kiss. (><)(the chef(SMAP) whose cooking is the best liked by the guest(Yamaguchi here) gets a kiss from the guest if the guest is a lady)
 
note: Bistro SMAP is a cooking competition between the SMAP members. in this live session, they cook live.
since today is a special live session, SMAP plays various games (today, it's a 5m marathon and a 'throw slippers' competition). The loser usually goes on a punishment.
 
but I heard that there's no punishment for today's games!! So, I won't get to see Takuya get punished AGAIN? (He lost once in history... argh)

colourful blogs possible!!!!!!!!!  so cool~ haha, not that it matters to me... :P <--lazy
 
anyway~! it's TONIGHT!!!!! T.O.N.I.G.H.T!! Yamaguchi Tomoko is attending SMAPXSMAP live as a special guest of the Bistro SMAP segment. (^-^)
 
SENA~!
 
MINAMI~!
 
was called a 'bimbo' by shuyan today when I sang S.H.E's "Super Star" earlier on today at ktv. hey... where do you see such an ugly bimbo? haha, and my brain's made of tofu on the minimum~ (at least it's not hollow... *grinz*)  btw... I think the lyrics of "Super Star" really fits my idea of Takuya: You are the light, you are electricity, you are the only legacy. *GRINZ*
 
janice: I agree. (sorry, too bimbotic today to think of any reply >< )

was reading Joe Cheng's (Zheng Yuan Chang <- this guy who acted in 'Qiang Wei zhi Lian" with Ella from S.H.E) message to his fans... apparently, some guy in his fan forum was saying that he's thinking of suicide... which reminded me of an incident that happened nearly a year ago.
 
didn't want to talk about it at that time because I know that there are people who are badly affected by it... but now, I don't think the people who are affected by it reads this blog in the first place, neither are there pesky reporters from the New Paper reading people's blog for this news anymore... so, may I? Just a gentle reminder, if what's gonna follow might affect you in any way, do not continue.
 
 

 
 
 
 
  
  
  
  
  
  
 
I remember it was a very normal morning of school, but during the first period, all the teachers were called out for an urgent meeting. After the famous teacher-tearing-book incident, nobody suspected more than a normal discipline problem that got serious enough for an urgent meeting. Almost 0.5 hour later... my ct walked into class, eyes teary and red, in an obvious shock state to break the news to us... a girl took her life 'last night'. A wave of shock and disbelief swept through the class in the already cold container ts classroom. Two of my classmates broke into tears... I was busy comforting my classmate who as sitting beside me to really feel anything. The teachers asked the students who are affected to go for a councilling session in the school library... the rest of us stayed in class in silience. no lessons were conducted that day, none of the teachers were in the correct state of mind to have an animated discussion session with the students, neither were the students in the mood for any physics chem or maths.
 
"she was still comforting another friend yesterday afternoon!"
"I sat beside her last week!"
 
No one knows the reason why a seemingly perfectly ok person will choose to end her life in one of the most scary way to die. Nobody even felt that she was prone to doing such a thing! My memories of her was her cheery smile, great voice and sunny character. She was popular, she has everything going on around her in her life. What was it so bad that she was courageous enough to kill herself but not brave enough to face?
 
At 18, death was far away... death was something for people much older than me, who probably contracted some incurable disease or something... but for that day, death was right beside me. Happening to people just like me.
 
WHY? I do not know. I am not a friend of hers... we just simply know the existance of each other, and I was badly shocked. I can't imagine the feeling of those who knew her well... of those who had hoped that they had noticed something, hoped that they have spoke to her and helped her through it.
 
I hope that death is not something that had passed the mind of anyone of you reading this at the moment. It's not a game. It's not drama: the actor will not be appearing on TV tmr after he died.
Take a walk around the hospitals, see those who are ill straggle to live, if they want to keep alive, why do you want to die? Your death might end worries for you... but it doesn't destroy them, the worries and pain are passed to those alive. Those whom you love, who loves you.  
 
Using 4D's slogen, Life is Beautiful, Carpe Diem!!

warning: Takuya flooding to come (I'm too free nowadays)
 
listening to Takuya's radio programme, What's Up SMAP!! now... realised that takuya's voice during the programme, is very often one obtave higher than normal. His mental age will degrade from the usual 22 to 12?! hahahahaha you know... it's because of him being so cute and youthful and... childish(?!) that I like him... ^^
 
of course, once in a while, he will undergo some form of transformation or something... and start talking about serious stuff, at those times, his mental age will become 42... (but that's really once in a while), then, you will start to feel that this fella is really a mature adult. then, he'll start talking about some really foolish joke or action, and then you'll think that he's still a child all over again. ^^
 
you know... everytime I listen to the radio programme... I really can picture his actions and expressions in front of the mike... all animated and lively, unlike the usual him we see on tv... accompanied by that laughter that's 2 obtave higher than his usual voice... that's the Takuya I like. (^-^)

just as a reminder (a profile of Takuya):
 
name: Kimura Takuya
 
age: 31
 
birthday: 13 Nov 1972
 
member of: SMAP (Nakai Masahiro, Kimura Takuya, Inagaki Goro, Kusanagi Tsuyoshi, Katori Shingo)
 
good in: acting, singing, dancing, cooking
 
interest: surfing, watching video/dvd, fishing, kendo
 
likes: to drive very fast, spagetti, natto
 
family: parents, younger brother, wife (Kudo Shizuka), 2 daughters (Kokomi and Mitsuki)
 
famous dramas: Long Vacation, Love Generation, Beautiful Life, Hero, Good Luck!!, Pride...
 
