She was such a lovely girl, a girl who was pretty on the outside and also on the inside.
She was a person with a mind of her own.
And rightfully so, because she was such a brilliant girl, it would be a pity not to use her good brains.
She knew what to do all the time; she knew what she was doing.
We always know that if we listen to her, we will never go too far wrong. She would have thought of all the things we probably will never think of and her decisions were always done after careful thought.
She was one with high expectations of herself. A person of her calibre should.
She sets goals for herself. And we all know, she can achieve them.
She had beautiful dreams of the future. She wanted to do medicine, she will marry her pilot boyfriend and the two of them will migrate to Australia. She was considering teaching too. Maybe not in university but in junior college.
She wasn't quite sure which road she wants to take, but I knew she will succeed regardless of which path she decides to take.
She liked people and she never hesitates to show her love for people.
She showers us with presents. She said she likes to shop for other people.
She gave me a pair of earrings on Valentines' Day.
She didn't say much about it; she simply passed them to me.
But I knew it was her way of showing friendship to me.
She was shy about showing her emotions, but I felt her love.
She loved us. She was always so protective of us, her friends.
She was our protector, against the lousy lecturers and also against the harm from other people. Just this semester, we have a lecturer who went overtime every lecture. However, she and I have another lecture (Econs) to catch after that. She S/Ued the Econs module (pass/fail option) and was not graded for it. But I was taking Econs too. And I am being graded for it. She stood up to the lecturer to ask him to end the lecture because the regulations indicated that all lectures should end 15 min before the next hour to allow us time to go for the lecture. It really didn’t matter to her that she missed the lecture. At that moment, I thought she was standing up against him because she wasn’t happy with how he was going over time. I think she probably did do it partly because of that. But I just found out that it appeared pretty obvious to the rest of the girls that she probably did it for me. She didn’t want me to endure in silence and have to stay back to attend a later lecture class in the evening.
She shares, always willing to teach and always willing to give.
She never asked for anything thing in return; she simply gave.
Some people are smart but they were selfish with their knowledge,
but she was so intelligent and yet so willing to help others who are not as good. We simply needed to ask and she will give more then what we expected.
The fact that she had made all the knowledge her own, her teaching was always very enlightening and very beneficial. Last semester, she offered her Biomechanics tutorial to me without me asking. She knew I didn’t manage to get down to doing them. So she photocopied her own and gave them to me. I referred to it so much over the course of preparing for the examination.
She’s always able to find the best things of people. She asked me how I kept my hair straight. She said hers always get a curl after sleeping on them. She was never stingy with her compliments. I keep my admirations to other people to myself.
She loved her family, she hopes her good looking brothers all grows up to be bishies (cute pretty boys). She was very proud of them because they are all so outstanding. She knew she was well-respected by them too.
She loved her mother and always wondered how she managed to keep so slim and pretty despite giving birth to 5 children. Her mother was her role model.
She respected her father and seeks advices from him. She treated him as her consultant and always looks for him for words of wisdom.
I always complained to her about things my sister did to me and also the things I did with my sister. She always listened with interest and commented about how she would love a sister herself: Someone to go shopping with, someone to doll-up with.
She was a very strong person, but there was a very girly side of her too. She loved soft-toys, especially those of the line NICI. She sleeps with them and she names them. They were her meh mehs (sheeps basically). She has a whole collection of them. It is incomprehensible to me. But it was very cute. She loved to hug and she loved to lean on my shoulders. She said it’s soft and comfy.
She loved heels. Platforms to be exact. She looked really good in heels, and her legs so white, the rest of us were actually secretly admiring them. She was pretty, had perfect skin. In addition to that, she knew how to dress up. She went to professionals for her hair and eyebrows. She couldn’t stand cheap earrings. She said they look common and cheap. She liked things with style and good quality.
She liked to shop at esprit. I like it too. She always offered her discount card and vouchers. I didn’t accept them because my mother has the card too. But the gesture was appreciated.
