I am PISSED.

Can you imagine being down with a bad flu, having bad headaches, gotten a MC from the doctor and being left with almost no choice but to go for a mind-boggling programming lab session? That's what happened to your truly over here.

The week's tests have taken it's toll on me and yes, I got sick. Wait! I still am sick! darn. Went to see a doctor last night and got all the medicine and stuff... as well as an MC to certify that I am unfit for school. Then, remembering that I have programmming lab this week (ie: today), I emailed the lecturer to ask if I can do my lab next week with the even week groups, knowing that what I need most now is REST. (Programming labs happens on a bi-weekly basis and I happen to have my labs on odd weeks, so there's still gonna be one session next week.)

Okie... so, being worried, I emailed by tutor to ask if it's likely for them to grant permission for me to do the lab next week... he replied and said most likely. So, being more or less reassured, I went to bed hoping to get my rest.

This morn, I woke up still having my bad flu (that doesn't seem to have gotten any better from eating the medicine) and read my email to say: No, in order to be fair to students who cannot make it for next week's lab and hence, will not have another chance to make up for it, I am not allowed to do the lab next week. And as if to make me feel better, he told me that only three out of four labs are gonna be counted in the final score. BOOM!! I screwed up the last lab and cannot afford to screw up any more labs! This lab is SUPER important to me!! I packed my stuff... gave my mum a call and asked her to fetch me, in the blur state of battling with the flu virus, to school for the lab session.

Now, I am blur, VERY sick and VERY pissed. Thanks man~! GRRRRRRRRrrrrr...

Why on earth are they so darn inflexible? To start with, they have a HARD deadline for lab submissions: 1hr 45min from the time your lab session is supposed to start. Anything later than taht even by one second will not pass through (you submit everything with the computer). Think about those who arrive late for the lab and will probably finish the lab if given the full 1 hr 45 min. (-_-''') Now this. I mean... why not have a make-up session for all those who missed their labs maybe? I'm sure out of 1000 students, there will be some who have problems going to labs every week right???

And the best thing that made me pissed is: I dare not complain!! Why? Because I am a student and I need them to give me my results. I'm really starting to hate myself.

In case you're interested in knowing how I did for today's lab... what do you expect from a person who's half dead?! Praying that I did better than the last lab... but think I'm still gonna fail it... (-_-''') as long as it's better....

ting!! *runs over and gives ting a big tight hug* miss ya! I know you added me on msn... but I carn seem to catch you! day and night!! and with my tests these days.... haven't really been online for very long...

think I'm getting sick... been having a sore throat since yesterday and this morn... a runny nose's acting up too.... bleah. Tons of work to catch up with after realising that there's tutorials next week... and since all my darn tutorials fall on tuesday... I can go and drown myself in Singapore River. There's Genes and Soc quiz tmr, a programming lab part 1 assignment to submit by tues midnight, physics online assessment by wed midnight, programming test next sat, driving lessons on wed (and I promised myself to read the advance theory book again)... I need 72 hours a day without sleep!!!!!!!!!!

The tests have been okie or far... I think.. physics was the tougher one... I need more practice!!!! sigh.... I'm a mugger. sad life.

I'm supposed to be mugging for tmr's Electrical Engineering test... but guess what? It's almost a day since yesterday's Physics mid term test and my progress is still 0!!!!!!!!! I want my holidays... I want my mid term break!!... that is over officially from today. sad life... I want to breathe Orchard's air...

Ting left for Ireland last night...

wonder when will she be able to appear online again... starting to miss her already.

I must:

- stop slacking and start working
- come back to reality and live each day fully (Carpe diem!)
- practice programming or die for lab again
- aim to understand every lecture and not fall asleep at the endless monotonous drone
- stop using the internet excessively for honestly, not much purpose
- sleep enough and sleep early
- care for the people around me more and not get lost in the pursuit of 'knowledge'
- stop typing aimlessly at the blog and start doing some work

Just watched monday's SMAPXSMAP... woah... I didn't know SMAP's songs are actually very meaningful if you bother to listen to the lyrics...

don't mind me. (^-^)

君は君だよ
kimi wa kimi dayo
you are you
(I'll just do the translations, tell me if you want the romanji lyrics, use unicode to decode the jap words)

夕暮れを足早に歩いてく
I walked briskly in the evening sun
君の後ろ距離を とって 歩く
keeping a distance behind you as I walked
なぐさめるなって背中が 黙って言うから
all the consolation, I said to you from your back (ie:tell you softly facing your back)
僕も声には出さないで 話しかけてる
I also begin saying things that I I could not bring myself to voice out.
君は君だよ だから誰かの
you are you, therefore, for someone else's
望むように 生きなくていいよ
expectations, you don't have to live by (it okie for you to live without meeting other people's expectations)
君は君だよ いつも自分が
you are you, always for your own
やりたいこと まっすぐ見つめてなよ
things that you want, look straight for them (go work for the things that you want)