movies: 2046, Fly Boys Fly
 
famous songs (as SMAP): Sekai ni Hitotsu dake no Hana, Yozora no Mukou, Lion Heart...
 
voice performance: as the black bird in Food Fight, 'Howl' in Howl's Moving Castle (Ghibli production to be release in autumn)
 
regular programmes: SMAPXSMAP (Fuji TV, mon 2000hrs-2300hrs jap time), What's Up SMAP!! (Tokyo FM, fri 2300hrs-2330hrs jap time)
 
 
okie... my recommendations:
 
songs: Orange, Zutto Zutto, Ha, Kimi wo Tsurete Yuku, Sekai ni Hitotsu dake no Hana, Lion Heart
 
dramas: Gift, Beautiful Life, Long Vacation
 
Concerts: 1998, 1999, 2002, 2003
 
programmes: What's Up is really good if you can understand japanese
 
for people who don't know Kimura: (first, knock your head on the walls) then, start by watching Long Vacation, then, get a few concerts and watch them. by this time... you shld be more or less obssessed by this fella, then get yourself shows like Gift and Nemureru Mori, you will learn to appreciate his talent more... then get yourself What's Up to listen to the real Takuya... and you will be hopelessly in love. (^-^) then, weekly dosage of SMAPXSMAP is really amazing and good for you to know the other wonderful members of SMAP. Precription completed.

was reading a passage talking about Takuya talking about how he dislike people littering... when I remembered a Jap compre that I did before... until now... I still marvel at the way the author put his words... it's a signpost in the parks that goes (in jap): "Take lots of beautiful photos, but don't take the flowers, leave lots of wonderful memories, but don't leave your litter" it sounds really good in Jap... really good... nice to have signs like that in the parks instead of the blatent "DO NOT LITTER" signs huh? the author says the signs spoil the beauty of the parks. *wink*
 
actually nat... I really don't know! Maybe it's because my results are not good enough so they dun let me take it... I'm just speculating the reason.

argh... what a day...
 
called up the person in charge of the japanese language placement test this morning to ask about taking the placement test to do japanese as a module to be told that since I got my JLPT 2 2.5 years ago and have forgotten alot of my jap already, I should go down and try to see if I can take the test..
 
so, I took a 1.5 hours trip down to NUS to talk to the teacher for 10 mins... to be told that since I can understand what she's talking about in Japanese and can speak Japanese... I am not allowed to take the modules because me being able to speak Jap will make the rest of my classmates stressed - because NUS students can write Jap but cannot speak and listen to Jap... (-_-''') can you imagine my face????!!!!!!! it was literally (?). then, i asked if NUS will have any higher modules to take because I don't wanna waste my 5 years Jap education... the answer is NUS doesn't have enough manpower to offer the higher standard modules at the moment and probably not in the near future either... (-_-''')
 
and the thing is... after 5 years of learning jap and intensive jap education from Takuya every week on his radio and tv programmes... how can I not be able to speak and understand the simple Japanaese that she was using to speak to me?? that will be a shame to my teachers and Takuya!! but honestly... I know I am still a long way to being 'good' in Japanese... just listen to the Jap of those pple who took A level jap... they can practically take a japanese novel and read it like a book. THAT's what I call being 'GOOD'.
 
so... there goes my jap education (I'm gonna have to study myself or something), and 3 hours of my precious day that can be spent at AH, or at least at home slacking...

then... O.K.... I went home... only to find out that the SEP language preparation class (French and German) results are out and I didn't get in... something tells me that it's because I have done Japanese before and went for a student exchange programme before... or are my results really that bad??? argh...

I'm just curious...

How many of you actually bother to come by my blog every once in a while and read it?? I mean, it's boring, it's plain, it's got really bad english written on it and most importantly, it's subjected to Takuya flooding every once in while when my addiction works up!! I don't think I am a writer who's inspiring, motivating or just simply sensational... so, why on earth are you people reading it???!! Has my plain and boring life been interesting enough for you to read it, or are you so plain and boring that my life seems interesting to you?

can someone enlighten me?

can I scream??? can I? can I?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

guess what???!!! *extreme excitment*
Yamaguchi Tomoko, the Minami in 'Long Vacation' is gonna be a special guest in next week's LIVE SMAPXSMAP!! can you see my face?? 8 years! 8 years! (Yamaguchi 'retired' from the entertainment scene after the drama) Sena and Minami's gonna reunite!!!!! *grinz* I've been smiling like a fool for the last 2 days since I first heard the news. SENA!! MINAMI!!

okok, let's recap:


the famous title head


Kimura Takuya as Sena Hidetoshi


Yamaguchi Tomoko as Hayama Minami


the couple. (^-^)


kiss


my favourite scene... Sena and Minami at the piano. (^-^)

counting down to monday!!

hello dears! clare: sms me (or meet me online on icq) when you are back from camp? then we'll arrange to meet okie? (^-^)

oh, for those who might think that I'm too tired after the camp to blog... not really, I'm just... plain lazy. *oops*

okie, the camp did fulfill the japanese food statement, we had japanese curry. the ktv at chinatown was great!! sang 2 SMAP songs. *grinz* anybody wants to go with me again? note: MUST let me sing SMAP songs. *wide grin*

hmm... what else, went for my Primary 6 class gathering. it's great to know that everyone's living well. ^^ hmm.. not much feeling about it though, can't remember my primary school days very well (I'm forgetful -> I can't even remember my JC days!) but it was funny hearing them talk about all the naughty things we did in primary school and there's still a warm feeling to see everyone again. Wonder when will there be another one...

come to think of it, is 4 diligence gonna have a gathering??

yeah, and actually, I'm here to share a song.

