For all my dears~ Please use unicode to decode the Japanese words.

「友達へ　～Say What You Will～」
Artist: SMAP
Lyrics and tune: Eric Clapton
Lyrics translation: Aleshiela Puriko (copyright)

*Cause I needed a friend 君が必要さ
Cause I needed a friend, you are necessary (to me)
友達と呼べる幸せ
The fortunate feeling of being able to call a friend.
Good love from me to you*
Good love from me to you.

Say what you will 傷つくたびに真実（ほんとう）の 愛を求めた
Say what you will, when we're hurt, we'll always desire for true love.
何度となく　つまずいては　
Without realising how many times we fall
起き上がって 生きてきたよ　この日まで
and stood up, continue living, till that day arrives.

弱気な　僕を丸ごと　
the one who let the cowardy me
信じて くれたのは君
trust someone else is you.
枕ぬらす　夜が来ても
even if the night when I'll wet my pillow (with tears)　comes
その笑顔が いつも勇気 くれるんだ（サビ）
that smile (of yours) always gives me alot of courage.

*Cause I needed a friend 君が必要さ
Cause I needed a friend, you are necessary (to me)
友達と呼べる幸せ
The fortunate feeling of being able to call a friend.
Good love from me to you*
Good love from me to you.

ほら またね　
Look once again
落ち込むたびに　ちっぽけな自分を知る
the days when I feel down, I understand the little me.
不安じゃない　人はいない　
No one doesn't feel uneased (about themselves)
だから皆　愛がいっぱい欲しいんだ（サビ）
that's why everyone wants (everywhere) to be filled with love.

*Cause I needed a friend 君が必要さ
Cause I needed a friend, you are necessary (to me)
友達と呼べる幸せ
The fortunate feeling of being able to call a friend.
Good love from me to you*
Good love from me to you.

君には　僕が必要さ
To you, I am necessary
友達と　思える幸せ
the fortunate feeling of being able to call a friend.
Good love from me to you
Good love from me to you
Good love from me to you
Good love from me to you

hey dears!!!
Thanks for all your concerns. I'm fine. ^^ Was.... over dramatic~ ^^;;

Deferring the offer for a year (not sure if I can get it).
At the moment, trying to keep in pace with the monsterous pace of n u s engine. Taking 6 modules this semester, that's why you'll see less of me around... I'll be having lessons 5 days a week, starting at average 9am, ending at 4pm on 3 days and 6pm on 2 days... you get the picture... with tutorials and online labs and jap.... = =b

so don't miss my absence if I fail to update regularly... it's because I've not got a breather at all.
Thanks to bd, gan and clare darlings!! ^^

btw... why is HMV so inefficient??? SMAP's single: 'Tomodachi he Say what you will' was released on 19 Jan and they still don't have it there!!!!! ok... I'm asking for too much...

anyway... they're FIRST on the oricon chards on the first day of release!!!!!!! *cheers and beams* That's my SMAP. *\(^o^)/*

I just realised something...

People don't heal from their pain and the lost of their dreams.
Neither do they find another dream.
They just got used to the pain, go on with whatever they have, and forget that they've ever dreamt before.

Got a call from idp today... uwa's offering me medicine...

I dun know if this gut feeling is true...
I told you I got in to uwa dentistry before right... the deadline of reply was last friday.
I did not reply (ie: rejected the offer) and now... they're offering me medicine.
so.... if I had accepted dentistry... I would not have gotten this offer at all.

I remember the lady at the booth told me before: "oh! if you got medicine and want to do dentistry in the end, I'm syre they will allow it. There's lesser applicants to dentistry"

...

the possibility of them giving me dentistry to 'try out' my response is... so high that I cannot ignore it. = =b so... the aussie unis have nothing they look for in a overseas med applicant apart from their money? Just get them into your school and start sucking your bucks. (my fren who put a second choice got her second choice too and another who only placed one choice got med...)

which reminds me of what a doctor told me when I told him that I placed bioeng as a 3rd choice... "they might just place you in bioeng because they need pple in that field now"..... I'm not going to think of the possibilities. NO... that's not the case... and.. I did complete my med interview right??? that lady did say 'thank you' right? but why the shocked faces when i said 'thank you'??!!

I can't bare the thought of such things anymore... no regrets NO regrets...

HI CLARE~!!!!!! *runs over and gives a hug* love ya dear!!! what hap to our 2046 meeting? ><

I wish I'm more organised...

got 2 gatherings tmr... need to bid for jap 6 tmr while I'm OUT...
2 more gatherings on sat... left with 60 bucks to survived the 2 days...

school's starting and I've still got one more chapter to revise for Jap...
not started any pre-revision...

have not conducted english lessons in TT for 2 weeks (yes... I conduct beginners english lessons... BEGINNERS... don't die of shock....)

how am I gonna pull up my cap next sem?! sigh...

