dear readers... I'M BACK~!!!!!!!

some things that happened....

1) it snowed in London yesterday (BEAUTIFUL!)
2) the legolas poster for pam turned out to be aragon... (-_-'') - they labeled it as Legolas with the no. index!!!! darn.
3) watching MIJ concert now.... that's why this entry is so nip short.
4) Clare... I'll need to meet you to pass you this little figurine of Ronaldo from Old Trafford. wasn't allowed to go into the grounds.... so was only stucked at the gift shop at old trafford.
5) didn't really have time to visit London - too short!!
6) I kinda want to go France and Italy with Dianna and Suhyueh...
7) Will load the photos as soon as possible. - damn pretty!!
8) like Edinburgh the best of all four places I went to. - definately worth going.

write more tmr... till then. MUAKLES ALL!!!!

hey pple!! At my uncle's place now... so it's not good to use the net for too long... missed you pple... tmr I'm going home.
first things first... to min: thanks dear!! haha.,.. my DAD went into the shops to get it for me the moment he saw it on the tv!! hahahahaha... never knew he was so supportive of my Takuya madness! *grinz* to all the others... miss you pple lots... but actually, I was thinking of getting on an airplane with two frens (from RJ) I met on the streets of London (tell you more when I get home) to fly to Italy and France!! It was like spontanous... so they are flying off to France and Italy in a weeks time while I'll be back in Singapore!! Reason being.... I've got so MUCH luggage!! and... here's an attachment at IBN I've got to answer to... so, I'll see you pple in two days time!! till then, TAKE CARE!! *muakles*

Pam!! you missed me??? muahahhahahaha aren't you supposed to be glad that Pris is not home to fight with you over the internet access? wait... or are you missing the Legolas poster that I have with me??? haha... miss ya too(?!) *shivers down the spine due to how mushy this is getting*

Clare, joyce and yiling!! miss you pple... am enjoying myself quite alot here in UK... Edinburgh's a BEAUTIFUL city... am in an internet cafe at the moment at the rates of £1 per twenty min!! what was I doing at 10 pence per min in the middle of the street freezing cold due to the horrendously cutting wind???!!!! went to the edinburgh castle yest.... It was really pretty, but man!! the wind was STRONG!!bleah.... paid 9.50 pounds to get frozen... haha... but it was wonderful. OH! and pple,dun get jealous...I wentto the cafe in Edinburgh where JK Rowling wrote HP!! there's two here in Edinburgh, one called The Elephant (which I went to) and the other, Elephant and Bagels (which I decided that I'm too lazy to walk to - ok.... I admit... I KINDA got lost...) decided to go to the castle after looking at the cafe... so... (^-^)

waiting formy train to Manchester now... it's due at 11.50 am.... now being 10.30means I've got quite some time to spare... ok.... look forward to my updates!(if I manage to find anymore internet cafeson my way and IF I dun get too broke... things are EXPANSIVE here!!) bought sushi from Marks and Spencers to eat on the train because I really MISS chinese food (ok, sushi is Jap...but it's near lar...)... been eating cold dinners these two days because the shops dun sell hot food after 4pm!!! (or did I go to the wrong stores??? bleah) okok.... time to do some Takuya surfing... I miss him!! hahahahhaha

hey people!!!!!! in edinburgh now... just finished a tour of the university of edinburgh and i tell you... the place is FANTASTIC!!!! the place is pretty, the weather is pretty (cold, but pretty) and the people are GREAT!! they are just so helpful! UK so far has been great, I am now on george street in Edinburgh in a little telephone booth like thng that provides internet access at 10 pence per min, freezing, but I miss the net like crazy!!!! How;s life there in Singapore?

btw, there's a rugby final of england vsscotland tonight in Edinburgh and there's so many pple on the streets wearing scottish quilts (that skirt thing, is it called quilts?) anyway, it's great!!!! haha, lac of vocab from me... anyway, the interview's ok... the pple at glasgow were exceptionally nice, but I think I screwed up some questions.... whatever

ok, gtg, you pple take care yar?? took lotsa photos to show you when I get back!! *muaks*

Thank yiling! (^-^) have fun at Melbourne!

leaving Singapore in less than 10 hours time to UK... feeling that uneasiness... panic is slightly more than excitment, I am afterall a hermit more than an adventurer, but yeah... think things will be fine, two weeks is not really that long to think about it... and I'll be spending a large proportion of time in London in my relative's place. Have my schedule up at the column there if you pple think of me, you'll at least know where I am! (^-^) haha *ego* dun miss me too much!! muahahahahaha

I'll be bring my HP with me... so you can sms me (it's free to recieve ^^) but... erm... dun call me yarz? and my replies may not come as far as necessary (sending sms costs money). till I come back in two weeks' time, Take care pple! and God Bless!

