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Goodbye Yesterday
performed by:今井美樹
lyrics and tune: 布袋寅泰
source: Uta-net
Goodbye Yesterday
生まれ変わった
I've changed from yesterday (from birth actually)
私が現在ここにいる
I'm here now in this point of time
ほらね今までより
hey... as compared to the me until this very day...
笑顔が似合うでしょ？
I'm now more suited to a smile ain't I? (indicating that I'm more happy now)
思いきり笑って泣いて
to laugh or cry as much as I want
自分らしさに出逢えた
to meet the person so similar to me (in the song a lover... to me... my friends)
やっと辿りついた
finally it has arrived
永遠の優しさに続く路
the road where I can enjoy enternal gentleness
涙の数だけ人はきっと
hey poeple, only the numder of tears are definately
幸せに近づいているはず
the definate indication of us being near to being lucky (fortunate... xin4 fu2)
さよならから明日が始まる
from the moment I say good bye, tomorrow will start
Goodbye Yesterday
and Hello tomorrow…
たとえば誰かを愛して
for example, if you fall in love with somebody,
傷つくことがあっても
even if there are occasions when you are hurt,
それは愛しい傷
it's the injuries of LOVE,
明日への道しるべ
the guidepost (road sign) to tomorrow.
すべてを受け入れた時に
the moment when you accept and take in everything
光は近づいてくる
you get closer to light and brightness
空に抱かれた時
the moment when you get hugged by the sky
永遠はこの胸に刻まれる
eternalty is written into this chest (heart) of yours
季節が風のように巡って
the seasons change in periods like the wind
私は髪を短く切って
I have have cut my hair short (in preparation for a new day)
世界は今日も朝を迎える
the world now is also welcoming a new morning
Goodbye Yesterday…
Goodbye Yesterday…
歓びと哀しみに抱かれて
to be held by happiness and sadness
私は優しく微笑んでる
I smile with a peaceful and gentle look
さよならこそ昨日への感謝
goodbye. I thank this past past of mine
Goodbye Yesterday
and Hello tomorrow…
Translations: Aleshiela Peh
okie.... I know there's not much meaning in the song..... but I like this song very much... sang by a great actress... Imai Miki. And perhaps you have guessed the implications from the lyrics already... I have decided that I am not comfortable with people with more than friendly intentions reading my blog.
It had been a short period of time... but it was fun... and I enjoyed the short two months with this blog very much. Thank you readers for sharing my thoughts... and my feelings during this time. I don't think I'll disappear forever... but it does seem high time I get down to school work too... and time I get myself out of the virtual reality world and lead life as it it... so, maybe after the A's.... I'll be back. (^-^)
Meanwhile... take care and goodbye.
Wednesday, July 30, 2003
You know... I'm really fond of this blog... it gives me the chance to keep in contact with friends who I don't meet so often: friends who are overseas, who are in a different school... It's a place for them to find out about my life, a place for me to let out some thoughts and feelings, a place for me to look for the lost ME in this hussle and bussle... a place where I can get crazy and drool all I want about Takuya since I know my frineds who are reading this understands... I welcome my close friends to read my blog, I welcome those people who somehow find my blog from the world wide web and find it interesting to read my thoughts and emotions to read my blog.... but I don't what this blog to be exploited by the media and those with bad intentioins to find out about my school's scandles and put it on the newspaper for the whole of Singapore to read.
Much as a blog is public... I believe there IS something called copyright. yes... we did not patent our words... we did not write COPYRIGHT at the bottom of every entry... but hey!! These are OUR words! All that's writen here are MY thoughts... MY emotions, MY life. I didn't give you permission to copy and paste my words anywhere else in the world! If you wanna read my blog, READ it... don't COPY it. Goodness! can't reporters learn some internet ettique? You don't just cut and paste people's words on the newspaper and claim that you got it from her, without asking for permission!
Pals... if you are wondering why I am so mad... read today's newpaper. I'm beginning to feel more exposed than ever... my blog is not featured... dun think this blog is so popular... and the fact that I give this blog's url to just a few close friends... but to think that those reporters are reading our blogs everyday to attempt to dig out some juicy details about our school life is... disgusting. This blog is new... and young... and myself being so fond of it... I dun wanna to say goodbye yet... but... let's see how things go.
Btw... the article was about how the death of two girls from the top JCs (we all know which two here...) had affected their friends, and how many are pouring out their thoughts and feelings 'quite openly' to people on the net.
Much as a blog is public... I believe there IS something called copyright. yes... we did not patent our words... we did not write COPYRIGHT at the bottom of every entry... but hey!! These are OUR words! All that's writen here are MY thoughts... MY emotions, MY life. I didn't give you permission to copy and paste my words anywhere else in the world! If you wanna read my blog, READ it... don't COPY it. Goodness! can't reporters learn some internet ettique? You don't just cut and paste people's words on the newspaper and claim that you got it from her, without asking for permission!
Pals... if you are wondering why I am so mad... read today's newpaper. I'm beginning to feel more exposed than ever... my blog is not featured... dun think this blog is so popular... and the fact that I give this blog's url to just a few close friends... but to think that those reporters are reading our blogs everyday to attempt to dig out some juicy details about our school life is... disgusting. This blog is new... and young... and myself being so fond of it... I dun wanna to say goodbye yet... but... let's see how things go.
