was reading Joe Cheng's (Zheng Yuan Chang <- this guy who acted in 'Qiang Wei zhi Lian" with Ella from S.H.E) message to his fans... apparently, some guy in his fan forum was saying that he's thinking of suicide... which reminded me of an incident that happened nearly a year ago.
 
didn't want to talk about it at that time because I know that there are people who are badly affected by it... but now, I don't think the people who are affected by it reads this blog in the first place, neither are there pesky reporters from the New Paper reading people's blog for this news anymore... so, may I? Just a gentle reminder, if what's gonna follow might affect you in any way, do not continue.
 
 

 
 
 
 
  
  
  
  
  
  
 
I remember it was a very normal morning of school, but during the first period, all the teachers were called out for an urgent meeting. After the famous teacher-tearing-book incident, nobody suspected more than a normal discipline problem that got serious enough for an urgent meeting. Almost 0.5 hour later... my ct walked into class, eyes teary and red, in an obvious shock state to break the news to us... a girl took her life 'last night'. A wave of shock and disbelief swept through the class in the already cold container ts classroom. Two of my classmates broke into tears... I was busy comforting my classmate who as sitting beside me to really feel anything. The teachers asked the students who are affected to go for a councilling session in the school library... the rest of us stayed in class in silience. no lessons were conducted that day, none of the teachers were in the correct state of mind to have an animated discussion session with the students, neither were the students in the mood for any physics chem or maths.
 
"she was still comforting another friend yesterday afternoon!"
"I sat beside her last week!"
 
No one knows the reason why a seemingly perfectly ok person will choose to end her life in one of the most scary way to die. Nobody even felt that she was prone to doing such a thing! My memories of her was her cheery smile, great voice and sunny character. She was popular, she has everything going on around her in her life. What was it so bad that she was courageous enough to kill herself but not brave enough to face?
 
At 18, death was far away... death was something for people much older than me, who probably contracted some incurable disease or something... but for that day, death was right beside me. Happening to people just like me.
 
WHY? I do not know. I am not a friend of hers... we just simply know the existance of each other, and I was badly shocked. I can't imagine the feeling of those who knew her well... of those who had hoped that they had noticed something, hoped that they have spoke to her and helped her through it.
 
I hope that death is not something that had passed the mind of anyone of you reading this at the moment. It's not a game. It's not drama: the actor will not be appearing on TV tmr after he died.
Take a walk around the hospitals, see those who are ill straggle to live, if they want to keep alive, why do you want to die? Your death might end worries for you... but it doesn't destroy them, the worries and pain are passed to those alive. Those whom you love, who loves you.  
 
Using 4D's slogen, Life is Beautiful, Carpe Diem!!