She liked Kenzo perfume. The stuff toys that we got for our friends going overseas had the smell of her perfume on them. But her perfume was not overpowering. It was just the right amount and very comfortable.
She loved to paint her toe nails. But she never paints her fingernails. She said the nail polish on the nails never lasted. She loved to use black nail polish on her toes. They stand out against her fair skin.
She liked to use “oha” as a greeting. It’s a short form for ohaiyou that means good morning or hello in Japanese. We loved her way of saying “omedetou” (Congratulations in Japanese). It sounded a little sarcastic, we used it pretty often, but she’s the only one who can give the perfect tone to it.
She had beautiful handwriting and is meticulously neat. She told me another friend was saying how our handwritings look alike. But both of us agreed that the only similarity was that our writing looks “artistic”.
She got 93 for the last maths test. The rest of us always hoped that we hav just 1/2 her brains. That will really help alot~ She was truly the best amongst us. Beauty and brains. She's definately not the "bimbo" she always jokingly claims she is. She knew she's good too.
She was always happy to hear me fangirl about my idols. When I started liking WuChun recently, she declared that it was a seven years itch. After liking Kimura Takuya for seven years, I start to look for a new boy. I argued that I still love Kimura Takuya. She believed me, but that didn’t quite stop her regarding the seven year itch thing.
I am a SMAP fan, she on the other hand, loved the kohais (the younger boys of Johnny’s Entertainment). She liked boys white and pretty. But they have to have their clothes on. Scrawny bodies pains her. She said it’s because her brothers have wonderful bodies, so she has high expectations.
She really liked the red prawn candy I brought during CNY. I gave her one during lecture one day, and she liked it. So I gave her what I had that day. I wanted to get her a packet after that. But I never found the sweet again… they don’t sell anymore after CNY. I had wanted to get her a pair of butterfly earrings too. I somehow never found the occasion to get her one pair. I wish I didn’t wait for a chance to get her anything.
She’s a person I admire. She was very outspoken. She’s the only one amongst us who can go up to the lecturers (or anyone in fact) and tell them in their faces that she feels what they’re doing is wrong. The rest of us will be afraid to tell a superior his mistakes in fear that the superior will do anything to put us down. But she was fearless, she knew that she was right and she’s confident enough to put her points across to them. Some times we wonder if the lecturers were scared of her. I wish I have her courage and her convictions.
She had decided to take her life in her own hands. She had decided to end it her own way. I don't understand it. But I know she must have thought over it. It is her decision. Much as it pains me, much as I wish I can talk her out of it, it is her decision. I will accept it and respect it.
She's gone, but our memories will last a long time. She was my company over the last few months of her life. She brought me alot of comfort and gave me alot of love. I love her too. I hope I can do more for her, there are so many things we wanted to do together, we wanted to go on holiday together, we were planning to stay in hostel together, and we wanted to do special term together. She was my comfort when I was lonely.
Dear, thank you for being such a lovely friend. I will remember you forever. I know you are in good hands now, enjoy yourself and we will all meet again soon.