Imagine by John Lennon

Imagine there is no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for and no religion too
Imagine all people living life in peace

You may say I'm a dreamer,but I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us and the world will be as one

Imagine no possession
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people sharing all the world
You may say I'm a dreamer ,but I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us and the world will live as one

I always like songs like this... meaningful, anti-war. (like Blowing in the Wind by Bob Dylan) hope you like it too!

hello hello! dead tired from this afternoon's 'photo hunt' all around NUS... sigh... why does the darn school have SO many stairs?? nearly died.... booked out of the camp for tonight 'cause I have driving lesson tmr at 8.35am (what unearthly hours~) imagine traveling from pasir ris to yck in the morning... I'll FAINT... so, yapz, the decision is to go home and join the camp tmr after my driving.

as I said, I'm tired, so this entry might be short... or, if I'm in a crappy mood, which does seem like the case (when my brain is not working and I'm just typing everything that I am thinking), I'll go on and on forever... so, it's at your own risk to continue reading. I've warned you.

they're doing beach games tmr morn, which I'm glad that I'll miss, because I am really tired and might need to go to the hospital if this I try to push myself any further. people there are generally quite nice, except that till now, there's no common topic to talk to them about. pammie will be happy to hear this, the camp's theme is FFX (i think)... my group's called Guada. apparently some race in final fantasy... whatever (-_-''')

and, something's bothering me since just now... who's 'fishie!'??? someone I know? a passer-by? someone from Takuya's bbs??? or... some one from the japanese camp(?!) tell me! I'm bursting with curiousity that some kind soul who doesn't know me (if you don't) bothers to read my blog!! haha

okie.. back to the camp, you pple are dead for a LONG entry... so, the 'promise' to serve jap food is non-existance. doesn't really bother me though... I'm SO glad that sitong's with me because, as I said, have not found a common topic with them... sigh... pple who join the club seems like generally pple who are quite quiet (I mean the freshmen)... which is bad, because I AM LOUD. *sigh* okie, but face it, in face of pple whom I have no idea what a potential common topic might be, I don't talk too... (okie, I admit, I TRY to talk, but conversations don't last very long, because I am not exactly motivated to try to bring a conversation today either)

okie!! conclusion, eh... (oh dear! sudden brain dead) the camp's bearable. yapz! that's it. and we are winning every game (my group), which is... getting boring if you ask my humble opinion.

sigh, I'm really getting crappy, if you are still reading this, thank you. though actually, you don't have to. (>.<)

I promise that the next entry will be more sensible and... whatever

I'm starting to develop a "I don't think I wanna go for the camp" feeling... no particular reason, just the plain simple old "sian... *with a long ending drag*". Just found out that there will be NO pple from my jc will be there, no sn pple apart from sitong... the only dear person whom I'll know is sitong. sigh... and, I hate to immerse myself with a bunch of people who likes to speak jap who heavens, can't speak the language for nuts! (ok, I know I am mean.)

you know.... once you start no going for activities (and turn off completely for such thing), the inertia to start going for such things gets greater and greater. (Puriko's first law of physics -> the longer you stay stagnant, the greater the inertia).

sigh... ok... think, Japan, think Takuya... think you can intoxicate more people into liking Takuya at the camp. *evil grinz*

shuyan!!! thought you vapourised into thin air or something!! hey, I saw you online 2 nights ago and said hi, with no replies from you. this that you? or, is your icq account hecked too? had fun in beijing?? looking forward to seeing you again!

yesterday, when my driving instructor (a pretty young guy) found out that I was a student of sn... (he happened to talk about driving along sn's roads and I let out a sigh <-- you all know that place is like... hilly?) the one thing he asked me: "so, I heard that sn has alot of butch (heck... can't spell for nuts)?"

(-_-''') where on earth did that come from??!!

and the thing is... at my old work place, the NUS attachment student asked me such a question before too!!

should have asked them... "so, have you met one before?" if not, SHUT UP AND STOP PASSING INACCURATE REMARKS ABOUT MY SCHOOL!! *argh*

Declined all my UK offers... sigh... was very tempted to take up the Imperial biomedical engineering... okie... look ahead. susume~!! (move forward)

SMAP's new single's gonna be sang on 12 July's SMAPXSMAP!!!! so... the single CD should come out on the shelves not long after that. It's gonna be called "Sore ga yuuki nanda~ Start in my heart" *cheers* finally after nearly one and a half years!!!!!! *cheers*

okie.. I know I'm the only one around here getting all excited... (but who cares?!) lalalala~ that means concert!! that means new album!! hahahahahaha, was still getting worried that there will not be a single (and concert) this year... Nakai (the leader of SMAP) is goning to Athens to do report coverage for the Olympics and Shingo (the youngest member in SMAP) still has a TV serial going on. Hurray!!