Btw... the article was about how the death of two girls from the top JCs (we all know which two here...) had affected their friends, and how many are pouring out their thoughts and feelings 'quite openly' to people on the net.
Monday, July 28, 2003
Thank you galz... Clare, Nat, Yiling.... I'm feeling better now.... It's great to have friends like you people. (^-^)
although there's still alot of questions that I wish to find the answer for... I think it's better not to bother those directly affected. They need the space to get out of the gloom.
Met some of those in the sc today.... Yuting, Vida... they seem better... guess they have been asked the same question for tonz of times in the day already... " Are you okie?" but I need to ask them.... just wanna show them that I care I guess... Take care kae people?
The school admin has kept relatively quiet about what happened... think they dun wanna remind those hurt about the pain... there seems no better way to deal with it either... but the school is considerably quiet... loud laughter that I'm just so used to let out every once in a while seems... forbiddened... on a few occasions when I laughed out loud.... I just feel that it would be inappropriate... sigh.... hopefully, time can fade away the pains and injuries of the past...
although there's still alot of questions that I wish to find the answer for... I think it's better not to bother those directly affected. They need the space to get out of the gloom.
Met some of those in the sc today.... Yuting, Vida... they seem better... guess they have been asked the same question for tonz of times in the day already... " Are you okie?" but I need to ask them.... just wanna show them that I care I guess... Take care kae people?
The school admin has kept relatively quiet about what happened... think they dun wanna remind those hurt about the pain... there seems no better way to deal with it either... but the school is considerably quiet... loud laughter that I'm just so used to let out every once in a while seems... forbiddened... on a few occasions when I laughed out loud.... I just feel that it would be inappropriate... sigh.... hopefully, time can fade away the pains and injuries of the past...
Sunday, July 27, 2003
Thanks Clare... I'm a featherbrain.... ^^
just read some blogs and found out that alot of people's upset... (this is not the right word....) everyone's taken off their guard... I dunnoe... and the insensitive damx newspaper... this time shinmin wan bao reported on it.... bless her, her family, her friends... and all those who treasure her... she was a beautiful star who brightened many lives in the short one of hers.
just read some blogs and found out that alot of people's upset... (this is not the right word....) everyone's taken off their guard... I dunnoe... and the insensitive damx newspaper... this time shinmin wan bao reported on it.... bless her, her family, her friends... and all those who treasure her... she was a beautiful star who brightened many lives in the short one of hers.
Saturday, July 26, 2003
Jacob... I'm sorry... I have no idea where you can find the sheetmusic. good luck in looking for it though. btw, if you can't find the song... it's probably because you're using the wrong song title. It's 'Sekai ni Hitotsu dake no Hana'. Good Luck!!
Something unbelievable happened in school yesterday.... Clare knows what I'm talking about, for the rest, I'm sorry.... but I see a need to remain silent on this issue, so I'm not gonna elaborate on it. anyway..... I'm shocked, stunned and... I dun noe... alot of things are going through my head but.... it's hard to explain. Just remember people, no matter what happens, Life is STILL a beautiful thing ok?!
Something unbelievable happened in school yesterday.... Clare knows what I'm talking about, for the rest, I'm sorry.... but I see a need to remain silent on this issue, so I'm not gonna elaborate on it. anyway..... I'm shocked, stunned and... I dun noe... alot of things are going through my head but.... it's hard to explain. Just remember people, no matter what happens, Life is STILL a beautiful thing ok?!
Friday, July 18, 2003
We lost. Hwa Chong won...
Well... I think we generally did well... but luck wasn't on our side... the judges preferred more grand kinda music... and we were overpowered, the RJCO being 57 in size and the rest, 80... our music just wasn't loud enough for the impact.... the general comments were that our music is delicate, but just too small an orchestra. Congrats to Hwa Chong.
Been recalling alot of the past one and a half years... from knowing nothing about CO to being part of this fantastic orchestra of RJ.
We were made up of mostly beginners, there are very good players in the orchestra, Dianna (flute), Louisa (YangQin), Jiamin and ZhiJing (erhu), Melissa (Zhongruan)... etc... but honestly, many of us were beginners, out of the 7 zhongruan players, (myself included), 6 of us are new... only Melissa has some CO background in secondary school. Last year, although I'll not want to say this, but we were CRAP. When Zhou laoshi (our conductor) came at the end of December last year... he told us he was... erm... shock. The only thing he thought of was, "ze me ban? - What to do???" Then, there started the endless no. of practices, every saturaday from 8 to 4, every tuesday from 7 to 9 PM... the endless holidays we've forwent... we trained up an orchestra from ground zero. Improvement was tremendous, and in the meantime... some kinda of bond began forming between the members ourselves and with the conductor...
I remembered the no. of times he started talking about the good old times... about how he went drinking sake with our another CO teacher(Yang laoshi) in Japan and how Yang laoshi, a really small sized man, ended up wearing Zhou laoshi's oversized shoe back to the hotel... how he will always say that unlike other conductors, he seldom speak alot to the students and yet spend half an hour talking about some funny jokes... how he called everyone a nickname... "mei nu (pretty gal) - a guy in fact" "gao de - the tall one", "fei de - the fat one"... the no. of times he go over engrossed in the music he forgot about the time and had me ended up being scolded by my dad who waited for me for over an hour... those are memories I'll never want to forget...
