Japan stint

A part of me really really wants to go... not for the money, not exactly because it's JAPAN, but I think really for the experience of living alone, working in a foreign land and all. I know the opportunity cost is high... but for this once, I really feel like just following my heart and giving it a go... IF I get it that is.

almost a year

Celebrated XY's birthday today in school with Ming and XL and Zinc...
A year ago, Starlight was with us at pasta cafe @ taka to celebrate XY's birthday. The last day of school before the mid-term break last year (it's mid-term break now), I messaged her to tell her that she can talk to me if she needs anyone. One month later, she left us for a better place...

Things started to take a spiral downwards around this time last year... however I was too slow, to self-involved to notice. Am I a better person now who cares more for my friends and the people around me? Unfortunately, I think I have became more involved in myself... Hope you're happy in the skies and we still love you dearly.

stressed

Been acting weirdly recently... or rather, I will say that I am finally showing my true colours. (That I think has been well hidden for some years.)

This side of me comes up when I am stressed: Anti-social and easily irritated.

Sometimes I hope some people will just simply leave me alone... don't ask me how I am or try to be concerned about me. (especially when I know you're not truly concerned but are simply "trying to be nice" or worse, being "KAY-POH")

You can't solve my problems, so, WHY ASK?!

And or others, please don't expect me to be nice as I normally may seem to be. My patience gets grinded to ZERO when I am stressed. At times like this, I am usually not interested in playing PR by sounding, or appearing nice.
I get PISSED when I know that I am expected to say something nice and understanding. This is because deep down in my heart, I just feel annoyed and troubled.

When I am a hedgehog, unless I look for you on my own accord.... my advice is: leave me ALONE.

I wonder how many people actually reads my blog... maybe the fact is... I don't have any readers at all.

I am not a tree

Even though I may seem strong; and maybe I am strong, that does not mean that I won't collapse. I have my weaknesses and I appreciate support too. It's pretty tiring to act as a supporting pillar to so many situations so many times.
And some times... when I need that pillar of support... I don't seem to be able to find it. That's probably because I have learnt not to rely on anything but myself over the years. May sound lofty, but actually, it's a pretty lonely situation.

生命的意义

恶作剧2吻里，
直树医生说了一句很值得参考的话：“生命的价值不在於形式，而在於我们做了什麽”
我们以前的副校长很喜欢说：我们的人生重要的不是它的长度，而是它的广度。
活到这个年纪，除了制造二氧化碳，
我到底为这个世界做了什么呢？
我生命中剩下的日子里又能为社会，为世界作什么呢？
新的一年……就希望自己能多为别人着想，多为社会贡献吧。