I don't know if this will be my last post of the year... but I am definately looking forward to 2007. It's gonna be a good year~ ^^
To my dear friends going on SEP this sem, I will miss you. Even though I'm stuck here in Singapore to pull up my CAP, pls rmr that you can always find me here or on MSN. To all the rest~ another new semester to come, FIGHTING!!! ^^ May we all have a great 2007!!! 2007年はいい年になりますよ！！
Friday, December 29, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Results
Results are released today. Well... my 2nd best semester in university.
Ok... I'm not complaining, but after knowing other people's results, I get the impression that I am the bottom of the cohort with my results. orz... I know I've not put in enough effort this semester, I know the results are already better then expected. In other words, I am in serious trouble. Time to feel worried and start working hard. >< Ale 3 more semesters to go before the end of your pain... ganbatte!!!
Ok... I'm not complaining, but after knowing other people's results, I get the impression that I am the bottom of the cohort with my results. orz... I know I've not put in enough effort this semester, I know the results are already better then expected. In other words, I am in serious trouble. Time to feel worried and start working hard. >< Ale 3 more semesters to go before the end of your pain... ganbatte!!!
Monday, December 25, 2006
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Being alone
I know I am a person who loves to keep the TV on till the second I fall asleep, my room is always well-lit and I will have my radio on even when I am studying... Logically, I should be a person who is afraid of being alone...
But you know... I really love the nights when I have my TV on, my MSN on, my internet on, and a book in my hands... I don't have to think, I don't have to make conversations, I don't have to try to understand people... I can just relax and be alone...
Maybe I do like to be alone? But yet I am afraid of being alone? Contradictory huh?
But you know... I really love the nights when I have my TV on, my MSN on, my internet on, and a book in my hands... I don't have to think, I don't have to make conversations, I don't have to try to understand people... I can just relax and be alone...
Maybe I do like to be alone? But yet I am afraid of being alone? Contradictory huh?
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Old me and New me
And I thought I've not change at all over the years...
Was reading my old posts (it's so much easier to read my old posts now that there's the archives function on the blog)... I know it's 3am in the morning... but I am bored and I don't wanna read research papers...
ok... anyway, I was reading my old blog entries and gettting a little embarrassed. = = not that I'm embarrassed by the way I blog or the things I blog about... it's just... wierd to look back at my entries for the past 3-4 years...
I thought I've not changed over the years, but I don't think I will blog the way I used to anymore... I don't think I will think the way I used to anymore either. I've changed... good change or bad change? I don't know actually... somehow... I think I was happier, more carefree, less reserved, less thoughtful...
and now I'm curious... how have I changed over the years in your eyes? anyone care to enlighten me?
Was reading my old posts (it's so much easier to read my old posts now that there's the archives function on the blog)... I know it's 3am in the morning... but I am bored and I don't wanna read research papers...
ok... anyway, I was reading my old blog entries and gettting a little embarrassed. = = not that I'm embarrassed by the way I blog or the things I blog about... it's just... wierd to look back at my entries for the past 3-4 years...
I thought I've not changed over the years, but I don't think I will blog the way I used to anymore... I don't think I will think the way I used to anymore either. I've changed... good change or bad change? I don't know actually... somehow... I think I was happier, more carefree, less reserved, less thoughtful...
and now I'm curious... how have I changed over the years in your eyes? anyone care to enlighten me?
Monday, December 11, 2006
The Greatest Distance on Earth
世界上最远的距离
不是生与死的距离
而是 我站在你面前
你不知道我爱你
世界上最远的距离
不是我站在你面前
你不知道我爱你
而是 爱到痴迷
却不能说出我爱你
世界上最远的距离
不是 我不能说我爱你
而是 想你痛彻心脾
却只能深埋心底
世界上最远的距离
不是 我不能说我想你
而是 彼此相爱
却不能够在一起
世界上最远的距离
不是彼此相爱
却不能在一起
而是明知道真爱无敌
却装做毫不在意
世界上最远的距离
不是明明无法抵挡这一股气息
却还装做毫不在意
而是用一颗冷漠的心
在你和爱你的人之间
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
世界上最远的距离
不是树与树的距离
而是同根生长的树枝
却无法在风中相依
世界上最远的距离
不是树枝无法相依
而是相互了望的星星
却没有交汇的轨迹
世界上最远的距离
不是星星之间的轨迹
而是纵然轨迹交汇
却在瞬间无处寻觅
世界上最远的距离
不是瞬间便无处寻觅
而是尚未相遇
便无法相聚
世界上最远的距离
是鱼与飞鸟的距离
一个在天
一个却深潜海底
A popular poem by an unknown author. What is the greatest distance on earth for you? To me... it's probably when two people are physically so close together but spiritually, they are worlds apart.
不是生与死的距离
而是 我站在你面前
你不知道我爱你
世界上最远的距离
不是我站在你面前
你不知道我爱你
而是 爱到痴迷
却不能说出我爱你
世界上最远的距离
不是 我不能说我爱你
而是 想你痛彻心脾
却只能深埋心底
世界上最远的距离
不是 我不能说我想你
而是 彼此相爱
却不能够在一起
世界上最远的距离
不是彼此相爱
却不能在一起
而是明知道真爱无敌
却装做毫不在意
世界上最远的距离
不是明明无法抵挡这一股气息
却还装做毫不在意
而是用一颗冷漠的心
在你和爱你的人之间
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
世界上最远的距离
不是树与树的距离
而是同根生长的树枝
却无法在风中相依
世界上最远的距离
不是树枝无法相依
而是相互了望的星星
却没有交汇的轨迹
世界上最远的距离
不是星星之间的轨迹
而是纵然轨迹交汇
却在瞬间无处寻觅
世界上最远的距离
不是瞬间便无处寻觅
而是尚未相遇
便无法相聚
世界上最远的距离
是鱼与飞鸟的距离
一个在天
一个却深潜海底
A popular poem by an unknown author. What is the greatest distance on earth for you? To me... it's probably when two people are physically so close together but spiritually, they are worlds apart.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
SMap
quoting from Mr. Hentai from his radio programme "What's Up SMAP":
"I am not hometenobi type (the kind to get praised), I am the hametenobi type(quoting from www.kantango.com: hameru = Ichidan verb ; colloquialism ; to get in; to insert; to put on; to make love; common word),
I am hamete type, not homete type, don't get it wrong.
ok... back to the topic, in What's Up SMAP, if the praises I get is 30%, the criticism I get is around 70%.