Yesterday, we were given special permission to go to school late... reached school at 11am and everyone was busy tuning and practicing... Zhou laoshi came at 1.30pm and we practiced for a couple of time... we were in one of our best states. Reached Singapore Concert Hall at 5.45pm, all geared up to make the best performance ever and hopefully bring the champion trophy back to make a pair with Band's. 7.30pm, ready to go in... Huihui and I began singing our performance song to calm ourselves down... around 7.50pm... the battle began... "summer's night" was good... the tempo was maintained and it was a refreshing piece... the came "The Harvest (watever)"... it was one of the best we've ever played... we finished playing... there was silence from the audience... followed by loud applase of shock and pleasent suprise. No one expected a small orchestra that cannot even fill up half of the stage to play at that volume... it was good. Of course... throughout, my leg was trembling like hell... there's this portion of the music mu pluck couldn't find my strings and didn't play a single sound... but well... I was told it wasn't gonna affect...
came out of the hall... christine was sobbing.... her pipa string broke during the second song... but honestly, no one heard it... we were still hopeful as it was one of our best performance... eventhough we know we were probably much softer then the others.... it is something that we can do nothing about...
determined to get into the hall to listen to the announcement of the results, we had some pple with tickets (we kept 20 ourselves and 20 was given to the performers), we had pple going in first and then recycled the tickets to those outside (ok... that's not right... but who asked them to have such screwed up organisation?) we managed to get all the orchestra in... we sat in two rows behind the judges.... price giving began... first to the GOLD orchestras... we cheered like mad, then to those who performed last night in the finals, we cheered like mad to. " and finally, the 1st award goes to... Hwa Chong Junior college" forced applause were squeezed out... then silence dawned upon the two rows of blue and white. For a long while, no one spoke anything... Meli began to ask pple to say something... but no one was in the mood... HC's cheering pricked harshly on everyone's ears... soon, the most of the pple in the hall cleared out but the two rows remained... silent as ever... beside me, Huihui was crying and unconvincingly, I tried to comfort her... my heart felt as though it was twisted and crashed into a ball in my body... ShiHui (the president) came and tried to comfort everyone... putting up a smile. Finally, everyone stood up and walked out of the hall toward the tunning room where we placed our instruments... as we walked down the stairs... sounds of the school song begain ranging through the corridoor... "with one voice make us pray, Auspicium Melioris Aevi, with God to guide the way". Everyone was singing the school song at the top of our voices no bothering about the attention we were attracting... back to the tunning room, the piano was played again and the school song was sang again... followed by the spirit cheer... Anderson JC was there too... we finished and they gave us a huge cheer.... which we returned too with a BIG one for them... everything's over...
Zhou laoshi tried to cheer us up... the teachers too... some of the audiences... we knew we were good... there's no regrats over that... the judges just dun seem to think that a small orchestra of 57 should win... there's nothing we can say... and congratulations to Hwa Chong.
The 1st was definately the aim of everyone last night... but I think we've done a great job already... from silver the last SYF to a Gold and Finalist this year... with a large no. of us learning everything from ground zero just last year June... we've came a long way as an orchestra and written down a page for ourselves in RJCO's history. I'm so proud to be a part of such a great , united and friendly, orchestra, so proud to be part of the group fighting to keep our colours of green, black and white flying.
I've honestly, identified myself more as a st. nicks girl than a rafflesian... but last night... I was proud to be with such a great bunch of people... part of the colours of green, black and white. Of course... st. nicks will always be THAT special second home to me... she is just so special that NOTHING; NO ONE can ever replace her position in my heart... but for once in these two years... I am finally truly proud to call myself a Rafflesian too.
P/S: CONGRATS TO ST. NICKS FOR BEING THE DOUBLE CHAMPS THIS YEAR, YOU ROCK!!! (^-^)
Well... I think we generally did well... but luck wasn't on our side... the judges preferred more grand kinda music... and we were overpowered, the RJCO being 57 in size and the rest, 80... our music just wasn't loud enough for the impact.... the general comments were that our music is delicate, but just too small an orchestra. Congrats to Hwa Chong.
Been recalling alot of the past one and a half years... from knowing nothing about CO to being part of this fantastic orchestra of RJ.
We were made up of mostly beginners, there are very good players in the orchestra, Dianna (flute), Louisa (YangQin), Jiamin and ZhiJing (erhu), Melissa (Zhongruan)... etc... but honestly, many of us were beginners, out of the 7 zhongruan players, (myself included), 6 of us are new... only Melissa has some CO background in secondary school. Last year, although I'll not want to say this, but we were CRAP. When Zhou laoshi (our conductor) came at the end of December last year... he told us he was... erm... shock. The only thing he thought of was, "ze me ban? - What to do???" Then, there started the endless no. of practices, every saturaday from 8 to 4, every tuesday from 7 to 9 PM... the endless holidays we've forwent... we trained up an orchestra from ground zero. Improvement was tremendous, and in the meantime... some kinda of bond began forming between the members ourselves and with the conductor...
I remembered the no. of times he started talking about the good old times... about how he went drinking sake with our another CO teacher(Yang laoshi) in Japan and how Yang laoshi, a really small sized man, ended up wearing Zhou laoshi's oversized shoe back to the hotel... how he will always say that unlike other conductors, he seldom speak alot to the students and yet spend half an hour talking about some funny jokes... how he called everyone a nickname... "mei nu (pretty gal) - a guy in fact" "gao de - the tall one", "fei de - the fat one"... the no. of times he go over engrossed in the music he forgot about the time and had me ended up being scolded by my dad who waited for me for over an hour... those are memories I'll never want to forget...