p/s: to Shuyan dear... carn find you online... so I'm leaving you a message here. Take care kae? Melbourne will be a new advanture, but I know you'll be able to do just fine. Enjoy uni life, dun think too much, dun worry. Open your heart to pple the way you open your heart in S'pore... even if it's probably for that five years... friends never really part (like you and me!) , make close friends in Melbourne too okie? Dun think too much about where is your home... as the saying goes, chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi, just take things as they come. I know you are tired, but as you always say... God must have planned something for you in taking you through this. Stay strong and FIGHT yarz? Take super care of yourself and remember, I am always a phone call away... and well... most of the time, online too! *wink*

to Cynthia dear, this is early, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!, sweet nineteen, enjoy it to the fullest yarz? (^-^)

to Clare dear, I do hope that I have some time to see Manchester!! I'll look out for Brown yarz? who's the other guy? (>.<)

I was Born to Love You

Artist: Queen
Words and music by Freddie Mercury

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day...

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

You are the one for me
I am the man for you
You were made for me
you're my ecstasy
If I was give every opportunity
I'd kill for your love

So take a chance with me
Let me romance with you
I'm caught in a dream
And my dream's come true
It's so hard to believe
This is happening to me
An amazing feeling
Comin' through -

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

I wanna love you
I love every little thing about you
I wanna love you, love you, love you
Born - to love you
Born - to love you
Yes I was born to love you
Born - to love you
Born - to love you
Every single day - of my life

An amazing feeling
Comin' through

I was born to love you
With every single beat of my heart
Yes, I was born to take care of you
Every single day of my life

Yes I was born to love you
Every single day of my life

Go, I love you babe
Yes, I was born to love you
I wanna love you , love you, love you
I wanna love you
I get so lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely
Yeah, I want to love you
Yeah, give it to me

A lovely song for the festival of Love. haha.... this is the title song for Takuya's newest drama, "Pride".

hey pple!!!!!! HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY!!!!!!!! love ya pple! *wink* thanks for being readers of this boring blog of mine.

attached to cardiac department at NUH today (fri).... why am I so tired even though I was just observing? but it was 'damn' interesting.... shall say more tmr when I'm more energetic....

*slip into coma* ZZzzz...

*hugsy* nat!!!!!! (^-^)

hey pple... I'm fine!! haha... not ready to get into a relationship either with so many things going on... so, dun worry okie? Valentines' a day for your friends too! ^^ and I think I'm really lucky to have so many friends who are not only on the "hihi" terms but instead on the terms where we can talk heart to heart. Love ya pple! (you know who you are uh? ^^)

gonna go for attachment at NUH from tmr (two days to mon).... and I'm leaving for UK on tues morn... better start packing. busy!!!!!!!!!! (>.<) haven't prepared for my interviews either!!! argh....

oh... btw... been watching a taiwanese drama called "the rose" (qiang2 wei1 zhi1 lian4) on channel 49. VERY nice! and guess what I found out?! Ella from S.H.E has the same b'dae as me! (18 June btw) she's 4 years older though... and the other male lead in the show who acted as kui2 (sunflower), Zheng Yuan Chang's b'dae is one day later (19 june)

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not that it matters to anyone of you huh??? but Geminis RULEZ!!!!!! haha... we have a big ego in case you dun know... muahahahahhaha (I can see the (-_-''') faces)

Shuyan said that yiling and herself are surprise by the last entry.... haha... I'm a girl okie.... oso want support mahz..... nice to have someone to lean on, tired of always being the support to others...

nah.... guess it's because of so many things happening these days.... going UK alone.... new crossroad in life... decisions to make.... haha.... whatever

ramblings part two - dun bother

sometimes I think..... I've always felt that I wanna work in the future... wanna support myself in the future.... but is there a part of me in desire for love? in desire for support?

shuyan's dream is to be a tai tai with two kids and two dogs... is that probably my inner desire too? I know I hate to rely on someone... but why am I thinking that I might want that too? am I too lazy... to tired to pursue a career? just wanna lay back and enjoy life? I wanna go travelling... see the world, live life like I dun need to bother about anything and do whatever I like... wishful thinking that is... there's always a money factor... I dun wanna grow up... i dun wanna go into the working world... I wanna remain under the protection of my parents... selfish thoughts that shldn't even be harboured.

what am I driving at? haha I dunno... maybe because valentine's on the way... maybe I'm watching too many love dramas... a part of the heart is in need for some warm mist to blow into... Happy Valentines' Day.

note: random ramblings, don't bother to read if you dun want a headache

been busy with UK trip nowadays.... but at the end of the day, I don't know what I am doing.

where am I heading? where's my direction? applied for medicine, biomed engineering and pharmacology... but is research and med really what i want? I've always put these considerations back.... not want to think about it.... thinking about it gives me the headaches... I know what I dun want... but what do I want? I cannot tell.... do I wanna be a doctor because I really wanna make that positive influence on others? well... that'll be good.... but I am not really SO... noble, can I tolerate all the emotional burben as a doctor? can I put my patients above myself? I dunno... at the end of the day... is there a career out there that's for me and I just dunno? have my horizons been too narrow that I have failed to consider all other career options? did i choose the sciences because I am a science student? because all the pple around me are gonna pursue professional careers?

