think i might make a good dentist (skills-wise)... clare and pam was quite freaked out (aren't you?) at my work.... but i think the tooth can be better made... it still looks different from the model... :P think i shld be a scalptor... wires are really not my favorite things...

tmr is med interview!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh.... I carn settle down!!!!!!!!!! CALM DOWN, CALM DOWN, CALM DOWN!!!!!!!! (-_-''')

jitters jitters jitters... heard that the med interview's VERY bad.... ARGH!! I WANT TO DO MEDICINE!!

just to share a song... promise to write about the thyroid thing soon!! :P

ほんとの気持ち
(my real feelings)
作詞者名 小田和正
アーティスト名 松たか子
作曲者名 小田和正

私　きっと　あなたを　好きにはならない
I definately will not like you
返事も短いし　優しくないし
you reply to me with short answers and is not gentle at all

どんな人を　あなたは　好きになるのかな
what kind of person will you like?
多分　間違いなく　それは　私じゃない
I think that's definately not me

もうすぐ　二人に　初めて　夏が　やって来るんだ
soon, the summer when the two of us will meet for the first time will come
今あなたの　髪が風に　そっと　揺れてる
now, you hair sways in the wind

でも昨日　別れてから　なんだか寂しくて
but when we parted yesterday... I feel somewhat lonely
あなたの後を　追いかけたくなったな
I think wanna go after you

どんな人を　あなたは　好きになるのかな
what kind of person will you like?
考え始めたら　切なくなってきた
when I started thinking about it, I will feel sad

もうすぐ　二人に　初めて　夏が　やって来るんだ
soon, the summer when the two of us will meet for the first time will come
夏が過ぎても　あなたは　まだ優しくないかな
even after summer, I don't think you will become more gentle

もうすぐ　二人に　初めて　夏が　やって来るんだ
soon, the summer when the two of us will meet for the first time will come
今あなたの　その隣を　そっと　歩いてる
now, I walk beside you

私　今　分かったの　きっと　あなたは違うんだ
now I know... you are definately different
他の人とは　違うんだね
you are different from the other people

優しくなくても　それで　私　構わない
even if you are not gentle, it doesn't matter to me

あなたのそばに　ずっといたい　あなたを見つめていたい
I wanna be beside you all the time, I wanna look at you all the time
この想いを　解き放って　すぐ伝えたい
I wanna tell you this feeling of mine immediately

目の前にいる　私を見て　私いつもこんなんだけど
the me that you see in front of you however, has always been like that
そのままの　あなたを　こうして　好きになったの
I like you the way you are

もうすぐ　二人に　初めて　夏が　やって来るんだ
soon, the summer when the two of us will meet for the first time will come
今あなたの　その隣を　私　歩いてる
now... beside you, I walk


a Song by Matsu Takako (song rong zi) who acted in Love Generationa and Hero with Takuya... very nice!!
http://www.zqzh.com/zqmusic/mv/zhen_xin_qing.wmv
right click and save target as to download the MTV!!

Make a Difference

There was a young man walking down a deserted beach just before dawn.
In the distance, he saw a frail old man. As he approached the old man, he saw him picking up stranded starfish and throwing them back into the sea. The yound man gazed in wonder as the old man again threw the small starfish into the water.
He asked, "Old man, why do you spend so much energy doing what seems to be a waste of time?"
The old man explained that the stranded starfish would die if left in the morning sun.
"But there must be thousands of beaches and millions of starfish!" exclaimed the young man. "How can you make any difference?"
The old man looked at the small starfish in his hand and as he threw it to the safety of the sea, he said, "It makes a difference to this one!"


One of my favorite stories...