31 March 2007
First written at 3:17PM
Last edited at 3 April 1:15PM
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
世界上唯一一朵花
人都是孤独的。
所以我们要坚强。
我们要学习如何自己去面对自己的问题。
不要以为永远都有别人能帮助你。
因为到了最后，只有你自己是你自己最好的依靠。
如果在你最需要帮忙的时候，
你身边没有人，
你要知道，他们的确没有义务帮助你，
虽然你会觉得孤独，
但是你要坚强，你要帮助你自己。
因为你真的太重要了。
人都是自私的。
把自己顾好吧~ 只有你能最珍惜你自己。
当然，我一直都觉得自顾自的的生活太冷淡了。
尽量照顾你身边的人。
因为不是每一个人都可以把自己顾好，
有的人需要更多的关怀和照顾。
当然，一切都应该是在你的能力范围内。
尽力吧~ 不要勉强自己，
但是如果可以，帮别人做点事情。
这样会让这个世界更美好，更快乐。
所以我们要坚强。
我们要学习如何自己去面对自己的问题。
不要以为永远都有别人能帮助你。
因为到了最后，只有你自己是你自己最好的依靠。
如果在你最需要帮忙的时候，
你身边没有人，
你要知道，他们的确没有义务帮助你，
虽然你会觉得孤独，
但是你要坚强，你要帮助你自己。
因为你真的太重要了。
人都是自私的。
把自己顾好吧~ 只有你能最珍惜你自己。
当然，我一直都觉得自顾自的的生活太冷淡了。
尽量照顾你身边的人。
因为不是每一个人都可以把自己顾好，
有的人需要更多的关怀和照顾。
当然，一切都应该是在你的能力范围内。
尽力吧~ 不要勉强自己，
但是如果可以，帮别人做点事情。
这样会让这个世界更美好，更快乐。
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
my daily coffee dose
This photo's taken during break at cell biology lecture today. I tend to take up alot of table space... 3 seats if i have the luxury (= =). So much space that my pencil box (that's on the left of the photo) and pen and pencil (that's on the right of the photo) don't fit into the camera's scope. (the seat at LT26 is really tight and there's not enough space to retreat to take a photo of the whole table space)
I think I'm addicted to coffee, the day does not start unless I have my daily coffee dose. Latte is top on the list (from any of the coffee outlets in NUS, ie: coffee club express or spinelli) of preferred coffee followed by McDonalds' coffee, then coffee at Dily's @ Engine, lastly coffee at the Pavillion at LT7A.
I am beginning to want good coffee. Unfortunately coffee that does not taste coffee make most of my days. Since good coffee is too much of a luxury to enjoy daily, I give myself a treat once in a long while just to make myself happy~ ^^
(in case you're wondering why I have a camera with me... I brought it to take photos of my samples (UROP expt samples))
Sunday, March 18, 2007
芷宜
哲平今天为了好玩给我做了首诗哦！！
还附赠：
到巫山去种块牌子，写上：
巫山云里寻白芷
忘却此处不相宜 (PS.请别被巫山迷惑了，您要找的白芷在新加坡呢^^)
呵呵~ 解释是：
巫山云里是很浪漫幻想的地方
到那里去寻找那么美的香草
找不到
不如到人间去找
新加坡就有一只
很有趣的游戏~ 但是还真的只有文字造诣过人的人才能玩的高等游戏呢~ 我看看就好~ 哈哈~~
谢谢了哲平！ ^^
还附赠：
到巫山去种块牌子，写上：
巫山云里寻白芷
忘却此处不相宜 (PS.请别被巫山迷惑了，您要找的白芷在新加坡呢^^)
呵呵~ 解释是：
巫山云里是很浪漫幻想的地方