I feel it's just right actually... but...
to ask for something like this, I'm probably a hentai...
ok... we often hear this don't we? Sweets and whip? (similar to carrot and stick in the english sense)
so... give me 30% of sweets, 60% of whips and... 10% candle. Give me something to this effect. Onegaishimasu. "
for those who dun understand.... you're better off not knowing...
takuya, you are responsible for returning me my innocence!!!!!!!! *growl*
"I am not hometenobi type (the kind to get praised), I am the hametenobi type(quoting from www.kantango.com: hameru = Ichidan verb ; colloquialism ; to get in; to insert; to put on; to make love; common word),
I am hamete type, not homete type, don't get it wrong.
ok... back to the topic, in What's Up SMAP, if the praises I get is 30%, the criticism I get is around 70%.
I feel it's just right actually... but...
to ask for something like this, I'm probably a hentai...
ok... we often hear this don't we? Sweets and whip? (similar to carrot and stick in the english sense)
so... give me 30% of sweets, 60% of whips and... 10% candle. Give me something to this effect. Onegaishimasu. "
for those who dun understand.... you're better off not knowing...
takuya, you are responsible for returning me my innocence!!!!!!!! *growl*
new layout
new layout. This background is a photo I took when I was in Glasgow in 2004.
hmmm...
I think I am quite a talented photographer.
*hides from all the flying tomatoes and eggs*
Holiday has started... I'm suppose to be doing my UROP project this hols... but I've not contacted my prof... the main reason being...
I don't know what am I supposed to do... better get started reading some research papers or something... = =
hmmm...
I think I am quite a talented photographer.
*hides from all the flying tomatoes and eggs*
Holiday has started... I'm suppose to be doing my UROP project this hols... but I've not contacted my prof... the main reason being...
I don't know what am I supposed to do... better get started reading some research papers or something... = =
Monday, November 27, 2006
Individualism
human beings are selfish by nature... I mean... we live for ourselves right?
and I am a total individualist who do not really go for group action... in a sense... I believe that things we do, we should do it for ourselves, not for "oh... because my friends are doing this, so I will do it with them". It's probably ok to move in groups and to do things in groups I suppose... but when it concerns important things in life, like the school you're going to and the field you intend to work in, it's a better idea to choose what you think you should choose. Many other factors are more important then "what my friends are doing".
However, when individualism gets overboard, it becomes selfishness. When a person believes that the world revolves around himself and cares about nothing but for himself, things can really get ugly. A catholic priest who taught me when I was in secondary school told us in class this line that I feel is really thoughtful: "do anything you want in life was long as it does not affect others". Feel free to fulfill all your dreams and get all your desires. But make sure that your personal gains are not made at the expense of others.
Seriously... how many of us can say that we don't do that at all? I won't be able to say with confidence that I have not gained at the expense of other people ever in my life. But I feel that the concious effort to be considerate to other people and their feelings is important.
and I am a total individualist who do not really go for group action... in a sense... I believe that things we do, we should do it for ourselves, not for "oh... because my friends are doing this, so I will do it with them". It's probably ok to move in groups and to do things in groups I suppose... but when it concerns important things in life, like the school you're going to and the field you intend to work in, it's a better idea to choose what you think you should choose. Many other factors are more important then "what my friends are doing".
However, when individualism gets overboard, it becomes selfishness. When a person believes that the world revolves around himself and cares about nothing but for himself, things can really get ugly. A catholic priest who taught me when I was in secondary school told us in class this line that I feel is really thoughtful: "do anything you want in life was long as it does not affect others". Feel free to fulfill all your dreams and get all your desires. But make sure that your personal gains are not made at the expense of others.
Seriously... how many of us can say that we don't do that at all? I won't be able to say with confidence that I have not gained at the expense of other people ever in my life. But I feel that the concious effort to be considerate to other people and their feelings is important.
Monday, November 20, 2006
Wealth vs Happiness
How important is wealth and power and status it to you?
Sometimes I see "rich people" enjoying all the luxuries of life, but somehow get the feeling that they are well... not happy. Of course, there are those who needs to think for days just to get themself a better dress or eat a more expensive meal...
Maybe god is fair afterall... rich and well-to-do people have their share of problems and concerns, whereas people with lesser at hand tends to have lesser matters to worry about too... Or maybe... it's just a different set of problems we are talking about.
Then in all... maybe... it's just the person we're talking about. It's his attitude in life that makes all the difference...
Will like to share this chinese phrase that is getting more and more meaningful to me over the years...
知足長樂
A person who is satisfied with what he has is always happy.
Sometimes I see "rich people" enjoying all the luxuries of life, but somehow get the feeling that they are well... not happy. Of course, there are those who needs to think for days just to get themself a better dress or eat a more expensive meal...
Maybe god is fair afterall... rich and well-to-do people have their share of problems and concerns, whereas people with lesser at hand tends to have lesser matters to worry about too... Or maybe... it's just a different set of problems we are talking about.
Then in all... maybe... it's just the person we're talking about. It's his attitude in life that makes all the difference...
Will like to share this chinese phrase that is getting more and more meaningful to me over the years...
知足長樂
A person who is satisfied with what he has is always happy.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Teamwork
Been doing alot of group projects this semester, and it's really pretty interesting to see how people work during projects. Some people tell me that they prefer doing individual work, others say they feel better to have people to work with them and make decisions together. At the end of the day, I think it boils down to what kind of person you are and what kind of co-workers you have.