こなごなになるくらい 傷ついて
(till you) become hurt like being broken into pieces
ダメになる手前で 持ちこたえる
before you become totally unable to go on, you will achieve it
ホントにまだ たいして長く
really, not yet that long as compared
生きてないのにね
you didn't live (ie: you didn't live that long after all)
これでけっこういろいろと
with this, there's still quite a little of various
あるもんだよね
things yo~!
君は君だよ だから誰かの
you are you, so someone else's
真似なんかを しなくてもいいよ
mimic or look-alike you don't have to be
君は君だよ 心が決めた
you are you, your heart's decision
明日ならば それが本当だから
of tomorrow (the future you decided) is the true and real one

一人一人が 泣いて笑って
each individual person, cries and laugh
同じ時を 歩いているよ
as they walk ahead/walk forward
つきはなしたり 意地をはっても
be it without luck (unluckly), even if you are stubborn
わかりあえる そう信じてる
to be yourself and know yourself, believing in yourself
君は君だよ だから僕には
you are you, so for me,
かけがえない 一人なんだよ
you are one irreplacable person
君は君だよ 他の誰にもかわりなんか できやしないんだから
you are you, do not change yourself to be someone else
LaLaLaLaLaLaLa…LaLaLaLaLaLaLa…

copyright: Japanese lyrics from Uta-net
english translations by Puriko

hello~! A quick trip up here to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SMAP!!!!!!!!!!
Happy 13th Birthday!!!!! May you shine your brightness to the rest of the world soon!!!!

and... it was so nice to see Claris again!!!!!! *hugz* and I like your hair!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha I really do. (^-^)

sigh... why is time slipping away so quickly????? Test in less than 2 weeks time!!!!! (-_-''')

p/s: excessive use of exclaimation marks

You're Element is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensitive, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
brought to you by Quizilla

'Kopped' it from Janise's blog.

Puriko tells herself that she's not gonna paste many more of these personality test (even if she loves doing them) on her blog anymore.

I'm exhausted... will be every tuesday (lessons almost straight with 2 one hours break in between). Done zero work, surfed the web aimlessly and finished watching last night's SMAPXSMAP that has David Beckham as the special guest.

dears... it's gonna be here on 30 September~!!!!!!

what?

are you curious?

want to know what's so worth anticipating for???????

it's........ 2046!!!!!!!!

duh?
according to very reliable sources on Golden Village's website, the much anticipated movie (okie... by me...) is gonna premier on 30 Spetember 2004 in Singapore~! *all sorts of imagination*

if takuya goes to china to promote the movie on 28 Sept... Singapore is a mere 7 hrs flight from there.. so... they'll probably think that since Singapore will be a good enough market to promote the film in, takuya and the rest of the cast will come down... then I will make sure I get a ticket to the premiers... since he's new in Singapore... he'll need a guide to tour around the place and with my mediocre Japanese Language (better than nothing) I shall volunteer myself... *starts to fantasize* \(^o^)/

heard that Ghibil's production, "Howl's Moving Castle" 'stunned the world' in Venice's Film Festival... when will it come? Can't wait to hear Takuya's Howl!!!!!!!!!! *going totally gaga*

Chatting with janise just now online... she was telling me about how a friend who did not get into medicine quit school in N U S and went to poly to pursue physiotherapy. WOW. That must have taken alot of courage and determination.

I told janise... in the medical related jobs, I only want to be a doctor. For one.. I know I cannot be a nurse.. because that takes so much more from a person to be a nurse than a doctor... (at least that's what I think) you face so much more stress from patients interaction... and well.. maybe it's the 'glory' associated with being a doctor. I hate myself for being so... but I know a part of me is like that. I feel proud when I get something 'prestigious' and something that's supposed to be 'difficult', I like to be above people in things.

I know there are other reasons too... afterall I did consider doing physiotherapy after not getting into med... but somehow... I don't have the courage to put down that little everything I have now to go to poly. I don't think I will be satisfied being a physiotherapist. I don't exactly know how to put it... but I feel that I will probably spend the rest of my life regreting my decision if I did go do nursing or physiotherapy.

This blog has became a place where I put my innermost thoughts on... *shiver* your friend is a devil afterall. (^-^)

Rumors on the bbs boards has it that there will not be any concert (SMAP.... duh?!) this year. The single, SUSUME! Gold version will not be released either. It was said that it's because Takuya insisted on producing a new single instead of one that is a re-mix of an old song. (Susume was from last year's album)

Oh well... it's almost the end of the year... I'll rather they not have a concert in the freezing winter where they have to wear sleeveless shirts. I don't like the idea of Susume being re-mixed and reproduced either... (they simply changed the music of the song)

I'm just really disappointed. *boo* Hope the new single/album that comes out next year is good...