自闭

也只有这里，
可以让我肆无忌惮地把心里的话说出来了。
毕竟这样扭曲的性格，
如果展露出来，
还是不太好吧。

在光鲜亮丽的外表下，
其实有个空虚，渴望的灵魂。

New Year... New Life

糜烂，得过且过的生活过了一年，
新的一年可要打起精神，
认真，努力地过生活哦！！！

YOSHI!!!

about life

I need to learn to be more happy about the world around me. Learn to be more appreciative and less critical about people and things happening around me. The world is still beautiful afterall...

MCP

The male ego needs to be deflated or be kicked in the ass. It's the 21st century and males should and MUST realise that the opposite sex is not the lower gender. We rule half and world and the fact that we are not driven by both testosterone and adrenaline rushes, we are actually capable of making sound and rational decisions on our own. ROARRRRRRRRR

Happy Birthday

dear Starlight~~~~~

Grumble...

If your aim of doing a postgraduate degree is to waste time and somehow get a degree at the end of it... maybe you should reconsider your decision. And for those who refuse to learn a foreign language when you are overseas... why not not leaving your country at all? When in Rome, do it the Romans way. I'm sick of seeing a class of foreigners who don't seem to earn too much rights to be here.

Also, I think I said this before, I am not a tree... I can't support an entire habitat... I am neither noble, nor capable.

I know that we should be patient to people and it pays to be nice to people... but I think this only applies to deserving people. Nature plays such that only the fittest survives.

socially inapt

that's me... (>.<)

最值得拥有的特质

我相信每一个人心中都有一个很想拥有的“特质”。
有的人希望自己聪明伶俐，一点就通，过目不忘，
有的人希望自己社交手法高明，朋友兄弟姐妹满天下，
有的人希望自己天生丽质，不管吃多少垃圾都不胖，
外表出众，永远能在人群中显得出色。

在成长的过程中，我有过很多人生目标。
想成为一个忠诚于自己的人，
可能有点叛逆，有点自我，
但是觉得能忠诚于自己是很难得的。
想成为一个勇气过人的人，
在旁边的人都一一投降的情况之下还是不畏艰难，勇往直前。
其实更多时候，是想成为一个完美的人，
不什么好的特质都想要有。

但是说到底，其实这样只显出自己的贪心。
事无完事，人无完人，
哪有可能什么都是最好的呢？
或者说，到底什么才是最好的人？

最近喜欢萧敬腾，
其实他是个脑袋瓜子不是特别好的小孩子，
很多想法却没办法表达自己，
很多感情却不知道怎么抒发。
但是，他对自己很坦白，
他知道自己有很多不足，
所以他愿意学习，愿意向比自己有能力的人学习。
更重要的，
其实是他很善良。
不管对谁，他永远是谦虚，有礼的。
对应该做的事情，
他永远会尽自己的全力，做得最好，
他不会因为自己是大明星而开始摆架子。
比如：他知道每个晚上很多人都在fb和wb等他，
因此，他风雨不改都会上网跟大家说晚安。
虽然他因为学习不多，很不会表达自己，
但是记者问他问题，就算自己不善言辞，
他也会很努力地尽量多说一点，
希望不要让他们写稿的时候没东西写。

因为这个孩子对人很善良，
敬腾得到了身边的工作人员，
采访的记者们，
还有自己的Fans们的喜爱和无条件的支持。

不是说善良是个很好的武器，
但是萧敬腾的善良的确因此给他的生活制造了很多机会和快乐。
其实……这孩子因为善良而得到的利益，他自己可能也不知道。
他只觉得他很幸运，因为身边的人都对他很好。
这是很难能可贵的。
因为萧敬腾就是这样，单纯，善良。

所以……人……也许真的单纯，善良就够了吧。

playing the game

It baffles me why we have to play the game of bitching and gossiping (some call it office politics) at our age. I do unfortunately know that most work places are filled with it and I too am guilty of it. We do have to keep in mind all the time though, that words can hurt more than blades. It's worth being more caution about what we speak, who do we speak to and how do we talk about it. There's a reason why people say speech is a form of art.

