Thanks girls!!! ^^ *hugz*

first day of work today... BORING~

sorry, but there's really nothing much... sat down at my desk ALL DAY typing! since the internet connection at my table is not fixed till 4pm... the info from the net that I got (in printed form) cannot be cut and pasted into the report... and since I have really nothing much to do... (despite all the research work to do... without the net, I can't do ANYTHING!) I TYPED them out... madness I know... can you imagine how positively bored I am? I know for SURE that I dun wanna do an office job in the future... ( the only thing that comes out good of this thing...) I'll be bored to DEATH! I wanna walk about! Do something different! sigh... I really carn stand string at the com ALL DAY... By the time it's five... ( I work from 9 to 6/7) my eyes are blurry and I carn see properly anymore thanks to the darn computer screen... started looking at the scenery outside of the window every once in a while HOPING to find some greenery amongst the grey city and even started doing the eye exercise that they taught us in school to rest my eyes a little... and since it's my aunt's company... I decided that it's not very nice to use the com for any non-work related activities... especially when the net came on... you know how tempted I am??!! sigh... I shall be NICE and GUAI...

bleah............. you can see that I'm complaining my head off and being a total spoiled brat here... why? cause I carn really bring myself to complain too much to my mum (and I need to let it out...) in case she starts asking my aunt to give me lighter jobs and stuff... I can imagine myself thinking if MY boss' relatives works in the company... I dun want any special treatment... (though I got the job because I'm her neice...) I was feeling SO embarrassed when my aunt paid for my lunch and all!! IN FRONT OF HER COLLEAGUES!! bleah... but yet I can't tell her that I wanna eat ALONE right? argh... I'm an anti-social person who like to be ALONE. THANK YOU.

whatever... this experience better be useful in the future... 'cause I'm probably gonna give up going for the accounts translator interview since I can't pull out a weekday to go for interview... (and the translator job is gonna be better paid lorz! it's translating Jap to english! you need specialist to do that...) AND.. I've not touched on my SATs yet!! DIE... I do wanna get more than 1420 this time!! (the average entry point for medicine in singapore) okok... sick of the com (can you believe it??!)... my uncle (who's working for my aunt) said that he has more hands-on job for me after this DARN report... it better be... or I'M QUITTING (I mean it!! ok, I dun wanna give up just yet)... I'll rather do voluntary work at the hospital or something...

people, I'm gonna blab... dun bother... i just need to let it out.

this is IT. argh!!!!!! been spending the last couple of hours trying to get an idea of how to go about doing the darn report that i'm supposed to do for my new job... (btw, I'm working in my aunt's advertising company)... was supposed to do research and write a report on investing in China... had to look up all the legislation, the various authorities, potential client. the advertising climate of the area... blah blah blah... and... IT'S GIVING ME THE BIGGEST HEADACHE EVER!!

in the first place, my brain has shut down since the last paper (or maybe even before that)... and then, I know NUTS about econs and finance and law and whatever shit!!

starting work officially tomorrow... and I'm not looking forward to it. WHY? I'm a brat ok? argh... dun really wanna work for my aunt in the first place because i dun like relations... dun like to be known about as the boss's neice, that RJC girl (as they intro'd me... argh!) I'm really stupid for god's sake!

and... thought I'm doing something like purchase (shopping!) and simple office work that doesn't need my brain... and now? it's beyond my abilities!~ I'm not making much sense in case anyone of you are wondering... I'm just blabbing... dun bother...

at least one thing I know for sure... I dun wanna do econs EVER! what crap!!! why is there so many licences and permits to get? and who cares where you set-up your office as long as there is one? and what about the kind of company you are? restricted, permited, encouraged, prohibited... why so troublesome??? it's a company! that's it!!!! ARGH. and 800 bucks a month is NOT worth the effort!!!!!!!

ok, time to go to bed... the thing is seriously giving me the biggest headanhe in history... just looking at it give me a headache... literally!
gonna give myself some 'Takuya tonic' and bathe and GO TO BED. the headache can continue tomorrow... bleah.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!
wanna type more.... but i'm dead tired.. so, that's all for my christmas greetings for the time being!