Has anyone recieved anything from NUS??? someone dying of worry here...
Min!! I wanna do the ttsh attachment!! it sounds so interesting!! The thyroid removal op right... it's for a thyroid cancer patient or a hyperthyroid patient??
Have I told you pple? the only ways of treating a hyperactive thyroid now are...
1) Medication of PTU (Propylthiouracil) or Carbimazole
2) Radioactive Iodine (RAI) - I131
3) Surgery

Tried mtd 1 for the last 5 years... stopped medication for 10 months in J1 and it relapsed... so doc's suggesting RAI... he says that the surgery is too high a risk (of losing your voice for example... and various likelihood of infection) to take... oh! btw... I decided not to go for the RAI treatment... yet. Doc was saying that I shld not go through it if I am not prepared for it. Though he assured me that the treatment is a safe one. He agreed to allow me to stop medication and try to see if I can go without medication again.

some info for future medical students:
Thyroid problems are frequently misdiagnosed by doctors due to the wide variety of syptoms the disease display. Most doctors will treat the patients as suffering from anxiety (for Hyperthyroid) and depression (for Hypothyriod) as well as cardiac problems (due to fast heartbeats and palpitations).
Some syptoms of thyriod problems: mood swings, inability to concentrate, lose of interest in life, anxiety, weight problems, weak immune system, tremours, feeling too hot or too cold (as compared to normal situation).
Thyroid problems are really frequent especially in females... approx 10% of all women are hypothyroid and a lesser pecentage being Hyperthyroid. Many thyroid disorders are undetected and treated.
A simple defination of Hypothyroidism = production of too little thyroxine hormone, Hyperthyroidism = production of too little thyroxine hormone.
Thyroid diseases are one of the most complex medical problems because of the wide range of body functions the hormones are associated with.
To zone in on one type of thyroid problem... I shall do Grave's disease (my disease)... next time... (>-<) haha... tell me if you are interested in knowing before I spend the time typing in ok? ^^

Will cancel my appointment with SGH tmr and decide on it after a good talk with my doctor...

Thanks Joyce!! Miss ya!!

pple... I need your advice... I want a new phone... been eyeing the Sony Ericsson T630 Black version... but heard that it has got a slow interface, poor reception and lousy camera with low memory of 2MB... does anyone know how slow the phone is? Nat... how's your T610??? the lousy camera is something that I can live with... but if it hangs (like my panasonic now...) and is vrey slow in response.... I won't want it... anybody?? if not T630... what other ohone is good in the market? what about the Nokia 6230??

Shuyan!! Miss ya like crazy!! where have you been??? carn find you online for the past few days!!

thanks dears!! *hugz* I guess alot of you are feeling the uneasiness too??? Ganbatte!!

Am currently considering if I shld take the Radioactive Iodine treatment for my Thyriod condition had actually booked a treatment session with the nuclear medicine department in SGH... but I think I'm changing my mind... need to talk to my doctor again... the idea of drinking something radioactive that I heard is delivered in lead containers is NOT something I am comfortable with. And have been reading some horror stories of patients who have gone through the treatment and have quite some difficulties adapting to it as their thyriods become hypoactive. I need to talk to my doctor, but he seems to be on leave and the nurses have not found him yet!! (since 10am this morn) sigh...

All of a sudden, I feel lost. lost in the pursuit of unimportant things, of things that does not matter at all in life... lost in my direction in life... realised now that I REALLY wanna do medicine... but yet I know that this is a difficult path to pursue... suddenly fear the thought of not getting it... what am I to do? I do not know... will I settle for another course? I'm really not sure... fear's looming... I'm feeling really uneasy... couldn't convince myself (and hence my interviewers in today's interview) that I'll wanna do bioengineering - because I really dun think I will like the job associated to it... *sigh* I don't know what I'm driving at.... argh.

time for a little bit of Takuya madness...

Congrats to Takuya on his 11th year of winning Japan's best loved man award hosted by AnAn!!!

This fella's invincible... *grinz*

sorry pple.... this is short... I'm really tired.... how?????? work's busy... still working from 8.30 to 6.30... sigh... but it's not too bad larz... I'll say that I'm learning things... just that I'm too tired to do anything else...