到那里去寻找那么美的香草
找不到
不如到人间去找
新加坡就有一只
很有趣的游戏~ 但是还真的只有文字造诣过人的人才能玩的高等游戏呢~ 我看看就好~ 哈哈~~
谢谢了哲平！ ^^
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
完美男人
每个女生应该都有幻想过自己希望的伴侣的样子，性格，能力等等吧？
你的完美男人是怎样的呢？
我呢……很肤浅的~
样子要好看~ 不需要祸国殃民~ 但是要看得顺眼。
脑子要比我好~ 而且不可以嫌我笨。必要的时候还要懂得装笨，这样才不会伤我无聊的自尊心。
家里呢~ 小康或以上，不要一大堆债务就好 = =
不需要超级大户~ 因为我这种没有气质的人不适合做少奶奶。
与其有个富裕的家族，我宁愿他是有能力，有抱负的男生。
但是不要整天想着一步登天，脚踏实地就好。
如果没办法赚钱就要是个顾家的小男人~ 我可以养他 （我骨子里是个大女人 = = ）
但是我不会做的家务事全部由他负责。
必须是个好人，有好的价值观和自己的想法，独立，自主，有自信但是却不嚣张。
思想不要太古板，也要接受我时不时地精神出轨和永远爱着我的偶像的事实。
最重要的…… 还是我喜欢。
好了~ 白日梦发完了~ 现在说明星梦~ orz
我说……吴吉尊（吴尊），你会不会太完美了？
1）家里有钱，自己又是健身院的老板
2）脑子不错，虽然看起来傻傻的，却让人有大智若愚的感觉
3）长相一级棒，完全没办法挑剔……啊有！ 你怎么都没毛细孔的？还有27岁的人怎么看起来跟我一样大？
4）在澳洲的时候去烹饪学校上过课，厨艺No. 1，而且还说会帮女朋友洗碗
5）做事超级认真，到台湾在2年内把国语练起来不说，为了开健身院还去考国际执照~ 他在汶莱的gym规模也真的很棒
6）完全好像没有脾气，对fans对记者都超级nice，也从来没有听人家说过他一句坏话
为什么那么完美的男人27岁只交过一个女朋友呢？你知道多少女生想嫁到汶莱去当Mrs. Goh吗？ 汗……最起码香港机场那4000位fans一半以上是这样的…… = =
你的完美男人是怎样的呢？
我呢……很肤浅的~
样子要好看~ 不需要祸国殃民~ 但是要看得顺眼。
脑子要比我好~ 而且不可以嫌我笨。必要的时候还要懂得装笨，这样才不会伤我无聊的自尊心。
家里呢~ 小康或以上，不要一大堆债务就好 = =
不需要超级大户~ 因为我这种没有气质的人不适合做少奶奶。
与其有个富裕的家族，我宁愿他是有能力，有抱负的男生。
但是不要整天想着一步登天，脚踏实地就好。
如果没办法赚钱就要是个顾家的小男人~ 我可以养他 （我骨子里是个大女人 = = ）
但是我不会做的家务事全部由他负责。
必须是个好人，有好的价值观和自己的想法，独立，自主，有自信但是却不嚣张。
思想不要太古板，也要接受我时不时地精神出轨和永远爱着我的偶像的事实。
最重要的…… 还是我喜欢。
好了~ 白日梦发完了~ 现在说明星梦~ orz
我说……吴吉尊（吴尊），你会不会太完美了？
1）家里有钱，自己又是健身院的老板
2）脑子不错，虽然看起来傻傻的，却让人有大智若愚的感觉
3）长相一级棒，完全没办法挑剔……啊有！ 你怎么都没毛细孔的？还有27岁的人怎么看起来跟我一样大？
4）在澳洲的时候去烹饪学校上过课，厨艺No. 1，而且还说会帮女朋友洗碗
5）做事超级认真，到台湾在2年内把国语练起来不说，为了开健身院还去考国际执照~ 他在汶莱的gym规模也真的很棒
6）完全好像没有脾气，对fans对记者都超级nice，也从来没有听人家说过他一句坏话
为什么那么完美的男人27岁只交过一个女朋友呢？你知道多少女生想嫁到汶莱去当Mrs. Goh吗？ 汗……最起码香港机场那4000位fans一半以上是这样的…… = =
Friday, March 09, 2007
My Personality DNA
WOW~~
I dunno about what you think... but I think that's me...
You are a Designer
As a DESIGNER, you are receptive to ideas and experiences, and enjoy the beautiful things in life, yet you are also grounded and realistic about yourself and the world.
You have a quiet appreciation for beauty in all its forms – in nature, in people, and in human creations from architecture to movies.
Instead of only focusing on functionality, you try to incorporate your good sense of style and taste into your choices.
At times you feel unsure of yourself, especially when confronted by other people.