WAIT... last friday, on takuya's "What's Up SMAP!!" Takuya announced that till then, there has been no plans of a new single... which means: they have not started recording the songs!!?? and 12 July is... less than 2 weeks from today... (-_-''') why am I not surprised.

seems like this time... fans found out about the single's release before the members themselves AGAIN...

okie, just some info for those who don't understand what I'm talking about (if you are still reading): last year, SMAP's new album is called "MIJ, Made in Japan" and the recording company did all sorts of advertising on the streets of Japan with mega-sized billboards printed with the red words on white background, "MIJ". However, while all the billboards are up on the streets, the members themselves have NO IDEA that the billboards are their billboards... Tsuyoshi(the food fight guy) was still wondering on his way to work who's that who did such large scale advertising, only to find out later in the day that it's actually SMAP's newest album's title... (-_-''')

it's also not uncommon for smap's singles and albums to be recorded 2 weeks before its release. the reason given (by the fans) is that they are simply too busy.

I wonder why do I like them... (-_-''')

but still... saiko!!! (best!!) ureshii!!! (happy!!)

ultra apologies to Clare!! sorry dear!! I totally forgot about the dental appointment this evening!! We meet next week okie??? sorry sorry!!! *hugz*

hello hello!! back in the light after a whole 2 hours of blackout!!!!! Electricity is DAMN important man... (a fact that I have been taking for granted for) argh... my com, my aircon, my lights, my hot water bath... all of these luxuries disappeared with a "poof" 2 hours ago. and there's almost NOTHING I can do candle light lighting my place except listening to the radio on my sis's HP and playing with candle wax... =P

and... all of a sudden, all sorts of nicknames appeared for me!! Janise calls me "Puriko aka Prissy" on her blog and dear Clare... "Pris the takuya mad woman" sigh...

actually Janise... I kinda don't want everyone to know which "Pris" am I... that's the point of using Puriko as a screen name... so, you mind?? just use Puriko on your blog if you wanna link me?? This blog is kinda personal (though not THAT personal) I want only the people who I want to read this blog to read it and know who I am. All the other people can read this blog without knowing who I am if they find me interesting enough.

sigh... somehow I feel that all my efforts to remain as "Puriko" is furtile...

I've decided to climb out of my hermit shell and go for the NUS Japanese Studies Society Camp scheduled on 5-7 July... anybody else interested? go sign up at http://www.jss.org.sg this is the only camp I think I'll go... so if you wanna go for the same camp as me... go to this one!! *bhb(-_-''')* AND... it's only 19 bucks!! the cheapest I've heard of so far.

sign... I'll make a lousy salesperson as compared to the mister who called me up just now talking to me for a whole 20 min trying to convince me to go for the camp when I don't know him AT ALL. The best thing's yet to come... he spoke for 90% of the conversation with "en", "okie..." and "hmm" from me only. I thought I like to crap.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SHUYAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

May year to come be one filled with love, joy and fun.
May you grow more wit as you grow older, find that person in your life soon who will love you with all his heart, be happy and successful in whatever you do and grow closer and closer to god as the days pass.

I remember xiaoting asking me before something to the effect of, "do you feel any hatred or resentment towards NUS for not giving you medicine?" Recieved the same question from a few others too... maybe some of you reading this blog have the same queries but never came to the point of asking me...

My answer is no. Well, yes, I've heard all the rumors about the inner workings of the medicine faculty in chooisng people etc... how some of my dear friends think that I should get in etc... But well, I was given an interview. I was given a fair chance (or so it seems and I will take it that it is fair...) as everyone else. And I was rejected. Fair and square. What else can I say? No resentment. Just pure disappointment in myself. The only blame is on me. I could have gotten 4 As, I could have scored an A for my CCA, could have written better for the essay, performed better for the interview... isn't that all about me? So, no one to blame. This is how I performed and I've got my results. I have to accept it.

Of course, that doesn't mean that I'll give up my dreams my dear friends. It's probably a blessing in disguise for me... for me, at 19, I still do not know exactly whether medicine is for me. I just feel that it's something that I will like to do. But if 4 years later, after I graduate, I still want to do it, I believe that it does mean something. By doing bioengin, I'll be still keeping that option of graduate medicine open. If I still want to do med, I'll do it in the end. I just have to make sure that I do well in bioengin and get a first class honours. So, pals, wish me luck and courage to move on yarz?

Peace.

I think I'm on crossroad of my life... it has been a while (since the time when we have to put in our JAE choices for JC) since I feel like that... but this time, the crossroad is a greater (?!) one... it's time I move into a dorection in my life... a direction that will in a way decide my life (at least for the next few years to come)...

Reading a book called "The Alchemist" now... it's talking about how people are borned with a destiny to fulfill in their lives. How some people will work their way to it while many others gave up pursuing. And, it talked about how some people, despite knowing their destiny has chosen to go another way, probably in seek of a more stable lifestyle, probably in fear of losing their sense direction once their destinies (or dreams) are fulfilled...

still reading the book, but somehow, I feel that I am seeking for some answer from the book, some direction, some strength, some faith... something. something I hope the book will tell me, something that I know the book will tell me to look in my heart for.

ok, think I can see the puzzled faces in front of the com now. but you see, while some people live with not knowing the meaning of their life, others try to seek that meaning all their lives... and for me, I want to be in the latter group of people. not trying very hard to find it, but just not give up looking for it, and someday, I believe I will find it.