Yesterday, we were given special permission to go to school late... reached school at 11am and everyone was busy tuning and practicing... Zhou laoshi came at 1.30pm and we practiced for a couple of time... we were in one of our best states. Reached Singapore Concert Hall at 5.45pm, all geared up to make the best performance ever and hopefully bring the champion trophy back to make a pair with Band's. 7.30pm, ready to go in... Huihui and I began singing our performance song to calm ourselves down... around 7.50pm... the battle began... "summer's night" was good... the tempo was maintained and it was a refreshing piece... the came "The Harvest (watever)"... it was one of the best we've ever played... we finished playing... there was silence from the audience... followed by loud applase of shock and pleasent suprise. No one expected a small orchestra that cannot even fill up half of the stage to play at that volume... it was good. Of course... throughout, my leg was trembling like hell... there's this portion of the music mu pluck couldn't find my strings and didn't play a single sound... but well... I was told it wasn't gonna affect...
came out of the hall... christine was sobbing.... her pipa string broke during the second song... but honestly, no one heard it... we were still hopeful as it was one of our best performance... eventhough we know we were probably much softer then the others.... it is something that we can do nothing about...
determined to get into the hall to listen to the announcement of the results, we had some pple with tickets (we kept 20 ourselves and 20 was given to the performers), we had pple going in first and then recycled the tickets to those outside (ok... that's not right... but who asked them to have such screwed up organisation?) we managed to get all the orchestra in... we sat in two rows behind the judges.... price giving began... first to the GOLD orchestras... we cheered like mad, then to those who performed last night in the finals, we cheered like mad to. " and finally, the 1st award goes to... Hwa Chong Junior college" forced applause were squeezed out... then silence dawned upon the two rows of blue and white. For a long while, no one spoke anything... Meli began to ask pple to say something... but no one was in the mood... HC's cheering pricked harshly on everyone's ears... soon, the most of the pple in the hall cleared out but the two rows remained... silent as ever... beside me, Huihui was crying and unconvincingly, I tried to comfort her... my heart felt as though it was twisted and crashed into a ball in my body... ShiHui (the president) came and tried to comfort everyone... putting up a smile. Finally, everyone stood up and walked out of the hall toward the tunning room where we placed our instruments... as we walked down the stairs... sounds of the school song begain ranging through the corridoor... "with one voice make us pray, Auspicium Melioris Aevi, with God to guide the way". Everyone was singing the school song at the top of our voices no bothering about the attention we were attracting... back to the tunning room, the piano was played again and the school song was sang again... followed by the spirit cheer... Anderson JC was there too... we finished and they gave us a huge cheer.... which we returned too with a BIG one for them... everything's over...
Zhou laoshi tried to cheer us up... the teachers too... some of the audiences... we knew we were good... there's no regrats over that... the judges just dun seem to think that a small orchestra of 57 should win... there's nothing we can say... and congratulations to Hwa Chong.
The 1st was definately the aim of everyone last night... but I think we've done a great job already... from silver the last SYF to a Gold and Finalist this year... with a large no. of us learning everything from ground zero just last year June... we've came a long way as an orchestra and written down a page for ourselves in RJCO's history. I'm so proud to be a part of such a great , united and friendly, orchestra, so proud to be part of the group fighting to keep our colours of green, black and white flying.
I've honestly, identified myself more as a st. nicks girl than a rafflesian... but last night... I was proud to be with such a great bunch of people... part of the colours of green, black and white. Of course... st. nicks will always be THAT special second home to me... she is just so special that NOTHING; NO ONE can ever replace her position in my heart... but for once in these two years... I am finally truly proud to call myself a Rafflesian too.
P/S: CONGRATS TO ST. NICKS FOR BEING THE DOUBLE CHAMPS THIS YEAR, YOU ROCK!!! (^-^)
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
Takuya painted his nails BLUE and did this total african american dressing... with off-white coloured loose pants, a black basketball singlet (watever u call that) and a black wollen wrapover hat(sorry, dunno what it's called) last night on SMAPXSMAP (SMAP's variety show in Japan)... under normal circumstances, if a guy paints his nails... it'll raise goosebumps on me... *yuck* but Takuya was..... *droolling* he's STUNNING!! okie... i'm poisoned (and you dun need to cure me... whatsoever). 2 years ago, he painted the American flag on his 'thumb' toe too... and the rest of his toe nails were.... white if i'm not wrong... it seriously got me into the idea abouyt getting my toes painetd. this guy is AMAZING... how can a 30 year old guy who is a father to 2 girls, look like he's 25 and thinks like a 7 year old??? *sign* he's irresistable... *grinz*(^-^)
and some crazy pple in HongKong and China are claiming that Takuya is 163cm tall... ya right... okie... he MAY not be 176.5 as the official readings state... but at least 172... think about it... if he's 163, Matsu Takako, the Hero girl, or the one in Love Generation will be 152, and Nakai Masahiro, the leader of SMAP, 150... what does that make SMAP??? a dwarf group? pur...lease...
I'll go look for blue nail polishes...
and some crazy pple in HongKong and China are claiming that Takuya is 163cm tall... ya right... okie... he MAY not be 176.5 as the official readings state... but at least 172... think about it... if he's 163, Matsu Takako, the Hero girl, or the one in Love Generation will be 152, and Nakai Masahiro, the leader of SMAP, 150... what does that make SMAP??? a dwarf group? pur...lease...