You aren't the kind of person who insists on having things your way all the time – you are willing to go along with other people's opinions, even if you disagree.
Others may not know this about you, but you are very interested in new ideas, thoughts, expressions, and experiences. You enjoy learning and trying new things.
Although you are practical, you are anything but boring – you have depths to you that others cannot see.
The idea of doing the same thing every day for the rest of your life scares you – you need more excitement and challenge than that!
You have a remarkable eye for detail and precision, noticing things that others miss.
You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.
You are balanced in your approach to problem-solving, not letting your emotions hold you up.
Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.
You are Reserved
You are RESERVED – you aren't someone who always needs to have others around, and you find you can handle most situations on your own.
You can be very happy spending time alone, and enjoy your own thoughts and ideas.
You find it difficult to understand why some people get so emotional and tell everyone else their problems.
You believe that if you want to get something done, it is best to do it yourself.
In your experience, other people are not always completely dependable, so you generally rely on yourself and only a few close others.
Despite your independence, you are not a closed-minded person who makes hasty judgments about others. You know that it isn't always easy to walk in other people's shoes.
At times other people's feelings are puzzling to you, and you wish that people were more rational.
Your vision of the world is complex – your values are not set in stone. Instead, you are able to change your beliefs as you learn new information.
You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.
You are balanced in your approach to problem-solving, not letting your emotions hold you up.
Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.
I dunno about what you think... but I think that's me...
You are a Designer
As a DESIGNER, you are receptive to ideas and experiences, and enjoy the beautiful things in life, yet you are also grounded and realistic about yourself and the world.
You have a quiet appreciation for beauty in all its forms – in nature, in people, and in human creations from architecture to movies.
Instead of only focusing on functionality, you try to incorporate your good sense of style and taste into your choices.
At times you feel unsure of yourself, especially when confronted by other people.
You aren't the kind of person who insists on having things your way all the time – you are willing to go along with other people's opinions, even if you disagree.
Others may not know this about you, but you are very interested in new ideas, thoughts, expressions, and experiences. You enjoy learning and trying new things.
Although you are practical, you are anything but boring – you have depths to you that others cannot see.
The idea of doing the same thing every day for the rest of your life scares you – you need more excitement and challenge than that!
You have a remarkable eye for detail and precision, noticing things that others miss.
You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.
You are balanced in your approach to problem-solving, not letting your emotions hold you up.
Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.
You are Reserved
You are RESERVED – you aren't someone who always needs to have others around, and you find you can handle most situations on your own.
You can be very happy spending time alone, and enjoy your own thoughts and ideas.
You find it difficult to understand why some people get so emotional and tell everyone else their problems.
You believe that if you want to get something done, it is best to do it yourself.
In your experience, other people are not always completely dependable, so you generally rely on yourself and only a few close others.
Despite your independence, you are not a closed-minded person who makes hasty judgments about others. You know that it isn't always easy to walk in other people's shoes.
At times other people's feelings are puzzling to you, and you wish that people were more rational.
Your vision of the world is complex – your values are not set in stone. Instead, you are able to change your beliefs as you learn new information.
You're not one to force your positions on a group, and you tend to be fair in evaluating different options.
You are balanced in your approach to problem-solving, not letting your emotions hold you up.
Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Rumors and Gossips
I'm actually quite scared of rumors and gossips... because I was scolded once by a coworker when I was working after the A levels. It was not intended to harm, just purely for fun, but what seems like harmless chatter on my part may be harmful to the people involved.
I swear I'm not someone who finds pleasure in looking for the newest gossips and rumor... in fact I was unaware of alot of what had went on in my secondary school during my school days until years after graduating when my friends from another class tells me about them. But somehow rumors and gossips just find their way to me. Either for clarification or just "fyi".