微妙…

いまの状態は安心できない、
何かが絶対いつか爆破しちゃうかなぁと感じしています。
良くないなぁ～～～

累了~ 也怕了~

唉
时间可以倒流吗？
回到1年前好不好？

回到原点

很多艺人在过了一阵子后，
喜欢以原点为主题发一张作品。
有的人回到开始做音乐的原点，
有的人回到出道之前的原点。
其中意味的，
有回到最初起步的理想，
也有回顾和反思的目的。
但是人生真的能回到原点吗？
在经历了种种事情之后，
有多少人还记得当初的原点？
就算记得，
又有多少人能以以前的观点，
看同一个原点？
所谓的原点，
无谓就是一个心境，
在时过境迁之后，
还能找回所谓的原点吗？
不如怀着对以前美好的憧憬的记忆，
往前走下去吧……

Japanese mummy's visit

It feels so surreal to be having meals with them and bringing them around my town. I'm a happy girl for now. :)

人心比世界复杂~

from Sina微博

@朱孝天：偈語<二>死者已逝，無苦無憂。可憐生者，喋喋不休。
@蕭敬騰:死者已逝，無苦無憂。生者生者，無憂無慮。
@朱孝天:我擔心你，因為你的純真最後一定會帶給你痛苦。不怪你，只能說這個世界太複雜了。
@蕭敬騰:你的心比世界複雜～這世界最複雜的就是人的思想人的心....

我：我觉得……敬腾这个叫大智若愚。年纪轻轻的他说不定才能把世界看得比较清楚……

ticket

me and my big mouth... the red light ticket is here... :((((((

thyroid, red lights and cats

1) Am hypothyroid now. The fast fluctuating hormone levels are giving me hell.. been having severe migraines for almost every day for the past week. Never knew migraines can get so bad... Chun, how did you live with it for so many years?

I definitely don't appreciate the body aches and extreme fatigue too... hope levels go up to normal soon... been reading up on levothyroxine, replacement hormones used to treat hypothyroid conditions... am not very happy with what I am reading... starting to wonder if it was a good decision to go with radioactive iodine afterall... nothing can be done now though... need to make sure I monitor my condition carefully. The internet is a powerful tool in this aspect. I'm also thankful that I am educated enough to make comparatively educated decisions on my condition.

2) The red light ticket that was supposed to come because of the 17th June incident did not come. I hope it gets stuck in the mail and lost in the records forever.

3) Been reading "Making rounds with Oscar" (http://www.amazon.com/Making-Rounds-Oscar-Extraordinary-ebook/dp/B0034EJL72) The book is amazing... I actually think I will enjoy it in English more than in Chinese though... (bought the chinese translated version in Shanghai).

Criticism

In Asia, I often feel that we are to a great extend Enosiophobic or Enissophobic (Fear of having committed an unpardonable sin or of criticism).

Whenever I voice my views on how something is not good, some one will definitely come to me and say: let's be nicer to people, they have their reasons for doing so, we don't have to criticise them, we don't understand their situation. More than often, while the act or situation is "understandable", it is well... just not RIGHT. There's still a problem that exist in the situation. However, because it's understandable, the situation should be tolerated and one should not criticise about it.

When we're young, we're told, often by adults, to never criticise other people, because it's not a nice thing to do, or because it upsets the "peace" that exist. However, in school, we're also asked to do "critiques". In critiques, we well... criticise. Of course not without basis, but with logic and facts. The skill of doing a good critique, is to look at the situation from an objective point of view and to make a fair and honest evaluation of it. Your personal values and beliefs will definitely shape how your critique ends up. It really doesn't matter which side you take in a critique, or whether you take sides at all... it's about putting the topic up there and making a good discussion about it so that everyone involved can have a good clear overview of all points of view to make their own decisions.

Criticism against ourselves can be perceived in two ways. The ideal situation will is for us to take it as a good suggestion and make necessary changes. Sometimes, things take a turn and people get upset about being criticised. To think about it... criticism can also be made in two ways. One is to only criticise without true basis with the intentions to hurt. The other, is to criticise because you care and hope that changes can be made. And well... both ways of criticism can be percieved both ways! At the end of the day... it's how we look at it.

But ok... let's now look at the importance of criticism. I personally am a believer that good criticism is benefitial. The Asian classroom is often a one way delivery system where the teacher teaches and the students sit at their seats and take up all they hear like a sponge. One fine day, the teacher decides he needs to hear what the student thinks and asks: any comments? The silence that follows is often deafening. So, are the students too afraid to say something? Well... maybe not... they just have not thought about it enough to say anything, let alone criticise. To criticise is a skill. You need to be trained to do it: to be able to take in a situation, analyse it, process it with your own knowledge and beliefs, then make a decision on whether you like it or not and most importantly, know why you made that decision to voice it out as a criticism. It's a really complex process! AND... the Asian society discourage it! Why? Because we don't want to disturb the "peace".