I'll go look for blue nail polishes...
Friday, July 11, 2003
it's been a LONG week... really long... dead tired and worn out.... and the weekend's gonna be a long one too... practices both tomorrow AND Sunday.... know it's unavoidable... and necessary and all, but can i just complain? *hee* got back maths, physics and chem liaoz... died for maths... 56(C)... shxx... only three people got lower than a B(60) for maths in my class this time... one of them being me... Clare... wanna give me tuition? I need it. must be super mugger from now on... but yet i did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING since I got home at 12.30pm this afternoon (jealous?) ha...
life has been back to the hussle and bussle, very late days momentum again... been coming home after the sunset since tuesday... hopefully things will be much better after the finals... then i can probably see some sunlight and breathe again... life's hectic!! *argh!!* then, i'll be a supper mugger from then on... STUDY STUDY STUDY!! just learn that s papers prelims will be starting in week 10.... which means i have to finish my core syllabus revision before that... and learn those extra things need for s papers... and this week being week 2... i have less than 2 months... and my maths and bio being in such pok states... my physics yet to see an A before and my chem on the bringe of dropping to a B.... I AM SO DEAD.
ha.... i was facing a very big heartbreak earlier on today... got back chem results... 54.5 upon 80..... 68%... ALMOST an A thought there goes my hope of getting a single A for this common test... then... he counted wrongly! added 2 more marks... making it 56.5, a 70.8%!!! phew... and let me tell u... biochem option for chem is a BAD idea... the average that pple are getting is 5/10!! killed many people, including me... got one 5 and one 5.5... they said it's gonna be good for bio students because it's a topic we know more than the chem teachers know! but ha!!! any bio student can tell u that a ten marks question that ask u to compare and contrast the tertiary stucture of protein with DNA structure is a GONNER... (okie... not for Singhui who got an 8 for that question and on her way on establishing her 4th 4A record since last year... read: for EVERY common test)
sorry people... i'm talking about studies, studies, studies... guess that's all that's on my mind now... I dun have a life!!! crap.... how many jc student have one? really wanna talk to shuyan who's experiencing hard times now... go out and meet yiling who's back on a hols from aust... hate myself for not being able to make that time... i'm gonna to become a cold person at the rate i'm treating my social circle... sorry dears... maybe after finals on thursday... i'll have time to meet up with u guys at least once before u return okie?
and one thing.... believe that i won't be updating my blog so often anymore... maybe at most once a week... sorry dears.... nat, clare especially... i hate to do this... but i have really bad time management skills... have to cut down on things that are 'unimportant' and not urgent... till i write again... MUAKLES and TAKE CAREZ!!
life has been back to the hussle and bussle, very late days momentum again... been coming home after the sunset since tuesday... hopefully things will be much better after the finals... then i can probably see some sunlight and breathe again... life's hectic!! *argh!!* then, i'll be a supper mugger from then on... STUDY STUDY STUDY!! just learn that s papers prelims will be starting in week 10.... which means i have to finish my core syllabus revision before that... and learn those extra things need for s papers... and this week being week 2... i have less than 2 months... and my maths and bio being in such pok states... my physics yet to see an A before and my chem on the bringe of dropping to a B.... I AM SO DEAD.
ha.... i was facing a very big heartbreak earlier on today... got back chem results... 54.5 upon 80..... 68%... ALMOST an A thought there goes my hope of getting a single A for this common test... then... he counted wrongly! added 2 more marks... making it 56.5, a 70.8%!!! phew... and let me tell u... biochem option for chem is a BAD idea... the average that pple are getting is 5/10!! killed many people, including me... got one 5 and one 5.5... they said it's gonna be good for bio students because it's a topic we know more than the chem teachers know! but ha!!! any bio student can tell u that a ten marks question that ask u to compare and contrast the tertiary stucture of protein with DNA structure is a GONNER... (okie... not for Singhui who got an 8 for that question and on her way on establishing her 4th 4A record since last year... read: for EVERY common test)
sorry people... i'm talking about studies, studies, studies... guess that's all that's on my mind now... I dun have a life!!! crap.... how many jc student have one? really wanna talk to shuyan who's experiencing hard times now... go out and meet yiling who's back on a hols from aust... hate myself for not being able to make that time... i'm gonna to become a cold person at the rate i'm treating my social circle... sorry dears... maybe after finals on thursday... i'll have time to meet up with u guys at least once before u return okie?
and one thing.... believe that i won't be updating my blog so often anymore... maybe at most once a week... sorry dears.... nat, clare especially... i hate to do this... but i have really bad time management skills... have to cut down on things that are 'unimportant' and not urgent... till i write again... MUAKLES and TAKE CAREZ!!