To those who tell me that they prefer working alone... I have a sad revelation.
I'll say that we all agree that humans are community creatures? If so, working in groups is almost inevitable. In life. Well... you can always choose to go up Bukit Timah hill and live there as a primitive hunter I suppose... but in the modern day society, in the current industry, group work is inevitable.
But let's face it: you and I have different working styles. It's part of what we now know as individualism, part of "being yourself". The world will be hopelessly boring if everyone works in the same way and thinks the same things. However, the differences between people just amplifies when they work in a group. Two people who can get along prefectly well normally may just not get along working together. Take this from a person who nearly fell out with her closest friend when doing a project with her in secondary school.
If I insist on working my way, and you insist on working your way, there's bound to be differences and unhappiness. If everyone can just take that step back and look at the whole picture, will things get better? Will they be able to accept that the way someone else works is feasible too? Much easier said then done. How many of us will be willing to say "I'm wrong", or "your method's better". There's always this really foolish thing called "pride" pulling us back. I mean... who is he to tell me that his method will work better?!
Some times, in group projects, there's a conflict of interest. Say... maybe I want to get an A in this project, but my fellow teammate just desires a C to pass. So this teammate will definately not want to put in as much effort as I am willing to put in. Who's wrong? No one. We are just simply going for different things. However, because we share a common fate (result), the differences cannot be ignored the way we will normally ignore what our neighbour does with her interior design.
You know... there are some people who I really enjoy working with... people who are... open minded. People who don't impose their opinions on me. People who's willing to listen to what I have to say, and at the same time... tell me what he has to say.
Unfortunately, I will say that I am not such an open-minded person. I tend to... want to get my way. orz
Project work sometimes let me see a person better. I get to find out how this person works, and well... see a different side of him. Some people become better friends after the project, others... I'll just make sure I don't do project with them anymore. ^^;; Not to say that they are not good teammates, it's just that our working style don't click.
I never used to think too much about it when Takuya mentioned that SMAP's a team. I mean... they work together, and so they must be a team! But now, I think I have greater respect for their team work. They are such different people, and there's so much conflict when they work together (according to Mr. Kimura himself), but the work they produce is incredible. I suppose this means that it's not about getting people with the same working style to work with you, but more about learning to work with people of different working styles. Open that mindset, maybe... just maybe, I'll see a different horizon out there.
To those who tell me that they prefer working alone... I have a sad revelation.
I'll say that we all agree that humans are community creatures? If so, working in groups is almost inevitable. In life. Well... you can always choose to go up Bukit Timah hill and live there as a primitive hunter I suppose... but in the modern day society, in the current industry, group work is inevitable.
But let's face it: you and I have different working styles. It's part of what we now know as individualism, part of "being yourself". The world will be hopelessly boring if everyone works in the same way and thinks the same things. However, the differences between people just amplifies when they work in a group. Two people who can get along prefectly well normally may just not get along working together. Take this from a person who nearly fell out with her closest friend when doing a project with her in secondary school.
If I insist on working my way, and you insist on working your way, there's bound to be differences and unhappiness. If everyone can just take that step back and look at the whole picture, will things get better? Will they be able to accept that the way someone else works is feasible too? Much easier said then done. How many of us will be willing to say "I'm wrong", or "your method's better". There's always this really foolish thing called "pride" pulling us back. I mean... who is he to tell me that his method will work better?!
Some times, in group projects, there's a conflict of interest. Say... maybe I want to get an A in this project, but my fellow teammate just desires a C to pass. So this teammate will definately not want to put in as much effort as I am willing to put in. Who's wrong? No one. We are just simply going for different things. However, because we share a common fate (result), the differences cannot be ignored the way we will normally ignore what our neighbour does with her interior design.
You know... there are some people who I really enjoy working with... people who are... open minded. People who don't impose their opinions on me. People who's willing to listen to what I have to say, and at the same time... tell me what he has to say.
Unfortunately, I will say that I am not such an open-minded person. I tend to... want to get my way. orz
Project work sometimes let me see a person better. I get to find out how this person works, and well... see a different side of him. Some people become better friends after the project, others... I'll just make sure I don't do project with them anymore. ^^;; Not to say that they are not good teammates, it's just that our working style don't click.
I never used to think too much about it when Takuya mentioned that SMAP's a team. I mean... they work together, and so they must be a team! But now, I think I have greater respect for their team work. They are such different people, and there's so much conflict when they work together (according to Mr. Kimura himself), but the work they produce is incredible. I suppose this means that it's not about getting people with the same working style to work with you, but more about learning to work with people of different working styles. Open that mindset, maybe... just maybe, I'll see a different horizon out there.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Daddy Takuya
Just randomly thinking... if my daddy's Kimura Takuya...
will he feed me food when I am tiny and can't feed myself?
will he bring me out for walks in the shopping malls?
will he follow me on a school excursion to the zoo because he's worried about me?
will he bite peanuts and feed it into my mouth because I like to eat peanuts and he's afraid that I'll choke on it?
will he touch my head affectionately when I did something well?
will he scold me when I am naughty?
will he make me sit down and finish my food before I go watch cartoon?
I know my dad will... (ok... he did) but will Kimura Takuya do that do his daughters? I suppose yes right? hmm.... that's a nice picture~ ^^
will he feed me food when I am tiny and can't feed myself?
will he bring me out for walks in the shopping malls?
will he follow me on a school excursion to the zoo because he's worried about me?
will he bite peanuts and feed it into my mouth because I like to eat peanuts and he's afraid that I'll choke on it?
will he touch my head affectionately when I did something well?
will he scold me when I am naughty?
will he make me sit down and finish my food before I go watch cartoon?
I know my dad will... (ok... he did) but will Kimura Takuya do that do his daughters? I suppose yes right? hmm.... that's a nice picture~ ^^
Monday, October 02, 2006
Assumptions
Assumptions are very scary things.
