A year... on?

Dear Starlight,

It's been a year since you decided to take life into your own hands and leave us with a bang.

Life has pretty much seemingly went on as per normal. As though you have never left us. But somehow, we all know that there's a gapping hole over there. The places you used to hang out with us at, the things we used to talk about, the people we used to know together... Everyone's been trying to carry on with life; to hold you dear to our hearts but not very much on our mouths. The feelings of lost, pain, anger, deject, and sometimes self-blame has not really left me whenever I think of you. Can I ask for a piece of your mind during the last moments of your life?

I still wanna tell you that I love you, and I care for you. Thank you for treating me as a friend and thank you for being a friend. Thank you for thinking for me and acting in my interest for so many times over the short period of time we knew each other. The little things you did just got more and more precious over the past year as I experience more and more in life. And also... sorry for not being good enough, for not caring more and for not being as good a friend to you as you were to me.

I hope you have found your peace and your happiness in the better place you are at now. I love you my dear.


Till we meet again,
Ale with love

嘴巴

嘴巴，
可以用来吃东西，
可以用来亲吻，
可以用来唱歌，
可以用来说话。

吃错了东西就得拉肚子。
亲错了人就得心痛一阵子。
唱错了歌就得被观众嘲笑。
说错了话后果就得自己负责。

嘴巴应该是人最应该和大脑联系的器官。
相对于有形的行动，
无形的言语更能伤害人，所造成的影响也更深远。
人为什么喜欢说八卦谈是非呢？
这个，应该是我们的自我防备之一吧？
因为人们在不自觉中，已经了解了言语的影响力，
也学会了如何用文字来保护自己，甚至伤害人。

很可惜的，
嘴巴与大脑的联系并不是在每一个人的身上都是紧紧相依的。
这样才会出现所谓的，
“口风不紧”或者“说话没经过大脑”的情形吧。
无心的伤害却很遗憾的，比有心的还要令人愤怒，令人伤痛。

声音的用途

出生的婴儿会发出声音是为了两个目的：
一个是肚子饿了，
一个是为了表示自己不舒服（如厕了，发烧了等等）。

两个，
都是为了让身边的人知道他的需要。

同样的，
人，之所以会说话，
是为了沟通。
而沟通，
是为了让自己能得到自己所需要的。
一个人会选择沉默，
通常有几个理由。
一个是他觉得自己能够应付，不需要他人的力量帮助。
这样的人是孤傲的。
一个，是他不希望把自己的弱点曝露在他人面前，是种保护动作。
这样的人是胆怯的。
一个，是他不知道怎么把自己所需要的说出来/不知道自己需要的是什么。
这样的人是迷惘的。
还有一个……是因为没有人愿意宁听或者找不到适合宁听的那个人。
最后一种人，是孤单的。

一个人的生活能走得多远呢？
在合群的社会中，大自然告诉我们，
自我孤立或者被孤立的人永远都不会是胜者。

I can't handle this

Honestly, with all the rush for FYP/project deadlines, rush to apply for graduate school, rush to find out what exactly I want to do in life, urgent need to pull up my cap.... I am so lost and clueless about what exactly I want. Doesn't help that I'm experiencing pressure from family and peers too. I need to take it easy... I can't handle so many things at the same time... (ToT)