Argh... this is driving me crazy... ok, people... I need to tell you that I've moved house, so, DO NOT SENT YOUR CARDS (or hate letters that is...) TO SIMON PLACE!! sms me or email me if you need the new address yarz? knowing that a few of my classmates and friends have sent cards to the old address, I tried getting my dad to call up the new owner of my old house to ask if it's possible for me to go and collect all our letters... (we've asked for a direct transfer of our letters to our new address from the post office for the first three months only) and guess what that person said??? The old woman of the family told the postman to take the letters back as there's no such people (my family) living at the place already!!!! so... if you had written a return address... you'll probably get the letters back, if not... I have absolutely no idea where to find the letters.
this is drivng me MAD!! and for those who have already sent your letters without a return address... I'll TRY to track the letters down tomorrow by calling up the post office... but it's gonna be tough... SORRY!!!! (>-<)
argh!!!!!!! trying to control my temper here... !@#$%^&*

Clare... LOVE YA!!!!!!!!! haha... really. (^-^) Thanks for always being there for me dear...
people... guess i'm losing touch of my life already... having too much time in hands is a bad thing manz... really... thinking about so many things! MANY crazy things... trying to know myself better, finding the meaning of life.. looking for my direction in life... whatever. and guess what?! I'm totally not progressive! I need to start doing something...

first of all... I need to go apply to take my highway code and learn to drive...
then, I want to re-take my SAT 1 for a third time... if i want to do medicine... i better take it again...
then... read more books... not only novels... but self-help books. anything
... learn how to cook? if i want to live alone overseas... i better know how to cook more than microwave food
GET A JOB. MUST start reading the recruit section liaoz
learn a new language? spanish? italian?
and... much as i hate to do this... decide if i want to take medicine before the end of the month... (I need to reply to Glasgow before jan.)
ok, that's ALOT to do in 6 months... GANBARE!!!

I conclude... my life's in a MESS... I need some direction manz! anything!!

haha gan... i like the older background better too.... I'm a blue person... but hey! it's Christmas!! still in the christmas mood after Love Actually.....

note: absolute ramblings ahead... dun bother to read it.

just watched "Lord of the Rings - The Fellowship of the Ring" on HBO... I totally understand why people can't read past the book... but the movie's GOOD. yes... it is... honour. faith, bravery, love.... things that carn really be explained by words but should be felt by the heart... or am I simply bad at words and just using this as an excuse? I yearn for the advanture like the Lord of the Rings... to have something to honour and to have something I will be willing to die for... DREAMS... something that I have not thought of for some time now I guess... practically and realism has taken it's toll and I am blinded in my quest for material goods...
What IS my dream? will I have the faith to carry through it? what if it means a life in hunger... where i cannot enjoy trips to Japan to savour it's food and look at Takuya ( and the sakura flowers), will I be willing to throw away all I have in pursue of this dream? realise that it's probably not very related to LOTR... but whatever...
I want to die not being forgotten... is that too much to ask for? ... selfish desire that is... haha
wanna make a difference to the people around me... people who know me, dun know me... wanna have a personal touch in the lives of these people... but WHAT do i want in life exactly? argh!!
wanted to be a doctor so that someday I can go to some ulu places on this planet and be a doctor... care for them and make a difference to their quality of life... tall tales, will I be able to carry through it? I dare not say...
somehow realised over the years that i don't have to go to cambodia or vietnam to make a difference... but if you want me to be a doctor and work in a hospital all my life... i dunno... not that the patients shouldn't be saved, not that their lives dun need improvement, but the job can be done by so many other people... they don't really need me.
BUT, do I want to do it?? do i want to use an entire life saving lives? making a difference to the lives of others...
fine, I think too highly of myself... even if I die tomorrow, it will not make a difference to the world... whatever... and for goodness sake! I'm no noble soul! I will not be able to give without wanting something in return... much as I am working toward that... yes... at least a 'thank you' will be nice... sigh... i dun know what I've driving at... forget it.
maybe i should think about what I want... what will give me satisfaction in life? meeting Takuya!! argh!!!!! I guess my life just wants some advanture. people... give me some suggestions... if you read this far, why not leave a message... should I do medicine? or should I take up biomed engineering... or something else? I desperately need help here...