Indeed, voicing out criticism will lead to people reacting both ways. Hence, it's almost unavoidable that the peace is disturbed. But honestly, who says that's a bad thing? Why should we put total trust and obedience to superiors for example? Why can't we question? I believe that to human being's ability to question and challenge is the key to progress. So if we all refrain from criticism to maintain peace... nothing is going to get anywhere.

Yet another observation... When I was in Japan... people are often just too worried to voice their views to disturb the "peace". So... can tolerance get them anywhere? Actually... it doesn't. They just bottle it up and make their unhappiness grow. Then they go to a dinner party with some close friends, drink a lot, and voice it all out! Without confronting the source of the problem. The next day, the go backto work with a hang over and well... face the same problems that they just got drunk over the night before all over again.

So... what do YOU think?

开心就好

是不是随着年龄的增长，
人就会越来越没志气呢？
小时候拥有过的伟大梦想，
在长大后慢慢变成一段有趣的回忆。
是因为越来越认识事实的残酷，
所以决定放弃呢？
还是发现其实简单的幸福才是自己真正需要的？
冬天里的那杯热可可，
艳阳下的那杯冰水，
伤心时的那个拥抱，
生日时朋友捎来的那封短信，那句祝福。
看起来都是微不足道的小东西，
可是对于毫无雄心壮志的我，
却是比得到全世界都还要幸福的事情。

Last day of being 24...

Think I got caught on camera for speeding through a red light... (= =)

Takayama

It's amazing how a trip to Takayama can make me so at peace with myself. Maybe the place is magical, but at least for now, I feel happier and energized to go on~ (wonder when's my next holiday to T-town...)

孤立自己

由于来自火星，
因此决定自我孤立。
为了宇宙和平着想。
为了不让自己被讨厌。

alone

I know I have mentioned this numerous time in my blog; I have also told many people this... But it's still depressing to come to terms with it again.

To come to terms with the fact that no one in this world will stay for anyone else; to the fact that at the end of the day, the only person we can rely on to accompany us is ourselves. While we may have people whom we meet along the way, who might go with us on part of the journey, the journey of life has to be walked alone. To become over-reliant on the company and support of other people will only lead to feelings of lost when the said company disappears.

Summer眼中的萧敬腾

在网上看到这篇文章。
记得很久以前看过，3年了，他变得自信了~
看他在facebook上留照片谢谢大家，
看他在演唱会上很真诚地说着感谢词。
其实他还是以前的他。

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他说他现在很空，可以签很多张。

可是敬腾说330张太少了，会不够卖。

嫌累？他说他要涂鸦1999个，图案都要不一样。他现在在试画。开心的很

我不发表对改版专辑的意见
大家对改版专辑都可以有自己的想法
我觉得正反意见都很有理由，都有相当棒的考量立场

但看完这篇文章我眼中微微地泛泪

Summer说:敬腾很害怕短暂。

看起来少了不知道几根神经的浩呆21岁小子，最害怕的事情是短暂

从小他几乎没有什麼事情是很顺遂的
花了好多力气才说服家里让他去碰乐器
反覆地练习、自修才有现在的功力
参加了歌唱比赛爆红，唱片公司自动捧著合约找上门来
却又要再多等半年......

虽然多等了半年，但成绩是好的
这样的好运来得很快很快
我想他心里其实很没安全感
害怕来得这样快、这样简单的幸运，会不会一下子就又突然失去

他最害怕短暂，但他所处的行业却是一个最讲运气、最容易昙花一现的地方
什麼时候老天要把运势从你手中拿走，没有人知道......

所以他很乐於工作
只要他有时间、他能做的他都一定配合
所以他很感谢歌迷
只要歌迷出现的地方，他就感觉安心
只要是歌迷送的东西，一定一样一样珍藏起来
一样一样拿出来用

害怕短暂，害怕不知道什麼时候不红
所以他什麼都接受，什麼都甘之如饴
在台上唱著歌时，看起来那麼有自信的他
其实是一个很需要实质鼓励的孩子......