"I assume that this will be done by someone"
"I assume that since someone is doing this, he/she will do it for me too"
"I assume that since he/she is _____ (a certain classification of people), he/she is _____ (a particular characteristic)"
It seems innate in many to assume things according to our convenience. Maybe if we assume this, we don't need to do something; maybe it will help us classify people and group them more easily so that we know how to interract with him or her. Let's face it, assumption is very much an act of laziness. And it is a dangerous act.
It irritates me sometimes when people do assumption. Not to say that I don't do assuming (in fact I do it quite alot = =), but assumptions sometimes lead to situations of "taking things for granted". Assumption of a person leads to stereotyping.
How can you say something about someone if you only know where this person comes from? How can you tell how a person is feeling if you haven't asked him/her? How can you assume someone, anyone, as the obligation to help you do anything?
Very often, such things are done unconciously. Assumptions just come naturally because it is so convenient. But if only you take that slightly extra step to think about the situation at hand, you will see a totally different picture.
"I assume that this will be done by someone"
"I assume that since someone is doing this, he/she will do it for me too"
"I assume that since he/she is _____ (a certain classification of people), he/she is _____ (a particular characteristic)"
It seems innate in many to assume things according to our convenience. Maybe if we assume this, we don't need to do something; maybe it will help us classify people and group them more easily so that we know how to interract with him or her. Let's face it, assumption is very much an act of laziness. And it is a dangerous act.
It irritates me sometimes when people do assumption. Not to say that I don't do assuming (in fact I do it quite alot = =), but assumptions sometimes lead to situations of "taking things for granted". Assumption of a person leads to stereotyping.
How can you say something about someone if you only know where this person comes from? How can you tell how a person is feeling if you haven't asked him/her? How can you assume someone, anyone, as the obligation to help you do anything?
Very often, such things are done unconciously. Assumptions just come naturally because it is so convenient. But if only you take that slightly extra step to think about the situation at hand, you will see a totally different picture.
Friday, September 29, 2006
patent mess
Some thoughts about this design module I'm doing:
I'm an Engineering student, not a patent attorny nor an orthopedic surgeon!! Why do I have to know their trade?? orz
I am DEFINATELY not secretary material (today's the Nth time I'm swimming in a sea of patent).
I really don't like my life.... orz
I'm an Engineering student, not a patent attorny nor an orthopedic surgeon!! Why do I have to know their trade?? orz
I am DEFINATELY not secretary material (today's the Nth time I'm swimming in a sea of patent).
I really don't like my life.... orz
Monday, September 25, 2006
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Crazy Engineers
I've came to this BIG revealation that all 3rd batch of n u s bio engineers are crazy.
I mean... not only THE girls, but hey~ if a guy (a fellow coursemate actually) can declare after saying that he's ("we're" for a matter of fact...) not gonna to get a job after graduation that he will join superstar and become a rock star... I SERIOUSLY DO NOT THINK ANYONE OF THE BIO ENGINEERS IN MY BATCH ARE SANE... orz
So far... we have in our batch... an aspiring baker, cook, florist, cafe owner, rock star, teacher, and numerous taitais-to-be... oh yah~ and yours truly here an aspiring tour guide. We're such a batch of creme la de creme~~
p/s: just read the ST's recuit section's cover page talking about how people should attempt to NOT take the beaten track of engineering (here's talking about civil, mechanical and electrical engineering) AND go for other kinds of engineering like BIO ENGINEERING and aeronautical engineering... any takers fellow bio engineers?
I mean... not only THE girls, but hey~ if a guy (a fellow coursemate actually) can declare after saying that he's ("we're" for a matter of fact...) not gonna to get a job after graduation that he will join superstar and become a rock star... I SERIOUSLY DO NOT THINK ANYONE OF THE BIO ENGINEERS IN MY BATCH ARE SANE... orz
So far... we have in our batch... an aspiring baker, cook, florist, cafe owner, rock star, teacher, and numerous taitais-to-be... oh yah~ and yours truly here an aspiring tour guide. We're such a batch of creme la de creme~~
p/s: just read the ST's recuit section's cover page talking about how people should attempt to NOT take the beaten track of engineering (here's talking about civil, mechanical and electrical engineering) AND go for other kinds of engineering like BIO ENGINEERING and aeronautical engineering... any takers fellow bio engineers?
sigh
Today's the last day of the first half of the sem... (even though I have to make-up for lecture tmr morn)
It's just amazing how time flies~~
soon, I'll be studying for my exams AGAIN!! *horrors*
Sometimes, I just can't help wonder what the real purpose of education is... Cramping everything into 2 13-weeks-semesters per year does not seem to be effective in educating me as an engineer. And I know that my university is not the only tertiary institution in the world doing this, in fact, most universities in the west has such a short school term. Well, you may argue that the quantity and quality of education cannot be correlated, but hey~ IF I have more time to study those books and digest those materials, I can tell you with 60% confidence that I will understand my stuff better. (the left over 40% is for materials like biothermodynamics that is probably NOT meant to be understood....)
When the purpose of studying is to pass those tests and earn a degree at the end of the 4 years, somehow, the true meaning of learning is lost. After all, the information's just gobbled in in BIG chunks and regurgitated in 2 hrs of examination then vomited out into the drain.
Yes... yes... I know all that talk about how schooling is about learning to learn. You may forget about the contents you learnt in school, but you will never forget about the way you studied and how you learnt to learn blah blah blah...
HECK!! can't I just rant about school because I'm DEAD tired??? (I'm a woman you know... I have my rights to pms = =)
It's just amazing how time flies~~
soon, I'll be studying for my exams AGAIN!! *horrors*
Sometimes, I just can't help wonder what the real purpose of education is... Cramping everything into 2 13-weeks-semesters per year does not seem to be effective in educating me as an engineer. And I know that my university is not the only tertiary institution in the world doing this, in fact, most universities in the west has such a short school term. Well, you may argue that the quantity and quality of education cannot be correlated, but hey~ IF I have more time to study those books and digest those materials, I can tell you with 60% confidence that I will understand my stuff better. (the left over 40% is for materials like biothermodynamics that is probably NOT meant to be understood....)