hehe Clare.... i know i'm insane. ^^ guess fear is part and parcel of life.. hmm...
people... 'Love Actually' is GOOD. REALLY good... apart from getting me into a Christmas mood... it's really one of the best movies I've watched these years! It's so...... full of love!! Like what Hugh Grant said at the beginning of the movie... Love Actually is Everywhere!!!!!! ok, shall nto spoil it for those who has yet to watch it.... but it's GOOD. Really GOOD. and boy do I love the british accent and Hugh Grant's as charming as ever... and there's this guy who Keira Knightley has a crush on in the movie is SO cute!! Shuyan and my sis's gushing all over him... but i personally think Hugh Grant's better... (beginning to think that I have a thing for elder guys.... like how Johnny Depp is better than Orlando Bloom... )

Blowing in the Wind
How many roads must a man walk down
Before you call him a man?
Yes, 'n' how many seas must a white dove sail
Before she sleeps in the sand?
Yes, 'n' how many times must the cannon balls fly
Before they're forever banned?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.

How many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
Yes, 'n' how many ears must one man have
Before he can hear people cry?
Yes, 'n' how many deaths will it take till he knows
That too many people have died?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.

How many years can a mountain exist
Before it's washed to the sea?
Yes, 'n' how many years can some people exist
Before they're allowed to be free?
Yes, 'n' how many times can a man turn his head,
Pretending he just doesn't see?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.

source: http://www.bobdylan.com/songs/blowin.html

first heard this song in one of ELDDS's performances... Mrs. Tian let us watched one of the competition-bound performances by the ld girls and the song just caught my attention.
it kinda struck me at that time... an anti-war, anti-conflict song that I thought was really meaningful... remembered pasting the lyrics on my table back in sec 3... since then, this song had been one of my favorite songs.
heard it again yesterday when Takuya sang this song on SMAPXSMAP, its the song Takuya recomended as the song that sums up this year. was kinda surprised that the theme for mon's song session on SMAPXSMAP was "a song to sum up this year"... then it came to me that it's december... 2004 is coming in 21 days...

just carn help but feel that this year had been so fast... yet so packed with action...
SYF, Chingay, all the cip at alexandra hospital, holding up the full responsibility of designing the Outlook magazine, coping with the upblooming A levels... then taking it, blah blah blah...
feeling a little numb at the moment... perhaps the year has been too fast; my 2 years in JC has been too fast... and all of a sudden, I'm thrusted out of school... as a fresh JC graduate... waiting for my A level results and looking for a job.
a sense of lost? i dunno... in 22 days time, i will not be waking up at 6 am in the morning to change into a uniform and make my way for a new school year... I will no longer need to wear another school uniform in my life anymore, much as the notion appeals to me, i have to admit that it scares me... kinda. what is instilled for me in the years to come? after the sheltered education system of singapore... what am i gonna do? after going through the paved route from primary school, to secondary school and then junior college... where am i heading? to UK? to a singaporean university? or will I try the 'far-fetched' notion of not going to uni? the years to come will be ones of change and challenge.

curious? ready to go out to see the world? wanting to make a difference to the monotonous life of mine? while I'm all geared up for the exciting years to come, apprehension, uncertainty and definately fear looms like a piece of dark cloud that just wouldn't go away. like a warm bed that urges me to sleep longer every morning, i don't really wanna get up from this dream where falling down does not hurt (that much).
but oh wellz... you will need to get up of your comfortable bed to see the sunrise of new day... and much as the road ahead is long and winey, there must be beautiful scenaries along the route... so, the years to come will be colourful!! i hope.

*grinz* thanks clare! it's actually a really simple layout, it's the photo that's 'christmassy'.
miss ng gets a kick out of suaning me... and although I hate to admit it... i'm used to it... bleah.
and clare dear... Takuya looks funny!! hahahahahahaha think he looks GOOD. oh wellz, love is blind. *wink*
oh, and before I continue with my entry...
Happy 30th Birthday Goro-chan!!


Goro Inagaki is a member of SMAP. I guess I don't need to explain more since no one's really interested in knowing anyway huh? *sigh*

psychology... thanks clare dear... but I guess not...
well, I don't know, but I've always felt that I'm a pretty 'unfeeling' person who doesn't really care too much about how others feel. In other words, I live in my own world... to a large extend. so, I basically don't take much interest in knowing how people think and why will they think like that. to me... they just do, the reason? ... doesn't matter much does it? anyway... psychology is not appealling to me. (><) (shuyan says I sound mean... opps)
thinking that I may wanna take up the biomed engineering... 'cause there's a future in this field, I think. sigh... whatever... I dun really wanna think about it just yet, it gives me a headache.