Can some one tell me how so many can have 3-4 days week when yours truly here is trying to contain my 5 days to be not so long?! sigh... I'm seeing a semester of nightmare even before it starts...

oh... and have I told you that my school's bidding system is the best ever?! it broke down at the critical timing: 2.50pm~! wth!!

Why am I always using so many points to get my modules so that they fit into my timetable whereas people get theirs with 1 point?! And guess what?! I went through all that trouble to change my tutorial class and troubled the poor lady at the engine dept so much so that I can get this slot! Good thing I got it... and I'm gonna do this module on this day alone... *sigh*

Ale must learn to contain her anger this year.... *grrr*

I'm intending to write a LONG entry here... so don't bother to read unless you're very free or very interested in my last year, 2004.

exactly a year ago... on new year's day... I was rushing my project on foreign investments in China... my second job at an advertising company. Asked my mum to ask my aunt to accept me into her company because i was plan lazy to look for a job after As... was feeling bitter... why do I have to bring home work when I'm just an intern there? why am I slogging away on New Year's holiday?! blew up, and told my mum I'm gonna quit. that's it... that's not my work... not what I should be doing.... I'm helpless... I dun know what on earth I was doing because I know nuts about econs.second aunt... not my boss, came and gave me a pat talk... about how people should not give up so easily.. not things will always be hard, how I cannot expect life to be smooth flowing all the time.

still... I quit the job.

then... stayed at home for some time... looked for other jobs, helped my parents in the robinsons sales, stood for 10hrs a day.... went for job interviews... prepare my trip to the uk... went to china for holiday during chinese new year. saw for the first time how the fire cracker looks like... played with fireworks and fire crackers, saw a whole city of fireworks that lasted for 2 hrs in shanghai... I meant WHOLE city...

came back.. went to sn to teach sec 4 chemistry for a week... lost my voice in 4 days and told myself that teaching in a class like that will never be for me... realised that sn girls are actually still very adorable.

went to IBN for an interview... IBN=Institute of Bioengineering and Nanotechnology. went to the UK for 2 weeks on my own... first time aboard alone... great experience... great sceneries... great people... came back and got offers from med in glasgow and manchester... bioeng in imeprial and pharmacology in edinburgh... decided that i wanna do medicine here in singapore...

started my attachment in IBN... skinned rats, killed rats... cut rats... made soups, rat soup.... did all sorts of funny things... got into trouble with a collegue... thought about animal rights very carefully... got A level results back... not what I wanted but good enough I guess... went for medicine and dentistry interview in singapore... got asked a million times why I wanna do med by prof.... still wanted to do medicine. found out that I didn't get in.. got into the lowest period of my life... reconsidered my available choices, gave up on going to the UK... applied for aust med... decided on bioeng in nus for the time being.

started intensive driving lessons... really liked driving... started uni very reluctantly... managed subjects that I never was interested in... programming medthodology nearly killed me... glad that i still have singhui and sandra in the same fac doing the same thing together... survived boring school life... can't wait to go aboard... finsihed my exams... realised that I really have no feelings for my school... went for my first driving test and failed with 28 points... didn't like the tester felt that the tester failed me on purpose... haha

had my exams... in the midst of getting crazy over this website called takuya's town... thought I flopped the exams... exams over... took my 2nd driving test after 2 weeks of intensive driving lessons. got the same tester... nearly flopped when i saw his name... was confident this time round and passed with 14 points... kinda understood why he failed me the last time... but refuse to admit it... got uni results back... not satisfactory... but stil can work hard next sem.

went to uwa's interview... got in dentistry for uwa... still waiting for melb now... decided that I will most prob finish uni in nus first before going for grad med if i want to... meanwhile give myself some time to think about what I wanna do...

had a good christmas to hear about the tsunamis on 26 dec... realised how fortunate I am to be here on this little red dot on the map...

still being called a kid by shuyan but feel that I've done alot of growing up last year.... hope that this year will be a better one compared to the last. for myself and for the world as a whole.

HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!
Hope all my dears have a great year ahead~~~~~ *hugz*
Love you peeps so much!!!!!!!!

oh~ and 'Meet the Fockers' is really good. Had a good laugh, a good one in a long time...
Thinking of going to crash rj in their new, beautiful (note the jealous tone) bishan campus some time next week since school starts on 10th... shld I wear my school uniform?

Having a headache arranging my time table for next sem... I tell you: I think the bidding system is ^%#^%$... you get the picture.

First new year wish on the list: To have a peaceful and safe year ahead free of natural disasters.