When the purpose of studying is to pass those tests and earn a degree at the end of the 4 years, somehow, the true meaning of learning is lost. After all, the information's just gobbled in in BIG chunks and regurgitated in 2 hrs of examination then vomited out into the drain.
Yes... yes... I know all that talk about how schooling is about learning to learn. You may forget about the contents you learnt in school, but you will never forget about the way you studied and how you learnt to learn blah blah blah...
HECK!! can't I just rant about school because I'm DEAD tired??? (I'm a woman you know... I have my rights to pms = =)
Sunday, September 17, 2006
degree
There are easier ways to earn a degree...
I mean... what's about all those banners that say "Earn your Bachalor's /Master's Degree in a Year"???!!!
If it's so easy to get a degree, what the hell am I doing???!!!!
...
You have a VERY tired AND unhappy AND stressed up undergrad here who can't help but wonder what the hell is she doing now. = = and... I AM trying to convince myself that all this crap is gonna be worth it. It BETTER BE. period.
I mean... what's about all those banners that say "Earn your Bachalor's /Master's Degree in a Year"???!!!
If it's so easy to get a degree, what the hell am I doing???!!!!
...
You have a VERY tired AND unhappy AND stressed up undergrad here who can't help but wonder what the hell is she doing now. = = and... I AM trying to convince myself that all this crap is gonna be worth it. It BETTER BE. period.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Kimi ga Iru
I think I will marry any guy who sings this to me...
from: Pop Up! SMAP!!
artiste: Kimura Takuya
lyrics: Elvis Woodstock (riri- furankin)
** Please use "Unicode" encoding to read the Japanese words
君がいる
(kimi ga iru)
仆は正しいの？ それとも间违ってる？
(boku ha tadashii no soretomo machigatteru?)
Am I right? Or am I wrong?
もがきながら本当は过ごしてた
(mogaki nagara hontou ha sugoshiteta)
I was struggling, but I managed to get through (it all)
なのに すべてを 君は抱いて
(nanoni subete wo kimi ha daite)
however, you took in everything (embraced everything of me and my mistakes)
"どちらともあなたよ" と言ってくれた
("dochiratomo anata yo" to itte kureta)
you told me, "they're all you, no matter which one"
小さいな君が 仆の 大きな宇宙さ
(chiisai na kimi ga boku no ooki na uchiu sa)
the tiny you is the big universe to me
ありがとう ずるい仆も 爱してくれて
(arigatou zurui boku mo aishite kurete)
thank you for loving the slyish me too
もう 大丈夫だから
(mou daijyoubu dakara)
it's all over and everything's fine
やっと 気づいたから
(yatto kizuitakara)
as I have finally realised
なんにもなかった 仆には
(nan ni mo nakatta boku ni ha)
to me who had nothing at all
君がいる 君がいる
(kimi ga iru kimi ga iru)
you are here (by my side), you are here (by my side)
なにか つかもうと
(nanika tsukamouto)
when I wanted to grab on to something
駆け抜け さまよってた
(kakenuke samayotteta)
I ran, knocked and wandered about
伤つけたり 淋しくさせてたね
(kitsuzuke tari sabishiku saseteta ne)
I hurt you and caused you loneliness didn't I
なのに 笑って 仆のために、
(nanone waratte boku no tame ni)
even so, you smiled, for my sake
"思うように生きて" と言ってないた
("omouyou ni ikite" to itte naita)
"Live as you wish to" you told me as you cried
俯く（うつむく）君が 仆の 辉く未来さ
(utsumuku kimi ga boku no kagayaku mirai sa)
the you who's hanging your head down in shame is my bright future
ごめんね 梦や日々を 言い訳にしてて
(gomen ne yume ya hibiwo iiwake ni shitete)
Sorry my dear~ for making dreams and days into an excuse
もう 大丈夫だから
(mou daijyoubu dakara)
it's all over and everything's fine
やっと 二人きりだ
(yatto futarikiri da)
finally, at last there's only the two of us
探し求めてた 场所には
(sagashi motometeta basho ni ha)
in the place I was searching for
君がいる 君がいる
(kimi ga iru kimi ga iru)
you are there, you are there
だから 生きてゆく 一日一秒も长く
(dakara ikite yuku ichinichi ichibyou mo nagaku)
hence, for the every day, every second I'm alive
君に返してゆきたい
(kimi ni kaeshite yukitai)
I intend to return you
失った时间と笑颜を
(ushinatta shikan to eigao wo)
the time and smiles you lost
小さいな君が 仆の 大きな宇宙さ
(chiisai na kimi ga boku no ooki na uchiu sa)
the tiny you is a big universe to me
ありがとう 爱のすごさ 教えてくれて
(arigatou ai no sugosa oshiete kurete)
thank you for teaching me the greatness of love
もう 大丈夫だから
(mou daijyoubu dakara)
it's all over and everything's fine
ずっと 离さないよ
(zutto hanasanai yo)
I will never leave you
辿り着いた时心に
(tadori tsuita toki kokoro ni)
when I arrive (at the end point), in my heart
君がいる 君がいる
(kimi ga iru kimi ga iru)
I have you, I have you
from: Pop Up! SMAP!!
artiste: Kimura Takuya
lyrics: Elvis Woodstock (riri- furankin)
** Please use "Unicode" encoding to read the Japanese words
君がいる
(kimi ga iru)
仆は正しいの？ それとも间违ってる？
(boku ha tadashii no soretomo machigatteru?)
Am I right? Or am I wrong?