RJ grad nite tonight... can't help but feel anti-social for not going for it. but you see... paying 60 odd for ticket, hundred odd for a dress... near 50 for a pair of shoes (i dun have heels except for my court shoes)... another 50 odd for accessories... 50 odd for a hotel room if I'm staying with the girls in my class for the night... that amounts to near 300 bucks!! what the... in exchange for? an album of photographs, and two days of after-prom-'wariness'. nothing seems to be telling me to go!! (except for the slight guilt of abandoning my class...)
ok, I admit, I'm anti-social, AND 'money-faced'.
but for the others who's going tonight.... enjoy yourselves yarz? and hope Vida become prom queen.

hahaha.... Takuya is seriously addicted with pirates..... ('One Piece')
this picture here shows Takuya acting as Johnny Depp (in Pirates of the Caribbean) *faint*



look at the teeth! and the rings!! and that hair!!! hahahahahaha

thanks clare!! *hugz*
confused confused confused!! how??!! wanted to get an offer in biomed engin badly thinking that it's what i want.... but I'm wondering now if it's because so few people do the course.... (40 per year) then now... i'm thinking that i may want something chem more... working in a lab with chemicals... not mechines like the Magnetic Resonance Imaging System and heart-pacer......... ARGH!!! the thing that is REALLY putting me off is the two years of maths I have to endure.... I thought I can pretty much throw away my differentiation and integration for the rest of my life!! if i do engin.... it's gonna be more calculus!!

ok... let's put things into perspective....
i want to do research... something laboratory work
i'll like human interaction in my future work although it is not my first pirority
i want something that stimulates my thinking, something that i will not feel bored doing
although i THINK I'm relatively quite good at physics... and dun have a problem understanding maths... chem is the subject that fasinates me
ok, I'm materialistic... AND practical... if the job has a good prospect that can let me earn enough to lead a relatively comfortable lifestyle... i dun mind doing it...... even if it's me second choice ( humans carn just live on dreams right??)

ARGH!!!! my head's exploding with all these thoughts... must I decide? can some kind soul give me some advice?? what will you see me doing in ten years time?? ( dun say slacking - that's confirmed)
and the biggest joke is that... IF (touch wood) i dun do well for As.... all of these is CRAP. *faint*

oh!! for those interested in going sn for relief... maybe you can make a trip down and fill in this form at sn... so that they'll contact you if there's vacancies... but i think the chances are slim.... fill it in anyway yarz??

hi people!! been quite a long time huh? and I notice that many people's not updating their blogs... busy with prom? having fun??? haha... I'm busy with one piece. :P and of course, meeting up with friends, watching tv... and hosting shuyan who will be here till christmas eve...
oh, one good news, got a conditional offer from imperial college london for biomedical engineering at AAB (including maths and physics).... maybe I should not even go for my medicine interviews!! *cheers*
going for huahui camp in sn later...
sigh... why is my entry so boring? I've got nothing to say!! My life has been wake up, eat, go out, shop, watch tv... blah blah blah... I feel like a nuthead!! not thinking about anything... as though even if the world ends tomorrow, I dun care!! hmm.... ok, I'll try to think of something to write about the next time yarz? till then, take care people! *hugz*

Clare!!!!!!!!! *hugz* love ya!! it's OVER!! hahahaha
Jeanie... I regret to tell you the fact that yes, this is my blog. shall curse pamela later when she get home... how can my junior be reading my thoughts? haha, nah... feel free to drop by anytime, and if you wanna link me, use Puriko ok? ^^
life's GREAT~ shuyan's in my home now... she's gonna stay for the next three weeks... it's nice to have a fren to pig out with at home! haha, and she have to tolerate all my Takuya nonsense!! *cheers* but at the moment, that girl's enjoying 'Beauty or Beast' by Matsushima Nanako and Masaharu Fukuyama... that jap show on channel 8 every thursday. Gonna meet hua and ber and xm later... think we're gonna be late thanks to dear sy... *grinz*

