All of a sudden, I feel lost. lost in the pursuit of unimportant things, of things that does not matter at all in life... lost in my direction in life... realised now that I REALLY wanna do medicine... but yet I know that this is a difficult path to pursue... suddenly fear the thought of not getting it... what am I to do? I do not know... will I settle for another course? I'm really not sure... fear's looming... I'm feeling really uneasy... couldn't convince myself (and hence my interviewers in today's interview) that I'll wanna do bioengineering - because I really dun think I will like the job associated to it... *sigh* I don't know what I'm driving at.... argh.