剛剛看到msn上有人的名字說：在大自然裏，自私的是勝者。
人不為己，天誅地滅，大概就是這個意思吧。
最近的我，一直覺得人家自私。
一直像個任性的孩子，希望別人能聼我的心聲，關心我，疼我，寵我。
也很奇怪地總是覺得嫉妒，不安和惶恐。
是因爲最近生活太忙碌的關係嗎？心裏縂覺得不太踏實……
雖然說大自然界裏，自私的是勝者，
但是我還是希望自己能不要那麽好勝，不要那麽自我。
把自己的東西做好，問心無愧最重要。
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Just for the sake of updating this blog
There are some people who will probably never get the url to this blog and some who will get it soon after knowing me...
I can't say precisely what is the determining factor for this, it's just a gut feeling. If I feel at ease with the person, the person will get this address. Afterall, this is a lock to my mind and the person within me. I don't lie, so whatever I say is gonna be the truth. Else I won't say it at all.
Just thought I should update this blog a little... been really busy with my final year project and am currently taking a short 2 days break from the lab to recuperate and get back to track. Life's been pretty monotonous really... it's just: wake up, go school, lab, lunch with xiangyun and ming, lab, home, msn, sleep and the cycle starts again the next day. I seldom have weekends off either. Having spent at least a saturday or a sunday in the lab every week.
I cannot say that I totally enjoy this lifestyle... I just keep going. I remember Pamsy mentioning that I am too responsible. I think this is one of those responsibilities. If I have to do something, I will wanna do it with the best of my abilities. If I can give 120%, I won't just give 90%. It's sometimes not a matter of whether I like it or not, I just feel that I have to do it.
Thinking back... what are the things in my life that I really like and really want? Learning Japanese is something... wanting to do medicine was another... Most of the time, I just look at what's in my plate and choose one of the options. There's hardly anything that I want so badly and will really work for it. Of course, this may also mean that there's hardly anything that I can't do without. Is that because I have always had what I ever need in my life? So I don't know what I want? If that's so... I guess I should consider myself a lucky person.
But honestly, to not know what you want in life?? That's pretty clueless. = =
I can't say precisely what is the determining factor for this, it's just a gut feeling. If I feel at ease with the person, the person will get this address. Afterall, this is a lock to my mind and the person within me. I don't lie, so whatever I say is gonna be the truth. Else I won't say it at all.
Just thought I should update this blog a little... been really busy with my final year project and am currently taking a short 2 days break from the lab to recuperate and get back to track. Life's been pretty monotonous really... it's just: wake up, go school, lab, lunch with xiangyun and ming, lab, home, msn, sleep and the cycle starts again the next day. I seldom have weekends off either. Having spent at least a saturday or a sunday in the lab every week.
I cannot say that I totally enjoy this lifestyle... I just keep going. I remember Pamsy mentioning that I am too responsible. I think this is one of those responsibilities. If I have to do something, I will wanna do it with the best of my abilities. If I can give 120%, I won't just give 90%. It's sometimes not a matter of whether I like it or not, I just feel that I have to do it.
Thinking back... what are the things in my life that I really like and really want? Learning Japanese is something... wanting to do medicine was another... Most of the time, I just look at what's in my plate and choose one of the options. There's hardly anything that I want so badly and will really work for it. Of course, this may also mean that there's hardly anything that I can't do without. Is that because I have always had what I ever need in my life? So I don't know what I want? If that's so... I guess I should consider myself a lucky person.
But honestly, to not know what you want in life?? That's pretty clueless. = =
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