もがきながら本当は过ごしてた
(mogaki nagara hontou ha sugoshiteta)
I was struggling, but I managed to get through (it all)
なのに すべてを 君は抱いて
(nanoni subete wo kimi ha daite)
however, you took in everything (embraced everything of me and my mistakes)
"どちらともあなたよ" と言ってくれた
("dochiratomo anata yo" to itte kureta)
you told me, "they're all you, no matter which one"
小さいな君が 仆の 大きな宇宙さ
(chiisai na kimi ga boku no ooki na uchiu sa)
the tiny you is the big universe to me
ありがとう ずるい仆も 爱してくれて
(arigatou zurui boku mo aishite kurete)
thank you for loving the slyish me too
もう 大丈夫だから
(mou daijyoubu dakara)
it's all over and everything's fine
やっと 気づいたから
(yatto kizuitakara)
as I have finally realised
なんにもなかった 仆には
(nan ni mo nakatta boku ni ha)
to me who had nothing at all
君がいる 君がいる
(kimi ga iru kimi ga iru)
you are here (by my side), you are here (by my side)
なにか つかもうと
(nanika tsukamouto)
when I wanted to grab on to something
駆け抜け さまよってた
(kakenuke samayotteta)
I ran, knocked and wandered about
伤つけたり 淋しくさせてたね
(kitsuzuke tari sabishiku saseteta ne)
I hurt you and caused you loneliness didn't I
なのに 笑って 仆のために、
(nanone waratte boku no tame ni)
even so, you smiled, for my sake
"思うように生きて" と言ってないた
("omouyou ni ikite" to itte naita)
"Live as you wish to" you told me as you cried
俯く（うつむく）君が 仆の 辉く未来さ
(utsumuku kimi ga boku no kagayaku mirai sa)
the you who's hanging your head down in shame is my bright future
ごめんね 梦や日々を 言い訳にしてて
(gomen ne yume ya hibiwo iiwake ni shitete)
Sorry my dear~ for making dreams and days into an excuse
もう 大丈夫だから
(mou daijyoubu dakara)
it's all over and everything's fine
やっと 二人きりだ
(yatto futarikiri da)
finally, at last there's only the two of us
探し求めてた 场所には
(sagashi motometeta basho ni ha)
in the place I was searching for
君がいる 君がいる
(kimi ga iru kimi ga iru)
you are there, you are there
だから 生きてゆく 一日一秒も长く
(dakara ikite yuku ichinichi ichibyou mo nagaku)
hence, for the every day, every second I'm alive
君に返してゆきたい
(kimi ni kaeshite yukitai)
I intend to return you
失った时间と笑颜を
(ushinatta shikan to eigao wo)
the time and smiles you lost
小さいな君が 仆の 大きな宇宙さ
(chiisai na kimi ga boku no ooki na uchiu sa)
the tiny you is a big universe to me
ありがとう 爱のすごさ 教えてくれて
(arigatou ai no sugosa oshiete kurete)
thank you for teaching me the greatness of love
もう 大丈夫だから
(mou daijyoubu dakara)
it's all over and everything's fine
ずっと 离さないよ
(zutto hanasanai yo)
I will never leave you
辿り着いた时心に
(tadori tsuita toki kokoro ni)
when I arrive (at the end point), in my heart
君がいる 君がいる
(kimi ga iru kimi ga iru)
I have you, I have you
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
some quick updates...
My road towards Zhejiang University SEP seems to be getting tougher and tougher... (= =) I shld start considering summer school instead. ARGH
Suffering from my first bout of food poisoning now... yes, first... I've always considered myself as having a stomach made of stainless steel and obviously... I've lost to a cup of Mac D Sundae.
Am envisioning myself as being absolutely jobless in 2 years time after talking to linhui that day (her bro's my bie senior).
Am feeling cheated by my darling Takuya after finding out that he took 4 days to record 9 songs of their new album. (I have spent the last 7 years, and counting, of my life feeding a xiao3 bai2 lian3 named Kimura Takuya = =)
Meli dear~ I need to feed my xiao bai lian leh.... MUAHHAHAHA money is impt to me!!! so I can feed him!!! *runs away before Meli starts to shoot arrows over*
I'm actually quite surprised so many of you guys are still reading my almost deserted blog... ^^
Leeping!! I miss you!!!!!!!!!!! How have you been?? Do update me about what's going on over your side yeah!! *hugs*
My road towards Zhejiang University SEP seems to be getting tougher and tougher... (= =) I shld start considering summer school instead. ARGH
Suffering from my first bout of food poisoning now... yes, first... I've always considered myself as having a stomach made of stainless steel and obviously... I've lost to a cup of Mac D Sundae.
Am envisioning myself as being absolutely jobless in 2 years time after talking to linhui that day (her bro's my bie senior).
Am feeling cheated by my darling Takuya after finding out that he took 4 days to record 9 songs of their new album. (I have spent the last 7 years, and counting, of my life feeding a xiao3 bai2 lian3 named Kimura Takuya = =)
Meli dear~ I need to feed my xiao bai lian leh.... MUAHHAHAHA money is impt to me!!! so I can feed him!!! *runs away before Meli starts to shoot arrows over*
I'm actually quite surprised so many of you guys are still reading my almost deserted blog... ^^
Leeping!! I miss you!!!!!!!!!!! How have you been?? Do update me about what's going on over your side yeah!! *hugs*
Thursday, June 29, 2006
been thinking about this...
what if I had tried to get a scholarship 2 years ago... and IF i did get one...
will that actually mean that I will not be worrying, thinking about my career now?
ok, we talk about not looking back at the past... but what about the future?
grad school? (if i can get in that is)
grad med school?
grad law school?
work?
or should I go get a tour guide license or attend hospitality and hotel management courses?
what should be my piority? money? interest? career prospects?
people tell me, don't think about money, look for a job that you like.
but hey! doesn't the world revolve around money? and hey! you will not get everything that you want!
work and interest can become one? yeah... that's the ideal case, but how many people do achieve it?
and... it gets pretty stressful to see people around you doing all sorts of research attachments and have yourself still doing nothing...
what if I had tried to get a scholarship 2 years ago... and IF i did get one...
will that actually mean that I will not be worrying, thinking about my career now?
ok, we talk about not looking back at the past... but what about the future?
grad school? (if i can get in that is)
grad med school?
grad law school?
work?
or should I go get a tour guide license or attend hospitality and hotel management courses?
what should be my piority? money? interest? career prospects?
people tell me, don't think about money, look for a job that you like.
but hey! doesn't the world revolve around money? and hey! you will not get everything that you want!
work and interest can become one? yeah... that's the ideal case, but how many people do achieve it?
and... it gets pretty stressful to see people around you doing all sorts of research attachments and have yourself still doing nothing...
