There are some people who will probably never get the url to this blog and some who will get it soon after knowing me...
I can't say precisely what is the determining factor for this, it's just a gut feeling. If I feel at ease with the person, the person will get this address. Afterall, this is a lock to my mind and the person within me. I don't lie, so whatever I say is gonna be the truth. Else I won't say it at all.
Just thought I should update this blog a little... been really busy with my final year project and am currently taking a short 2 days break from the lab to recuperate and get back to track. Life's been pretty monotonous really... it's just: wake up, go school, lab, lunch with xiangyun and ming, lab, home, msn, sleep and the cycle starts again the next day. I seldom have weekends off either. Having spent at least a saturday or a sunday in the lab every week.
I cannot say that I totally enjoy this lifestyle... I just keep going. I remember Pamsy mentioning that I am too responsible. I think this is one of those responsibilities. If I have to do something, I will wanna do it with the best of my abilities. If I can give 120%, I won't just give 90%. It's sometimes not a matter of whether I like it or not, I just feel that I have to do it.
Thinking back... what are the things in my life that I really like and really want? Learning Japanese is something... wanting to do medicine was another... Most of the time, I just look at what's in my plate and choose one of the options. There's hardly anything that I want so badly and will really work for it. Of course, this may also mean that there's hardly anything that I can't do without. Is that because I have always had what I ever need in my life? So I don't know what I want? If that's so... I guess I should consider myself a lucky person.
But honestly, to not know what you want in life?? That's pretty clueless. = =
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