guess there's always a desire in me to be a performer... to do drama, the arts... to design things, make things... but my practicality has told me that if I want to lead a 'stable' lifestyle... that's not the route to pursue... is my pride for having studied so many years, working hard so many years, pulling me back to try out things that I've not tried before? things that have no established success path?

what about being a journalist? (chinese) a translator? a diplomat? an artitect? a designer? a cook? (ok... cook's out... I hate cooking..) a pastry chef? what about the unconventional? I have always chucked these options aside because of my pride, my beliefs, my narrow-mindedness... but is there another world out there that's for me? have I been trying to mold myself to fit the society's expectation?

time's running out... I'm about to make my first career choice... yes, things may change eventually, but I still wanna make sure that this choice that I make in a few month's time is a well-informed one... I choose this option because this is what I think is best, that I want most at the time of decision...

on thing that I fear most in life is regrets... that's why I live life to avoid it... I want to make sure that I look at all the options I have at that time of making the decision so that I will not regret after that... no matter the outcome is good or bad... ask me if I am any regrets... I'll tell you I dun think so... I want to continue leading this life like that. good or bad.

time for some Takuya madness pple!!!!!!! muah hahahahaha

reading the summary of Takuya's new drama, Pride from Groundbreaker and am SO amazed by the absolutely BHB, self-confident Halu (Takuya's character). Prepare yourself a plastic bag to puke into!!!!!! hahahahaha

Quote from Groundbreaker: "As they position themselves to face off (start the game) the other team's captain sneers at all the "noisy females" but Halu tells him "All girls are flowers, and therefore are concerned with weather. That's why they look to the sun-- in other words, to me.""

(-_-''')

"Halu is being interviewed by the TV crew. Asked if he has a "significant other", he draws Aki to him and calls everyone to attention. "Let me introduce to you my -- Mum!" he declares and everyone but Aki bursts into laughter."

Aki is Takeuchi Yuko (the girl in My son-in-law with Nagase Tomoya if anyone knows this show...) and Aki and Halu had agreed upon a "for-fun" relationship with each other because Halu's determined to not get involved with someone while he's a pro-ice hockey player and Aki's waiting for her bf in US to return. honestly, although they are not in for a serious relation.... as a girl... I'll be boiling MAD if someone calls me like that...

"It's just that-- I don't like dabblers and shirkers. Those who don't aim for the top disgust me. 'I'm happy to be myself' is an excuse for those who don't try. And those kind of people always envy the one the top. Griping, moaning, without ever having really tried, smoking, drinking... Giving up somewhere half between. They make me sick...
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Aki asks "What about Makoto-kun?" "We don't need him." "But not everyone can be No.1!""Of course not, but what I want to say is that they shouldn't give up trying. 'I'm good enough as I am' is something, only those who've pushed themselves to the limit can say at the end. Those people can properly respect the one at the top, because they know how tough it must have been."

some accuses Takuya of going against the "sekai ni hitotsu dake no hana" spirit of "it's ok not to be no. 1, be the special only one"... but then... what Halu said is something that I agree... One shld always aim to be best... the spirit of aiming for it and working for it is what that's impt.

people... (clears voice) I got 1430 for my SAT!!!! (SAT one)

it's amazing how I can jump all about and get SO... happy about it when my classmates get 1500 and above for their first attempt and me a mere 1430 for my THIRD attempt. haha... but heck, I'm happy.

Happy Birthday Mitsuki!!!

I believe this day is more important to Takuya than his own birthday. Today's Mitsuki, Takuya's second daughter's 1st b'dae. Happy birthday dear girl, may you grow up to be a fine lady.

updates on my life:
found accommodations for glasgow and edinburgh.
finding accommodations in Manchester.
gonna stay in uncle's house in London.
Imperial's professor Dr. Barahona is SUPER nice and really helpful.
gonna start attachment at IBN (Institute of bioengineering and nanotechnology) in March.

to all readers of this blog:
there seems to be quite alot of you judging from my counter, anyway, sorry for the dry and short entries, take care and look forward to the day when I can give a proper entry... not in a month I guess...

screwed up my online ticket ordering for my UK trip.... die

sorry pple.... my entries are getting from short to shorter and now.... it's a line... been really busy with my UK things, so there's really not much time (neither am I in the mood to) blog. till I get all those sickening tickets order, bear with the one line snippets of my life yarz?

I can never understand what Pam gets from being so sacrastic to me... she's been on perpetual bad-mood for a year to count...

anyway... now looking up on info regarding my UK trip... and reading up a little on IBN where I'm going for an interview tmr... eh...... dun understand. looks like I'm in for a bad time tmr...