Thursday, May 25, 2006
I resigned from the forum as a boardmistress yesterday.
It was an enjoyable 2 years, learnt alot of things, gained alot of experience...
had times when I was really happy, and times when it was really bad.
times when I was so mad that I couldn't sleep, and times when I was really sleepy but a forum meeting is still going on.
times when I felt all puffed up and ready to fight, and times when I was really tired and just wanna let go.
This time, I really feel that I can let go. Not because I don't like Takuya anymore (NEVER!!), but because things have developed so that I feel that I can let go of a place that I really like (liked?) alot, and really enjoy just simply wasting my time at.
Not that I won't go to the forum anymore though, that place still holds alot of memories, but I don't want to deal with some problems anymore. A sense of total... dispair.
Noting this down in this blog because this place plays a very impt role in my life over the last 2 years, and I met some really nice friends at this place too, friends that I hope, unlike how it works in the cyberspace... can last for a long time.
It was an enjoyable 2 years, learnt alot of things, gained alot of experience...
had times when I was really happy, and times when it was really bad.
times when I was so mad that I couldn't sleep, and times when I was really sleepy but a forum meeting is still going on.
times when I felt all puffed up and ready to fight, and times when I was really tired and just wanna let go.
This time, I really feel that I can let go. Not because I don't like Takuya anymore (NEVER!!), but because things have developed so that I feel that I can let go of a place that I really like (liked?) alot, and really enjoy just simply wasting my time at.
Not that I won't go to the forum anymore though, that place still holds alot of memories, but I don't want to deal with some problems anymore. A sense of total... dispair.
Noting this down in this blog because this place plays a very impt role in my life over the last 2 years, and I met some really nice friends at this place too, friends that I hope, unlike how it works in the cyberspace... can last for a long time.
Saturday, May 20, 2006
A large majority of the human relationship in this world revolves around a symbiotic relationship. In other words, the relationship exist because it is benefitial for both parties. Pessimistic? But there's nothing wrong with such a relationship. Both parties get what they want don't they? So everyone's happy.
When the situation becomes that where one party is always giving, imbalance sets in. Let's not bother if the person who is always giving feels bothered by the one-sided relationship in the first place, but somehow, this relation is fundamentally wrong. Nevertheless, there's nothing an outsider can say if the party giving wants to give and the "taker" don't find about problem about keep taking though.
However, it's when you find a person whom you are willing to give to without expecting a return, and that person too feels the same when giving to you. That's when this relationship should be cherished and nurtured with care.
p/s: the opposite of lateral's medial according to yiling. ^^ Thanks dear!!
When the situation becomes that where one party is always giving, imbalance sets in. Let's not bother if the person who is always giving feels bothered by the one-sided relationship in the first place, but somehow, this relation is fundamentally wrong. Nevertheless, there's nothing an outsider can say if the party giving wants to give and the "taker" don't find about problem about keep taking though.
However, it's when you find a person whom you are willing to give to without expecting a return, and that person too feels the same when giving to you. That's when this relationship should be cherished and nurtured with care.
p/s: the opposite of lateral's medial according to yiling. ^^ Thanks dear!!
Thursday, May 18, 2006
The irony of things...
I went for a blood test yesterday (for the thyriod thing).
The nurses took my blood, "poked" 3 times into my arms (1 each on the inner part of my elbow... don't ask me what's the medical term... lateral's opposite? argh... whatever... can one of the medics tell me? lazy to check book, I'm a lousy bioengineer lar... anyway, and one on the back of my left palm), and took around 15ml of my blood AND I had to pay... 130 dollars for it. (I had my ATCH and cortisol levels checked in addition to my T3 and T4 levels because I have dark joints... but it shouldn't be a problem)
Anyway... the irony is that you have to PAY to get your blood taken.
AND... my left palm still hurts!!!!! Shouldn't have suggested that the nurse tries the palm.... in the first place, she didn't manage to get much blood out from there (my vessel constricted when the needle went in... too good veins? = =), and in the second place, I thought she'll use the mini butterfly needle that they used at gleneagles... but she used the same kind of needle she used on the inners of my elbow (ie: the needle's diameter is BIG. peng).
You know... when the needle's inside my arm and the nurse's wiggling around to find the vein... I can imagine my flesh being meshed up slightly under the epidermis... like... a food processer.
well... but no worries, I don't blame the nurse or anything, I know I have deep veins and well.. she's doing her job yeah?
I went for a blood test yesterday (for the thyriod thing).
The nurses took my blood, "poked" 3 times into my arms (1 each on the inner part of my elbow... don't ask me what's the medical term... lateral's opposite? argh... whatever... can one of the medics tell me? lazy to check book, I'm a lousy bioengineer lar... anyway, and one on the back of my left palm), and took around 15ml of my blood AND I had to pay... 130 dollars for it. (I had my ATCH and cortisol levels checked in addition to my T3 and T4 levels because I have dark joints... but it shouldn't be a problem)
Anyway... the irony is that you have to PAY to get your blood taken.
AND... my left palm still hurts!!!!! Shouldn't have suggested that the nurse tries the palm.... in the first place, she didn't manage to get much blood out from there (my vessel constricted when the needle went in... too good veins? = =), and in the second place, I thought she'll use the mini butterfly needle that they used at gleneagles... but she used the same kind of needle she used on the inners of my elbow (ie: the needle's diameter is BIG. peng).
You know... when the needle's inside my arm and the nurse's wiggling around to find the vein... I can imagine my flesh being meshed up slightly under the epidermis... like... a food processer.
well... but no worries, I don't blame the nurse or anything, I know I have deep veins and well.. she's doing her job yeah?