Haha... Clare... it's ADDICTION!! *grinz*

Went to the dentist to fix my two front tooth today... I have 4 cavities on my three front tooth altogether!! HUH??!! (-_-''') the dentist (as my medicine interviewer kindly reminded me) dental surgeon, fixed two today and is gonna fix another two next week... one of my cavities was so deep that it was actually affecting my nerves! *sensitive as he puts it...* so, he injected me with some anesthetics and now my upper lip's literally immobile. ARGH... you never realise how important your lips are until you can't move them!!

ok, fair enough.... I think the dentist is pretty skilled and actually very nice.

Have I told you that Mr. Kimura Takuya is so cute?? hahahahaha *still going gaga*

YOU magazine, this is a serious warning for you to get your homework done before writing inaccurate reports about Takuya...

anybody with eyes can see from the photos that he does NOT wear platforms!! *what the...* Nakata Hidetoshi said before that Takuya is about his height so he takes alot of second hand clothings from Takuya. and Nakata is 175 from the bio on his website. Nakata doesn't need to lie about his height right???

and, NOBODY said that Takuya's the leading actor in 2046! He had a supporting role in that movie!! and please... the 7 minutes screen time is actually pretty good for takuya already... fans are actually worried that he will get a fleeing scene in that movie only!!

and about the fact that he has a long body and short legs... this is Takuya's response when someone wrote into his radio programme to scold him for having short legs: "Gomen ne~ ore, nihonjin dakara" (sorry, because I'm a Japanese - said in a cute and almost joking manner) so, what's the big deal??? so what if he has short legs?? and... I'll still like him even if he is 160.

I'm seriously considering writing in that magazine... this is NOT the first time they claim Takuya's height to be 163... (-_-''') and that about him wearing platforms... I can sue you for that!! He's 176. (or at least near that...)

oh!! I forgot!! Nat, Clare... The Mystery of Time and Space updated!! (you can see how FREE I am not working... I'm actually playing this darn game for the third time!!)

met up with my jc classmates today for lunch and tea... it's great to meet them again...
very often, I felt that the two years in JC is like a vacuum period of my life. it's almost like, ...my life came to a pause the day I stepped into JC and started again when I finished my A levels and said good bye to the place of green black and white. why? maybe because the two years had been SO fast... it's always a rush from one place to another, one common test after another, one activity after another... there's orientation, then a busy frenzy trying to catch up to what those jc lecturers are talking about, then Orientation 2 (which I spent in the library...) then common test, then cca ex-co interviews, CO practices, rushing to complete the design for outlook magazine, CO concerts, volunteer work at AH, common test after common test, promos, SYF, Jap AO paper, S paper sessions, SAT, chingay, more outlook magazine design... blah blah blah... every day in JC was busy busy busy... mug mug mug... work work work... probably because I never sat down during these two years to look back at my life in JC. that why it never dawned upon me that I had actually led a very exciting JC life. the long talk and chit-chat today reminded me of those days when I was donning the white and green uniform... so those two years are actually quite solid! haha... (^-^)
0k, just felt like writing something today... nothing very interesting though. (>.<) hope you like my new layout! ^^

I'm 19 today... *thinking*

Actually, I don't feel any different...

woke up in the morning recieving emails and smses of "Happy Birthday!!" made me very touched. I always think that the best present one can recieve on her birthday is that of people remembering that this day is special to you. maybe because to me, 'presence' is a very important thing. ^^ Thank you to all my darlings for your birthday messages.

Today is also the birthday of Ella from S.H.E and Nicole Kidman if I'm not wrong. Happy Birthday!! haha

ok, the reason why I blog today... I realised that Takuya is a GREAT cartoonist! haha... he DREW the logo for his drama's hockey team! the team's called blue scorpions and he drew their mascot!! take a look...



note: this picture is cropped from PRIDE's official wallpaper available on Fuji Television's website.

driving lesson in another 2 hrs!! I'm actually quite excited about it!! the exhilaration when the car started moving under MY command!! haha... okie, overuse of exclaimation marks, but this is FUN!!!!

oh... btw... min! why does your blog stand at "Fantasticaaly Fantasia" for the last 2 weeks? just wondering...

Had my first driving lesson today... to be honest, I don't see myself as a driver!! (-_-'') having me on the roads might be the most dangerous thing to happen EVER...

The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown is really good. READ it.

I have 3 decays on my two front tooth!! *all I want for christmas is my two front tooth (without decay)* argh!!

something's making me feel very uncomfortable: been surfing the net for takuya's stuff today (I AM BORED) and guess what?! My blog (this blog) is turning up as one of the search results!!
hmm...

People like me are praying that some miracle can happen so that I get into med... and there's people who gave up med to do bioengin... *got smacked on the face (me)*

WHY?????????????!!!!!!!

I've been slipping in and out of depression, never knew that I am such a vulnerable person: this is pathetic.

thanks dears for all you encouragement, but i guess i am the only one who can help myself to get out of this state. give me some time okie? I need a miracle.

time to pick myself up and move on: it's not easy... but you have to do it.