Saturday, July 05, 2003
hate it when i meet up with long time friends and simply having nothing to say to them... that was what happened tonight...
went for Qihang 2003 (well done girls... it was GOOD!! (^-^) though none of you read my blog...) and met up with HuaHui friends... our batch one... well.... the fact lies that i never had too much to talk to them anyway... but... it was... awkward silence... i think... while the rest of them talked alot... shared gossips... etc... this is bad... i shouldn't be feeling like that... some of them i'm actually quite close in secondary school, but now... i dunno... shxx... feeling wierd. nice to find out that they're doing well and all, but just argh!!!!!!
dead tired... co prac this morn, we're playing good music... hey maybe a 1st in finals may be possible!! (^-^) well... at least that the common aim for everyone now... GANBARE~ I'm sure we can make it onez... as long as we try hard enough, we'll create another miracle for RJCO!!! though looking at the long string of practices till finals on the 17th is really depressing... but guess that's the price to pay for victory...
really like SMAP's new album... [MIJ]. meaning [Made in Japan], love 'ai to yuuki', the song that i translated that day and 'natsu hi yukka' meaning a song sang in the blues of summer... (sorry, bad translation) like touching songs with good lyrics... though 'ai to yuuki' is fast... shall not bore everyone with too much SMAP... since none of u actually know who exactly is SMAP aniwae... (u're missing out on ALOT kae???!!)
meeting up with my Outlook (school magazine) junior tomorrow at my house... we're doing the new issue... i'm supposed to step down liaoz... but the person who took over me gave up the post cause he got into faction!! then, the replacemet is a total slacker... think he got some scolding by the teacher-in-charge... the one coming over tomorrow is the Assistant Graphics and Layout Editor... when can we find her a decent Head G&L editor??!! well.. so, the story goes that the teacher contacted me and asked for help to get the new issue out since the due date is tuesday... (shxx... haven't done anything to it yet...) can i scold??? DAMX the two IDIOTS... one 1st one( told us during the interview that he will be able to cope with faction AND Outlook, the other, applied for the job when they place a notice to open applications to the job larz... WHY are they taking up the job in the first place if they dun plan to do anything??!! *curse*
sorry pple... writing in bits and pieces now... still haven't overcomed the hangover feeling since yesterday... and i need to pack my room... tomorrow my junior's coming to my house!! cannot present her with a disfigured, post common test looking room right? hmm... maybe i can...
went for Qihang 2003 (well done girls... it was GOOD!! (^-^) though none of you read my blog...) and met up with HuaHui friends... our batch one... well.... the fact lies that i never had too much to talk to them anyway... but... it was... awkward silence... i think... while the rest of them talked alot... shared gossips... etc... this is bad... i shouldn't be feeling like that... some of them i'm actually quite close in secondary school, but now... i dunno... shxx... feeling wierd. nice to find out that they're doing well and all, but just argh!!!!!!
dead tired... co prac this morn, we're playing good music... hey maybe a 1st in finals may be possible!! (^-^) well... at least that the common aim for everyone now... GANBARE~ I'm sure we can make it onez... as long as we try hard enough, we'll create another miracle for RJCO!!! though looking at the long string of practices till finals on the 17th is really depressing... but guess that's the price to pay for victory...
really like SMAP's new album... [MIJ]. meaning [Made in Japan], love 'ai to yuuki', the song that i translated that day and 'natsu hi yukka' meaning a song sang in the blues of summer... (sorry, bad translation) like touching songs with good lyrics... though 'ai to yuuki' is fast... shall not bore everyone with too much SMAP... since none of u actually know who exactly is SMAP aniwae... (u're missing out on ALOT kae???!!)
meeting up with my Outlook (school magazine) junior tomorrow at my house... we're doing the new issue... i'm supposed to step down liaoz... but the person who took over me gave up the post cause he got into faction!! then, the replacemet is a total slacker... think he got some scolding by the teacher-in-charge... the one coming over tomorrow is the Assistant Graphics and Layout Editor... when can we find her a decent Head G&L editor??!! well.. so, the story goes that the teacher contacted me and asked for help to get the new issue out since the due date is tuesday... (shxx... haven't done anything to it yet...) can i scold??? DAMX the two IDIOTS... one 1st one( told us during the interview that he will be able to cope with faction AND Outlook, the other, applied for the job when they place a notice to open applications to the job larz... WHY are they taking up the job in the first place if they dun plan to do anything??!! *curse*
sorry pple... writing in bits and pieces now... still haven't overcomed the hangover feeling since yesterday... and i need to pack my room... tomorrow my junior's coming to my house!! cannot present her with a disfigured, post common test looking room right? hmm... maybe i can...
Friday, July 04, 2003
Bought the album!!! Love it... best album so far... remembered when I first heard their 12th album... (it's their 16th now) I was wondering how can a groups like that ever be popular... honoest.. they're not exactly handsome too... Takuya included... ha... I didn't see their charm at that time...
check out the photos!!! My cat and my work table. ^^
check out the photos!!! My cat and my work table. ^^
It's over!!!!!!!!!!!!
and I'm dead..... can't believe I screwed up chem... kinda.... minus 10 out of 80 min already... this is NOT a good sign... then, I screwed up maths... minus 20 at least liaoz... I'm just not in the mood to study for the last two days... every time I look at the book, notes, whatever... I'll have is super saturation feel... as though if I try to take in anymore, I'll explode...is that a sign of being burnt out? Can't stanf the sight of my books anymore... headache...
Just dun want to think about it anymore... gonna go shopping with ShuYan later... she just came back from aust this morn... miss her... ^^ and... I'm gonna buy my SMAP cd!!!!!!!!! *cheers* been longing for this day to come... though I was hoping that it's not in this state that I probably can't get a single A this common test... *shake the thought off* as long as I dun get a string if Ds.... *scream* that is NOT gonna happen... can I phycho the teachers to see my answers as the correct one?? sorry... I'm crapping... slept at 5am last night... my practice every common test... I know this is a bad habit... but I'm seriously nocturnal.... they should have school at night... midnight... then maybe I won't fall asleep so much during lectures...