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
This thought just popped out of nowhere...
Have I changed over the years?
Has transfering school to st nicks changed me?
Has knowing Shuyan changed me?
Has taking Jap changed me?
Has Takuya changed me?
Has going to 2 Grace changed me?
Has knowing xiaoting changed me?
Has going to Sapporo changed me?
Has choosing RJ changed me?
Has the decision to pursue medicine changed me?
Has not going into medicine in NUS changed me?
Has doing Bioengineering changed me?
I seem to be resisting change, because I want to be me, I don't want to change because of anybody, or any thing.
Then, I realised... these changes are me! They've shaped me into who I am today. well... not to say that I am pleased with the person I am now, but there's no denial that these things in my life changed me. When I smile and laugh at something that I don't exactly think is funny, maybe it's what I've been through that made me like that. When I shut myself out from the world and stop anyone from peeping into my thoughts, maybe it's what I've seen that made me like that. Don't ask me what those things are. Because, I don't know. But there's something that I hope I will remember when I do anything or make any decisons: that I do and decide upon what I think I want to do, what I think I should do.
Have I changed over the years?
Has transfering school to st nicks changed me?
Has knowing Shuyan changed me?
Has taking Jap changed me?
Has Takuya changed me?
Has going to 2 Grace changed me?
Has knowing xiaoting changed me?
Has going to Sapporo changed me?
Has choosing RJ changed me?
Has the decision to pursue medicine changed me?
Has not going into medicine in NUS changed me?
Has doing Bioengineering changed me?
I seem to be resisting change, because I want to be me, I don't want to change because of anybody, or any thing.
Then, I realised... these changes are me! They've shaped me into who I am today. well... not to say that I am pleased with the person I am now, but there's no denial that these things in my life changed me. When I smile and laugh at something that I don't exactly think is funny, maybe it's what I've been through that made me like that. When I shut myself out from the world and stop anyone from peeping into my thoughts, maybe it's what I've seen that made me like that. Don't ask me what those things are. Because, I don't know. But there's something that I hope I will remember when I do anything or make any decisons: that I do and decide upon what I think I want to do, what I think I should do.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Monday, April 03, 2006
I'm falling in love with the Carpenters... they're just so soothing to listen to...
Desperado
Don Henley & Glen Frey
source: http://www.vex.net/~paulmac/carpenter/lyrics/desperado.html
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now.
Oh, you're a hard one,
but I know that you've got your reasons.
These things that are pleasin' you
can hurt you somehow.
Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy!
She'll beat you, if she's able.
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet.
Now it seems to me some fine things
have been laid upon your table,
but you only want the ones that you can't get.
Desperado, ah, you ain't gettin' no younger.
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home.
Freedom, oh, freedom. That's just some people talkin'
You're a prisioner walking through this world all alone.
Don't your feet get cold in the wintertime?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine.
It's hard to tell the nighttime from the day.
You're losin' all your highs and lows.
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate.
It may be rainin' , but there's a rainbow above you.
You better let somebody love you (2x)
before it's too late.
Desperado
Don Henley & Glen Frey
source: http://www.vex.net/~paulmac/carpenter/lyrics/desperado.html
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
You been out ridin' fences for so long now.
Oh, you're a hard one,
but I know that you've got your reasons.
These things that are pleasin' you
can hurt you somehow.
Don't you draw the queen of diamonds, boy!
She'll beat you, if she's able.
You know the queen of hearts is always your best bet.
Now it seems to me some fine things
have been laid upon your table,
but you only want the ones that you can't get.
Desperado, ah, you ain't gettin' no younger.
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home.
Freedom, oh, freedom. That's just some people talkin'
You're a prisioner walking through this world all alone.
Don't your feet get cold in the wintertime?
The sky won't snow and the sun won't shine.
It's hard to tell the nighttime from the day.
You're losin' all your highs and lows.
Ain't it funny how the feeling goes away?
Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?
Come down from your fences, open the gate.
It may be rainin' , but there's a rainbow above you.
You better let somebody love you (2x)
before it's too late.
After 2 years of being in N U S and almost 8 years of being a science student... I've came to a revelation.... I should be in ARTS.
My 5 pages of crap for a sociology module got an A... I think I should knock wall and die because...
1) the essay was done together with a test and a lab report (with more effort put into the lab report and test definately)
2) the essay was done in a weekend with only a few hours of touching up after that; basically minimal touch-up except for a new intro and conclusion
3) i admit... I kinda added in extra "flavouring" into the essay... not all's the truth (I bought high class MSG lar... ajinomoto brand)
4) i... have no idea what i was writing in the essay....
5) I SUed THE MODULE!!! (the main reason why I shld knock wall and die)
heavens~~~
ok.... that's pure luck. I will still appreciate the SU for the final exams because I have read less then 10 readings out of the huge pile of readings the course made us go through.
I shld stop thinking that I shld take Jap Studies as my major and go back to the sad cruel reality of reading about X-ray, attentuation coeeficient and spatial resolution...
my life's screwed... I shld be in arts lar... orz
My 5 pages of crap for a sociology module got an A... I think I should knock wall and die because...
1) the essay was done together with a test and a lab report (with more effort put into the lab report and test definately)
2) the essay was done in a weekend with only a few hours of touching up after that; basically minimal touch-up except for a new intro and conclusion
3) i admit... I kinda added in extra "flavouring" into the essay... not all's the truth (I bought high class MSG lar... ajinomoto brand)
4) i... have no idea what i was writing in the essay....
5) I SUed THE MODULE!!! (the main reason why I shld knock wall and die)
heavens~~~
ok.... that's pure luck. I will still appreciate the SU for the final exams because I have read less then 10 readings out of the huge pile of readings the course made us go through.
I shld stop thinking that I shld take Jap Studies as my major and go back to the sad cruel reality of reading about X-ray, attentuation coeeficient and spatial resolution...
my life's screwed... I shld be in arts lar... orz
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