I've been screwing up my life like I dunno what... sent an email to change my acceptance to chemical engineering... then another to take back and do bioengin again. pissed my parents off like dunno what... sigh... I really do not know if I am doing the right thing... this is screwed

I just accepted the bioengineering course in NUS... feeling very screwed now...... PLEASE let me make the right choice... at most, get stuck in the labs for the rest of my life...

sorry yiling and clare dears... that post was made in jap because I only want shuyan to read it... forgive me yarz? *hugz* I still love ya both... but I only want shuyan to read that... ^^

to shuyan dear... thanks.

saikin, jibun ga jibun wo kirai ni nachattan da. ima made, watashi no 18sai no jisei wa, ittai, nanni? nanni yattan no? ima... ima made yaritai koto ha, yarenai de... yume mo nakunachatte... jibun no jisei wa, honto ni, mecha mecha ni narinashita. jibun no nihongo ha sonna ni hettai no ni, nihongo dake de, kakemasu. sono you na kimochi ha, sono blog wo miru aru hitotachi ni, wataritakunai desu. kanashi sugiru dakara.

dareka, tasukette kure!! saikin, namida ha, watashi no ii tomodachi ni narimashita. nande, jibun wa sonna ni shippai nandesuka?

I let photos do the speaking...
(note: photos are from all over the place... not me...)












*faint*

huimin, you're a genius!!!!!!!! THANKS!!!!! *muah* (^-^)

nat: it'll take SOME TIME for me to forget about takuya. *grinz*
I really need to remove the two scrollbars!! min, any idea??

allow me ok??? everyone is 'avoiding' me nowadays because I just keep on harping about Takuya in Cannes!!!!!!!!!! He arrived in Cannes this morn (around 3am jap time - ie: 2am Singapore time) and he looks SO... GOOD!!!!!!
from Groundbreaker: Takuya's short interview before he departs to France in Narita Airport.

On the moving walkway to the flight gate,
Takuya answered a few questions:
Q: This is your first Cannes. How do you feel about representing Japan?
A: It' not a matter of representing or not. I just feel it's such a sumptuous feeling to be invited overseas to attend a party.
Q: How has the film turned out?
A: Cannes will be my first time to see it.
Q: What are you wearing on the red carpet?
A: I was told to wear something decent.
Q: A dinner jacket?
A: Yes.
Q: Did you choose it yourself?
A: Yes.
Q: Black?
A: I guess.
Q: Did your family see you out?
A: Of course.
Q: What did they say?
A: "Have a good time."
Q: Have you talked to SMAP members about it?
A: I haven't been seeing much of them, outside SMAPxSMAP [there was no SMAPxSMAP shoot last week, so the last time they got together would have been the week before.]
Q: What do you look forward to most in Cannes?
A: [thinking a bit, then with a big smile] The party!

*faint* I'm so excited!!!!

yes clare!! sakura= cherry blossoms!! it's the flower of spring in Japan!!!
shall change to lavender flowers soon though... ^^

anybody knows how to get rid of the two irritating scrollbars at the side of the page so that there will be only one single photo as the background?? argh.. I'm a computer idiot.

best I can do for tonight.... lotsa work to go.... but people! It's spring!! (okie... ending spring...) timr for SAKURA flowers!!

Takuya's "hope" and "wishes" for the Cannes Festival (expressed on his radio programme. "What's Up SMAP!"):

1) Must control the amt of liquor he's drinking (this fella can't drink for nuts!)
2) It's be best if he can sit down to eat during the parties instead of having to stand to enjoy his meal
3) There will be ALOT of pretty actresses in Cannes, he feels that it will be something to look forward to. It'll be great if he can go up and accost them (talk to them I guess?) but he feel that with his limited English abilities, it'll be good if he can do a proper self intro.(takuya... you are the father of two girls!! (-_-''))
4) There will be ALOT of free films to watch and there will be many that he had not seen before, being a person who loves films... he feels that this will be a great experience.
5) He hopes that the reporters don't ask him things like : 'What do you think of the filming process of 2046?' or 'What do you feel of your movie being nominated?' but ask him things like: 'which is the most beautiful girl at the festival. He feels that he will be able to answer that question IMMEDIATELY. (*sigh*)

sigh... isn't this supposed to be your BIG BREAK into the international scene?? Takuya... why do i feel that you are gonna go there to have fun?? aren't this fella adorable??? *muahahahahhaha*

KIMURA TAKUYA is going to Crannes!!!! *cheers*

Will takuya be able to make a BIG BREAK in the international scene with this appearance? I have full confidence in that fella's look... very excited... hoping for all the best... but to be honest... this is INTERNATIONAL... I'll be gald if people just take notice of him... All the best Takuya!! *grinz*

(another brainless entry... haha)

for more than a time in the last few months, I wish I never have to grow up... I want to be under the safe shelther of my family and my school... where I will never have to learn the harsh realities of life, of dealing with people, of 'the world out there'.

I want to maintain the heart of a child... wanna keep on believing that people are kind at heart, that everything is possible as long as I work hard enough for it, that people wants the best for each other, etc. ...