How's everyone's common test, block test whatever going on? Hope it has been good for you all... Take a good rest this long weekend and back to school on Tuesday!! *tries to give a rather lifeless cheer* sign...
and I'm dead..... can't believe I screwed up chem... kinda.... minus 10 out of 80 min already... this is NOT a good sign... then, I screwed up maths... minus 20 at least liaoz... I'm just not in the mood to study for the last two days... every time I look at the book, notes, whatever... I'll have is super saturation feel... as though if I try to take in anymore, I'll explode...is that a sign of being burnt out? Can't stanf the sight of my books anymore... headache...
Just dun want to think about it anymore... gonna go shopping with ShuYan later... she just came back from aust this morn... miss her... ^^ and... I'm gonna buy my SMAP cd!!!!!!!!! *cheers* been longing for this day to come... though I was hoping that it's not in this state that I probably can't get a single A this common test... *shake the thought off* as long as I dun get a string if Ds.... *scream* that is NOT gonna happen... can I phycho the teachers to see my answers as the correct one?? sorry... I'm crapping... slept at 5am last night... my practice every common test... I know this is a bad habit... but I'm seriously nocturnal.... they should have school at night... midnight... then maybe I won't fall asleep so much during lectures...
How's everyone's common test, block test whatever going on? Hope it has been good for you all... Take a good rest this long weekend and back to school on Tuesday!! *tries to give a rather lifeless cheer* sign...
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
note: please use Unicode ( UTF-6) encoding to see the Jap words.
愛と勇気
(love and courage)
I love you I need you I want you どこにいても
(I love u I need u I want u, no matter where i am)
君を忘れるなんて できっこないのさ
(it's impossible to forget you)
元気はないし お金もないし
(I dun have energy, I dun have money)
笑っちゃうです 誰か「がんばれ！」って言ってくれ
(I was laughed at (someone smiled at me) someone please tell me to ganbare!! (give me some support!)
愛と勇気と未来への希望が
(love, courage, the hope for the future)
カンジンカナメの Oh～！我が人生
(with all my heart... Oh~! it's our life!!) -huh?!
ファイト！って言う気と つらくても理想が大事
(saying 'fight!!' is gonna be hard and painful but it's important to have dreams)
Oh～すべては みんなみんなみんな この胸の中に
(oh~ everything is, everyone, in this heart of ours!)
サクラ散る春の日も セミがうるさい夏も
(in the spring days when the sakura flowers wither, in the summer when the cicadas are very noisy)
木枯らし吹く秋の日も 耳がつめたい冬も
( in the autum days when the trees turn brown, in the winter when the ears get cold)
ゴキゲンですよ だって好きだもの
(be happy, afterall these are the things u like!! (about Japan?))
君のためなら 今日も「とばすぜ！」ってなるのさ
(if it's for your sake, i'll feel that i'll want to fly today too)
雨もアラシも 踏み越えてゆくよ
(in rain, in hurricane, let's walk forward)
満身創痍のOh～！ 我が人生
(even if we're hurt and have our bodies covered with injuries Oh~ it's our life)
酸いも甘いも 分かってる強さが大事
(no matter sour od sweet, the courage that we all know is very important)
Oh～答えは きっときっときっと この胸の中に
(oh~ the answer is definately in this heart of ours)
あいまいだけど 君を想うと
(although it's ambiguous, whenever i think of you)
笑っちゃうけど やたら「がんばろう！」ってなるから
(although I'll get laughed at, i'll feel like i wnt to work hard)
愛と勇気と未来への希望が
(love, courage, the hope for the future)
(with all my heart... Oh~! it's our life!!) -huh?!
ファイト！って言う気と つらくても理想が大事
(saying 'fight!!' is gonna be hard and painful but it's important to have dreams)
Oh～すべては みんなみんなみんな この胸の中に
(oh~ everything is, everyone, in this heart of ours!)
雨もアラシも 踏み越えてゆくよ
(in rain, in hurricane, let's walk forward)
満身創痍のOh～！ 我が人生
(even if we're hurt and have our bodies covered with injuries Oh~ it's our life)
酸いも甘いも 分かってる強さが大事
(no matter sour od sweet, the courage that we all know is very important)
Oh～答えは きっときっときっと この胸の中に
(oh~ the answer is definately in this heart of ours)
great song... by SMAP!!!!
source: uta net
translation: yours truly... bad job though...
written by: toutasu matsumoto
fell in love with the song after I watched SMAP performing it on SMAPXSMAP on Monday night (downloaded the clip) it's so... energetic!! very lively, and very refreshing... love it... very hopful song too!
for everyone feeling down!! (^-^)
愛と勇気
(love and courage)
I love you I need you I want you どこにいても
(I love u I need u I want u, no matter where i am)
君を忘れるなんて できっこないのさ
(it's impossible to forget you)
元気はないし お金もないし
(I dun have energy, I dun have money)
笑っちゃうです 誰か「がんばれ！」って言ってくれ
(I was laughed at (someone smiled at me) someone please tell me to ganbare!! (give me some support!)
愛と勇気と未来への希望が
(love, courage, the hope for the future)
カンジンカナメの Oh～！我が人生
(with all my heart... Oh~! it's our life!!) -huh?!