公司没有告诉他实质销售量
但是看露天拍卖几次下来都抢光光
创下了一堆"萧敬腾障碍"，至少他从这里知道
自己是有点成绩的
从销售一空的记录上可以知道
"萧敬腾"三个字，似乎有那麼一点红喔~~

大家怕他休息时间不够
他只想到这段时间空下来了，可以签很多CD
之前First Live改版专辑，总共1998张都还卖不够
所以这次一开始他直接讲3030张
想法就跟在媒体上、广播节目上大声讲说"我要卖一百万张"一样直接
大家怕他手酸、会累
他只想到画1999个完全不一样的涂鸦很好玩

每个歌迷拚命叫他多休息一点、行程少一点、时间空一点
我敢打赌，他那个逻辑单纯的脑子里
搞不好只有"没工作=不红"这个等式
这样单纯的人，现在真的好少好少
我很心疼他，也很心疼这样心疼著他的萧帮们

从去年一路不离不弃，我们共同付出了好多努力才有今天
萧帮们有一种很特殊的氛围
有一种刀子嘴豆腐心的特质
有一种因为心疼敬腾所以对他掏心掏肺付出一切的毅力
有一种因为心疼敬腾所以不惜一切也想要保护他的坚持
而这样的毅力、这样的坚持之所以能够持续
还不就是为了这份可以轻易说出"我很空，可以签很多张"的纯粹和用心吗?

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這個騷包小孩每天都穿不同的鞋子 都很好看
當天那雙尤其特別，左右二腳不同的拼花

我忍不住說: "這雙鞋真好看"

Boss: "不錯，不過我這雙比較優，這是PXXX今年新款…"

我打斷他: "你那是老人鞋，敬騰不會喜歡…"

敬騰看著Boss: "老人鞋…(傻笑)


我們腳好像差不多大，你試試看我這雙…"


在電梯裡當場就把鞋脫下來

Boss的臉大概有1秒鐘的錯愕不知如何是好
然後就看到一個中年男子在電梯裡
手忙腳亂的脫鞋穿鞋

因為伸起一隻腳換鞋，身體隨著電梯晃動差點跌倒…

為了回報一個沒有心眼的孩子的熱情，Boss套上他的鞋
(我們這年紀的人，總覺得穿人家鞋子有點沒禮貌)

好死不死電梯到了，就看這二個很MAN的老男人和小男人
搖搖晃晃的單腳跳出電梯…

敬騰離開後，我跟Boss說:


"這個孩子真的需要一個非常非常非常會保護他的經紀人…

http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4de2edd40100avy9.html

小罗罗的生存空间

只能在夹缝中生存的日子还要多久呢？
有点快撑不住了的感觉。
每天睡觉都希望起来的时候，
现在的一切都只是一场很长的噩梦。
当醒来后发现一些都还没改变，
就继续逃避，
希望明天醒来的时候一切果然是一场噩梦。

有时候觉得人生不要那么执著，
其实很多所谓的烦恼就会消失。
有记者问敬腾：你的烦恼是什么？
敬腾停顿了3秒，然后说：我要好好地想一想。
记者说敬腾觉得可以解决的都不是烦恼。
不可以解决的，烦恼了也没用。
所以，他没有烦恼。
这样豁达的想法，由一个23岁的小子说了出来。
也许真的不用想太多，尽力做就好了。

唉

3 years without Starlight

We miss you dear.

病了

是我们生病了，还是这个世界变了样？
在忙忙碌碌的生活中，大家追求的是什么？
是名，还是利？
也许，只是简单的，却又不怎么简单的：更好的生活吧……

其实大家都知道很多东西都不是我们需要的。
但是潜意识里我们又不免去追求这些。
随着日子一天一天过去，
忙碌了一辈子，
到头来却发现自己其实一直在扑空。
这时候人们又懊恼，又不开心。
但是双脚已经走得太远，
已经不知道要怎么回头了。
或者说，回头了，也不知道要怎么生活。
因为现在这路，带有幻想，带有理想，带有梦想。
当一切归零，人们就彷徨了。
要重新一步一脚印的，很真实的，很朴实的生活，
其实说起来比做起来容易得多了。

明知道不对的路，人们却因为它富丽堂皇，
因为它光鲜亮丽，
而成群成堆的往这方向走。
到头来，又有多少人发现这一切只是海市蜃楼呢？

Jam Hsiao

I thought he sounds just like he does in the CD when he sings live, but I was wrong. He's BETTER than his CDs. Now, I am not satisfied just listening to his CD. Give me more LIVE Jam Hsiao!!

Voids

There's too much voids in my life, but not enough time to fill them up. As a result, my life is an empty crust that looks pretty only to the people who don't know better. Looking around, it seems like their lives too are hollow and the emptiness is making them unhappy.