I don't want to think about tomorrow, don't want to think of a reason/purpose before I do something, don't want to admit that there are people whom I don't like... foolish? childish? maybe... I've always trained myself to believe that this is part of growing up... but recently, this thought came to me: "I don't have to grow up like that!" I can be honest to myself, be nice to other people, and keep on believing that people are kind! that I love life, that I love people... but yet... the truth is: many a times, the true reality doesn't allow me to keep on believing. Am I becoming a disillutioned person? someone who have lost the ability to dream? to love? to believe? My internal resistance is trying very hard to prevent that from happening... but I think, the resistance is failing soon... I'm so tired. I want to just hide into my little hermit shell and lead a life away from all of this... I find it difficult to accept that the outside world is the way I see it... I still want to believe that I am wrong... but can I? somebody help me!! I'm drowing in confusion...

Blogger has a new layout!! pretty!! (^-^)

realised nowadays that the mouth is a scary thing... I MUST LEARN HOW TO SHUT UP. I talk too much... because I am a open person who says whatever I think and feel and experienced... doesn't mean that other pple's the same!! *IMPT lesson learnt*

I hate to have secrets.... argh...

haha... zx... I realised... (-_-'') it's okie... shall continue my intoxication... KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA. ok. ^^

I REALLY wanna watch takuya's new drama, 'Pride' does anyone knoew where on earth can I get it?? any lobangs to order from taiwan or something? I'm really suffering from major Takuya withdrawal symtoms! it's been an entire year since I last saw his new drama!!!

the CHIJMES thing... anyone interested? I think it's damn cool!! imagine being with your girl friends from sn in the middle of the night in a church!! family dance dancing, school songs singing, chatting, gossipping... argh!! I wanna go!!!!!!!! but then... I've not asked my parents' permission yet... and there's a 70% chance that they don't allow it... how??????? shall start thinking of a good reason for them to let me. go.

tonight's r j co concert. going. tmr's r j move and groove... not decided if I'm going... it's a wondering sunday morn... best spent in bed!! hmm... but I'm interested in seeing the contents inside the time capsule... and it's probably the last time I'm gonna see the mount sinai campus and the last time to meet up with all the jc mates before they fly all over the world... *hmm...*

Dear Gal Friends,

Please spread the word around!!

CHIJ celebrates their 150th Anniversary this year.

Held at CHIJMES---
the original Home of the IJ girls
Over 1 weekend --
3rd & 4th July 2004, Sat & Sunday

Activities will be held all around the CHIJMES Courtyard and the school kids will be putting up performances during the day. There will also be tours around the CHIJMES with old girls and NUNs telling stories about the Old days and significance of that particular spot.

DID YOU KNOW THAT THERE ARE 3 WELLS IN CHIJMES...I think?:0)

Anyways, the alumnae(old girls) of the Various schools have been tasked to fill up the graveyard shift ( 10pm to 7am) with events and activities.

Hence, St. Nicks is taking up the 3am to 6am shift. Please let me know if anyone is gearing up to do a performance. It's free and easy...no hard and fast rule. If you don't wish to put up anything, at least try to drop by...get together with old friends and Make CHIJMES the Meeting point on 3rd July!

If you should require any further information, please feel free to email me @ sassichix@yahoo.com.sg or call 96770367 at anytime.

Let's try to make this a night to remember! It's gonna be fun and really when was the last time you had supper with your old school pals!

Spread the word around!

With love,
Nichol
Class of 94'

how come zixuan's blog's scearch (on the blogger banner) has kimura takuya?????!!!! i WANT!! okie, KIMURA TAKUYA KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA, KIMURA TAKUYA.
SMAP, SMAP, SMAP, SMAP, SMAP, SMAP, SMAP, SMAP. *grinz*

reading up on dentistry now...

suhyueh!! I'm still considering about the raffles grove thing... oh... and call me puriko on the blog can? the pple who shld know who i am knows who I am. ^^ (well... come to think of it... there's so many 'priscilla's about huh?) gonna go for CO concert next sat... looking forward to it.

all of a sudden... (ok, not very sudden...) but I'm feeling very unaccomplished... so many of my classmates, pple whom I know are being offered scholarships, they know what they are doing (or think they know what they are doing) and they are pursuing their dreams. one of my friend just went to a singing examination today and she was HIGHLY succesful... (I'm gonna get a superstar fren? ^^) but what am I doing? bumming around, hoping hard that I get med or dentistry... no scholarship offers, no uni to go to... (or no money to go to the ones that offered me places...) my direction? I don't know.

one of the bouts of emotions that I feel once in a while... dun worry too much. ^^

btw... takuya's gonna go to cranne's with 2046 crew!! his big break into the international scene!! (sigh... takuya knew what he's doing when he was my age...)

think S.H.E. is really good live (saw them on the special programme on tv this afternoon.
cyn is really crazy over Kirbi... (-_-'') had fun today girl!! ^^
to my pals who are equally looking for direction, all the best dears! keep on believing in yourselves.

mum yesterday: I think you will make a good doctor... but I feel that you will make an outstanding dentist with your hands...

hmm... I have a feeling that she was very right... I definately will be very happy if they give me med OR dentistry...

but I think I screwed up the med interview!! argh!! dentistry interview on monday.... wish me luck!!

think i might make a good dentist (skills-wise)... clare and pam was quite freaked out (aren't you?) at my work.... but i think the tooth can be better made... it still looks different from the model... :P think i shld be a scalptor... wires are really not my favorite things...