ファイト！って言う気と つらくても理想が大事
(saying 'fight!!' is gonna be hard and painful but it's important to have dreams)
Oh～すべては みんなみんなみんな この胸の中に
(oh~ everything is, everyone, in this heart of ours!)
サクラ散る春の日も セミがうるさい夏も
(in the spring days when the sakura flowers wither, in the summer when the cicadas are very noisy)
木枯らし吹く秋の日も 耳がつめたい冬も
( in the autum days when the trees turn brown, in the winter when the ears get cold)
ゴキゲンですよ だって好きだもの
(be happy, afterall these are the things u like!! (about Japan?))
君のためなら 今日も「とばすぜ！」ってなるのさ
(if it's for your sake, i'll feel that i'll want to fly today too)
雨もアラシも 踏み越えてゆくよ
(in rain, in hurricane, let's walk forward)
満身創痍のOh～！ 我が人生
(even if we're hurt and have our bodies covered with injuries Oh~ it's our life)
酸いも甘いも 分かってる強さが大事
(no matter sour od sweet, the courage that we all know is very important)
Oh～答えは きっときっときっと この胸の中に
(oh~ the answer is definately in this heart of ours)
あいまいだけど 君を想うと
(although it's ambiguous, whenever i think of you)
笑っちゃうけど やたら「がんばろう！」ってなるから
(although I'll get laughed at, i'll feel like i wnt to work hard)
愛と勇気と未来への希望が
(love, courage, the hope for the future)
(with all my heart... Oh~! it's our life!!) -huh?!
ファイト！って言う気と つらくても理想が大事
(saying 'fight!!' is gonna be hard and painful but it's important to have dreams)
Oh～すべては みんなみんなみんな この胸の中に
(oh~ everything is, everyone, in this heart of ours!)
雨もアラシも 踏み越えてゆくよ
(in rain, in hurricane, let's walk forward)
満身創痍のOh～！ 我が人生
(even if we're hurt and have our bodies covered with injuries Oh~ it's our life)
酸いも甘いも 分かってる強さが大事
(no matter sour od sweet, the courage that we all know is very important)
Oh～答えは きっときっときっと この胸の中に
(oh~ the answer is definately in this heart of ours)
great song... by SMAP!!!!
source: uta net
translation: yours truly... bad job though...
written by: toutasu matsumoto
fell in love with the song after I watched SMAP performing it on SMAPXSMAP on Monday night (downloaded the clip) it's so... energetic!! very lively, and very refreshing... love it... very hopful song too!
for everyone feeling down!! (^-^)
Tuesday, July 01, 2003
at last bio's over... and it's a break tomorrow! (^-^) then maths and chem... how's everyone's common test going? yesterday's physics was... tough... really tough... couldn't do the buoyancy question... no time to think... hope to scrap an A... haven't got an A in physics common test before... ha but honestly, not very possible... yes, yes, heard your "huh?! A?!"s, but in RJ, I'll say that the A comes much more easily and in higher percentage that the As in other JCs in general... really... got an A in Chem the last time but am only 79 percentile (100% being the top) in level... you get the picture?
and bio's well... at least I tried my best... as long as I dun get 8 percentile in level (that's a D kae?! can u imagine the people with As? majority in my class... *shake head*)and waste the effort of Mr. Chan coming all the way back to school to give me special revision... shxx... very worried that I'll... well... dui bu qi his goodwill... well... tried my best? not exactly a good paper... well... bio's not my stuff... it just doesn't get in! who cares what happens during DNA replication? who bothers what's the pathogen's name that cause tuberculosis? a pathogen larz... some funny bateria or virus (it' a bateria called bacillus tuberculosis) heck...
got my SAT results... 1380... damx how?! third SAT I for me? gonna take it after As if so... but Meli was saying that it's not good to take too many times as they have the records... but if I really wanna take medicine... think I need way better than this... my verbal's bad... very bad, 630... 10 mark improvement from the last time... and all the word list that I read?! waste... rubbish... how?! I need to do something to my English... in general... sign... hate SAT... stoopid... waste of time and $$$$$$$$$$$$$...
to everyone still taking their papers... GANBARE~ and Good Luck!! (^-^) You can do it onez!!!!!!!!
and bio's well... at least I tried my best... as long as I dun get 8 percentile in level (that's a D kae?! can u imagine the people with As? majority in my class... *shake head*)and waste the effort of Mr. Chan coming all the way back to school to give me special revision... shxx... very worried that I'll... well... dui bu qi his goodwill... well... tried my best? not exactly a good paper... well... bio's not my stuff... it just doesn't get in! who cares what happens during DNA replication? who bothers what's the pathogen's name that cause tuberculosis? a pathogen larz... some funny bateria or virus (it' a bateria called bacillus tuberculosis) heck...
got my SAT results... 1380... damx how?! third SAT I for me? gonna take it after As if so... but Meli was saying that it's not good to take too many times as they have the records... but if I really wanna take medicine... think I need way better than this... my verbal's bad... very bad, 630... 10 mark improvement from the last time... and all the word list that I read?! waste... rubbish... how?! I need to do something to my English... in general... sign... hate SAT... stoopid... waste of time and $$$$$$$$$$$$$...
to everyone still taking their papers... GANBARE~ and Good Luck!! (^-^) You can do it onez!!!!!!!!
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