這麽好的男人，爲什麽你不要？

也許因爲種種原因吧，
但是看著他上康熙時唱這首歌的感覺，
還是被感動了。



無盡透明的思念
曲：庾澄慶 詞：嚴雲農

窗外飄著晚了一點開的花香
仰望看著太早出現的蒼白月亮
不管緩慢還是匆忙 世界都一樣
用安靜的口吻說著無常

每當聽見時鐘滴答不停往前走
忽然發現熟悉街景又換了臉龐
愛被時間化上新妝 模糊了模樣
想起你時有風輕輕揚
把你吹向更遠的地方

那是無盡透明的思念
輕薄像空氣滲透進我的心
每次呼吸也許都是歎息
卻更像在呼喚你OH BABY

那是無盡透明的思念
清澈像河流讓人情願沉溺
也許我的愛也早已透明
所以你總想不起我愛你

跟上同年龄的人的脚步

不知不觉地已经离“小孩子”的阶段越来越远了。
身边的朋友已经有了稳定的工作，
稳定的伴侣，
有的要结婚了，
有的已经结婚了。
最近听到一个朋友去参加了联谊活动。
原因是因为她妈妈觉得她“长相比较吃亏”，
应该积极点找个好的归宿。
跟自己的妈妈说了这个情况，
妈妈说：“还那么年轻，为什么要这么做”。
很庆幸自己没有被“催婚”的压力，
但是身边的一切也悄悄地在我心中拉起了警报。

成长，成家，立业……
这些都好像是人生一定要经过的里程碑，
可是我好像……一个都没达到。
今年都25了，
还在读书，
还在懵懂，
还在寻找自己想要的，
心……还在渴望飞翔。

有的朋友很羡慕我的自由，
有的朋友说老了一个人会很可怜。

怎么说呢……
心里头某种不安分子不愿意庸庸碌碌地度过人生。
跌跌撞撞也好，
和世界背道而行也好，
想要走出自己的路。
想要以后没有遗憾。
当然，得到了就要有失去。
失去所谓的“平凡的幸福”。
这些所谓的平凡的幸福，
我也渴望的……
但是人可能真的不能太贪心吧~

Remembering you~

I remember how proud a cat you are, catwalking with your tail up high as you petrol your territory. You're the king of your kingdom.

I remember how you like to sleep with with your head upside down. Is the world prettier the other way or does seeing the world from another perspective give you new insights to life?

I remember how you like chicken rice especially from Pow Sing. You're always the first member of the family to sit at the dinner table.

I remember how you rotate your sleeping place every once in a while. Every where in the house has memories of you.

I remember how you used to sleep beside me when I sleep on the sofa at the living room. Waking up to see you beside me is surprizingly soothing. The hussle and bussle of the world never seems to bother you.

I remember how you kept me company through the late nights when I had to study for my major examinations. The silence of the night is more bearable even though you just sleep quietly beside my legs.

I remember your big eyes that looks longingly at me. Those signals to feed you can never be missed.

I remember how you clinge onto the side of the water backet when the maid bathes you. Do you know how cute you look? You probably don't because you're all busy remembering how much we offended you so you can pay it back to us later.

I remember how you sit on my foot and look away to show your protest. My dear kitty, your dung smells really bad and I really appreciate it if you don't put your butt on my foot. ><

I remember how you like to sleep in plastic bags. It's amazing how a small plastic bag can make you so excited. It's also very tiring to be looking out all the time to stop you from jumping into my luggage.

I remember when we bought you, how tiny you were and how naughty you were. It's amazing how big and strong you grew over the years.

I remember how you used to catch all the small animals and show them to us. Honestly, I really don't take much interest in looking at half dead lizard or birds, but looking at your ernest face, I know you meant it as a throphy to show us how capable you are. We always know you are capable.

I remember how we used to have to squeeze you down from the dining chair so you don't fight with us for food.

I remember how you used to tap us to make us feed you. Human food is really not for you my darling... I don't kinow how you develop that appetite for human cooked food.

I remember how you used to sleep under the palm tree in the garden and disappear into the drains in the afternoon. You really gave us a shock initially. But we eventually know that a cat smart as you will always be able to find your way home.

I remember how you never meow EVER. The only way to get you to meow is to lock you up in your cage. When that happens, you will look at us with those big shiny eyes of yours and let out a small meow.

There's so many little snippets of memories of you... afterall.. you are my best pal and most valued company throughout my growing up years.

Remembering you lovingly~

Dear Magic,

You've been a great pal and a wonderful company.
Thank you for being there all these years,
for bringing us numerous laughters and joy.

Enjoy yourself in heaven till the day we meet again.