tmr is med interview!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh.... I carn settle down!!!!!!!!!! CALM DOWN, CALM DOWN, CALM DOWN!!!!!!!! (-_-''')

jitters jitters jitters... heard that the med interview's VERY bad.... ARGH!! I WANT TO DO MEDICINE!!

just to share a song... promise to write about the thyroid thing soon!! :P

ほんとの気持ち
(my real feelings)
作詞者名 小田和正
アーティスト名 松たか子
作曲者名 小田和正

私　きっと　あなたを　好きにはならない
I definately will not like you
返事も短いし　優しくないし
you reply to me with short answers and is not gentle at all

どんな人を　あなたは　好きになるのかな
what kind of person will you like?
多分　間違いなく　それは　私じゃない
I think that's definately not me

もうすぐ　二人に　初めて　夏が　やって来るんだ
soon, the summer when the two of us will meet for the first time will come
今あなたの　髪が風に　そっと　揺れてる
now, you hair sways in the wind

でも昨日　別れてから　なんだか寂しくて
but when we parted yesterday... I feel somewhat lonely
あなたの後を　追いかけたくなったな
I think wanna go after you

どんな人を　あなたは　好きになるのかな
what kind of person will you like?
考え始めたら　切なくなってきた
when I started thinking about it, I will feel sad

もうすぐ　二人に　初めて　夏が　やって来るんだ
soon, the summer when the two of us will meet for the first time will come
夏が過ぎても　あなたは　まだ優しくないかな
even after summer, I don't think you will become more gentle

もうすぐ　二人に　初めて　夏が　やって来るんだ
soon, the summer when the two of us will meet for the first time will come
今あなたの　その隣を　そっと　歩いてる
now, I walk beside you

私　今　分かったの　きっと　あなたは違うんだ
now I know... you are definately different
他の人とは　違うんだね
you are different from the other people

優しくなくても　それで　私　構わない
even if you are not gentle, it doesn't matter to me

あなたのそばに　ずっといたい　あなたを見つめていたい
I wanna be beside you all the time, I wanna look at you all the time
この想いを　解き放って　すぐ伝えたい
I wanna tell you this feeling of mine immediately

目の前にいる　私を見て　私いつもこんなんだけど
the me that you see in front of you however, has always been like that
そのままの　あなたを　こうして　好きになったの
I like you the way you are

もうすぐ　二人に　初めて　夏が　やって来るんだ
soon, the summer when the two of us will meet for the first time will come
今あなたの　その隣を　私　歩いてる
now... beside you, I walk


a Song by Matsu Takako (song rong zi) who acted in Love Generationa and Hero with Takuya... very nice!!
http://www.zqzh.com/zqmusic/mv/zhen_xin_qing.wmv
right click and save target as to download the MTV!!

Make a Difference

There was a young man walking down a deserted beach just before dawn.
In the distance, he saw a frail old man. As he approached the old man, he saw him picking up stranded starfish and throwing them back into the sea. The yound man gazed in wonder as the old man again threw the small starfish into the water.
He asked, "Old man, why do you spend so much energy doing what seems to be a waste of time?"
The old man explained that the stranded starfish would die if left in the morning sun.
"But there must be thousands of beaches and millions of starfish!" exclaimed the young man. "How can you make any difference?"
The old man looked at the small starfish in his hand and as he threw it to the safety of the sea, he said, "It makes a difference to this one!"


One of my favorite stories...

Has anyone recieved anything from NUS??? someone dying of worry here...
Min!! I wanna do the ttsh attachment!! it sounds so interesting!! The thyroid removal op right... it's for a thyroid cancer patient or a hyperthyroid patient??
Have I told you pple? the only ways of treating a hyperactive thyroid now are...
1) Medication of PTU (Propylthiouracil) or Carbimazole
2) Radioactive Iodine (RAI) - I131
3) Surgery

Tried mtd 1 for the last 5 years... stopped medication for 10 months in J1 and it relapsed... so doc's suggesting RAI... he says that the surgery is too high a risk (of losing your voice for example... and various likelihood of infection) to take... oh! btw... I decided not to go for the RAI treatment... yet. Doc was saying that I shld not go through it if I am not prepared for it. Though he assured me that the treatment is a safe one. He agreed to allow me to stop medication and try to see if I can go without medication again.

some info for future medical students:
Thyroid problems are frequently misdiagnosed by doctors due to the wide variety of syptoms the disease display. Most doctors will treat the patients as suffering from anxiety (for Hyperthyroid) and depression (for Hypothyriod) as well as cardiac problems (due to fast heartbeats and palpitations).
Some syptoms of thyriod problems: mood swings, inability to concentrate, lose of interest in life, anxiety, weight problems, weak immune system, tremours, feeling too hot or too cold (as compared to normal situation).
Thyroid problems are really frequent especially in females... approx 10% of all women are hypothyroid and a lesser pecentage being Hyperthyroid. Many thyroid disorders are undetected and treated.
A simple defination of Hypothyroidism = production of too little thyroxine hormone, Hyperthyroidism = production of too little thyroxine hormone.
Thyroid diseases are one of the most complex medical problems because of the wide range of body functions the hormones are associated with.
To zone in on one type of thyroid problem... I shall do Grave's disease (my disease)... next time... (>-<) haha... tell me if you are interested in knowing before I spend the time typing in ok? ^^