Then being the very stupid person I am... I may just tell other pple without realising that I have already became part of the gossip chain. After what happened with the coworker... I try to shut my mouth. It's so easy to talk about other people's business when it doesn't concern you. But I guess I will not want people to talk about me without me knowing either. So I should not talk about people. It's about karma you know... haha
Let's say... I believe that if there's something that my friends will want me to know... they will tell me themselves. If they want you to know, they will let you know themselves too. I'm not interested in telling other people about my friends' business... so please don't ask me... I dun have very sealed lips, so please dun make me slip my mouth. (= =)
This makes me remember how xiangyun always say I don't know how to lie. (= =)
I swear I'm not someone who finds pleasure in looking for the newest gossips and rumor... in fact I was unaware of alot of what had went on in my secondary school during my school days until years after graduating when my friends from another class tells me about them. But somehow rumors and gossips just find their way to me. Either for clarification or just "fyi".
Then being the very stupid person I am... I may just tell other pple without realising that I have already became part of the gossip chain. After what happened with the coworker... I try to shut my mouth. It's so easy to talk about other people's business when it doesn't concern you. But I guess I will not want people to talk about me without me knowing either. So I should not talk about people. It's about karma you know... haha
Let's say... I believe that if there's something that my friends will want me to know... they will tell me themselves. If they want you to know, they will let you know themselves too. I'm not interested in telling other people about my friends' business... so please don't ask me... I dun have very sealed lips, so please dun make me slip my mouth. (= =)
This makes me remember how xiangyun always say I don't know how to lie. (= =)
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Why I don't watch Singaporean TV
I've never figured out why my channels are always tuned to SCV channel 49, 52, 54 and 56... I mean... pple overseas ARE watching Singaporean TV! (yes, I'm serious)
Then, because of Hana Kimi showing on channel U recently, I started tuning to the long forgone channel 09 on my SCV set. Now... I think I know why I don't watch Singaporean channels.
Hello, censorship board, are you too free? Too much time? Not enough R21 films to censor? (oh yah... you don't need to censor R21 since it's 21?)
THEY CENSORED almost EVERY GAY MENTION in the show!
They censored why Ruixi managed to get Dr. MeiTian to write her a medical letter to not take swimming lessons (because Dr. MeiTian is gay and gay=can help her write fake MC according to Ruixi's logic).
They censored how Ruixi tried to ask Dr. MeiTian for a dress to wear when she meets her brother (Dr. MeiTian should have a dress because gay=have cosplay addiction according to RuiXi's logic).
I wonder how are they gonna show the part when Xiuyi declares that he's gay. (= =)
I mean.. hey~ it's harmless joke! Why take it so seriously? And do you really think Singapore viewers can't take it? Turn on your computer and ANY kid has access to a million PORN and GAY sites on the net. Talk about bar-top dancing and being an open society... obviously some factions of our society still have their minds set in the 1980s.
Then, because of Hana Kimi showing on channel U recently, I started tuning to the long forgone channel 09 on my SCV set. Now... I think I know why I don't watch Singaporean channels.
Hello, censorship board, are you too free? Too much time? Not enough R21 films to censor? (oh yah... you don't need to censor R21 since it's 21?)
THEY CENSORED almost EVERY GAY MENTION in the show!
They censored why Ruixi managed to get Dr. MeiTian to write her a medical letter to not take swimming lessons (because Dr. MeiTian is gay and gay=can help her write fake MC according to Ruixi's logic).
They censored how Ruixi tried to ask Dr. MeiTian for a dress to wear when she meets her brother (Dr. MeiTian should have a dress because gay=have cosplay addiction according to RuiXi's logic).
I wonder how are they gonna show the part when Xiuyi declares that he's gay. (= =)
I mean.. hey~ it's harmless joke! Why take it so seriously? And do you really think Singapore viewers can't take it? Turn on your computer and ANY kid has access to a million PORN and GAY sites on the net. Talk about bar-top dancing and being an open society... obviously some factions of our society still have their minds set in the 1980s.
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