wakawz.......................... smelly shuyan, I GOT STUDY KAY!!! kinda... anyway, who carez? IT'S OVER~!!!!!!!!!!
The evil's released! Liberation, freedom, LIFE!!!!!
oh, before I continue... Clare dear... if you're online reading this on 27 Nov 2003, GET BACK TO YOUR BOOKS! haha, this does not sound convincing... and I'm in the nood to suan people, but, JIA YOU~!! *grinz*
ok, what I did this evening after the paper... while still brooding over not adding g (9.81) for the uptrust or the sea water to get the volume of the air (argh), I went for a short, miniature shopping spree... bought ALL of the 'One Piece' series manga... that's like... 20 books!!!!!!! haha, gonna lead a month of eat, sleep, watch tv, read manga, use the net kinda life... then, get a driving licence, get a job, get myself into one of those UK med schools... hmm... well, actually I'm still considering over this whole medicine thing, (seriously thining that medicine might not be my thing) but to not regret... I'm gonna get myself into one of those unis first... if I eventually decided against medicine.... at least I have Edinburgh pharmacology and nevertheleast, ever dearest NUS!!
geesh, getting worried over my A levels already... the past few weeks have been like... a dream, I carn even remember what came out of physics paper 2 while revising for paper 3 this afternoon (while trying to spot quick revision topics)... been doing year after year of TYS for physics... and while am I still so slow? while all the others have like 20 min to rot for paper 3, I rushed to finish the paper with 30 min left for fluids!!! argh!
realised that I'm just randoming crapping my entry? sorry... really FREE at the moment... while 'One Piece' is on my table waiting for me... the idea of picking up a book again is NOT welcoming (at the moment)... ok, time for some Takuya surfing!!! cya~

okok, I know I should be mugging with 4 more papers to go.... but I can't help myself!!!!!!!!! bleah...

1. Describe the best feeling you've ever had: being able to accomplish something that I can call my own

2. Were you named after anyone: Nope, I love my name!! ^^

3. Do you wish on stars: Yes.

4. Which finger is your favorite? my forefinger, the left one... dun ask me why, think it just looks good... haha

5. When did you last cry: last year... when tulip died (my dog) he was sent away to die peacefully (?!) the thought of her dying alone without family is... unbearable. no, i didn't cry because she's dying... I've always felt that if dying is better than being alive, itt's a good thing, tulip had maggots growing out of her chin... and operation for a dog 11 years of age was not gonna be a good idea. but the thought of dying alone in some funny place, without someone beside her...

6. Do you like your handwriting: yes, when i write nicely that is...


7. What is your favorite lunch meat: beef anytime.

8. Any bad habits: lots! slacker, loves sleeping too much, noisy, insensitive, talk too much about takuya... blah blah blah


9. What is your most embarrassing CD?: erm... i know many will consider my SMAP collection the embaressing one... but I think it's great ok!! *grinz* my most embarrassing CD collection... but why should you be embarrassed about your CD??? it's just a CD!!

10. If you were another person, would you be friends with you and why or why not?: Think so... I mean... if I'm close friends with someone so similar to me as xiaoting... why carn i be friends with myself? and besides... I'm NICE. *grinz*

11. Are you a daredevil: nope.

12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?: haha, yes... i carn keep secrets... ok, that's gonna change.

13. Do looks matter: the 'correct' answer shld be no huh?? haha, but YES. looks are really important sometimes... first impression is very important, but it's the YOU inside that's gonna carry you far in life.

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow: haha... nope.

16. Do fish have feelings: erm... since they should have a nervous system.... why not?

17. Are you trendy: me?? hahahahhahaha, NO.

19. Where is your second home: St Nicks!! that's easy...

20. Do you trust others easily: No... trusting is not an easy thing to do.

21. What was your favorite toy as a child: erm... my wowo cloth?? (justa piece of really soft cotton cloth that I will put my thumb into and rub the finger with my fore finger... )

22. What lesson in school do you think is totally useless: PE??? *hee*

23. Do you like sappy love songs: yes... best if sang by Takuya... hahahahahaha

24. Have you been on television or radio?: yes, both. ^^

25. Do you have a journal: if you call the one my ct made the whole class write into one... but apart from that, no.

28. What do you look for in a guy/girl?: the comforatble feeling when the two of as are together... just that feeling.

29. What are your nicknames? nothing much... just what everyone calls me... Pris, if you call Prissssssssssssssssss a different nickname... ^^

30. Would you bungee jump? NO.

31. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off: No, what's the point? you'll need to tie them again the next time you wear them!

32. What are you worried about right now: that i should be mugging and I doing this survey...

33. Do you ever wear overalls? yes.

34. Do you think you are strong: mentally? quite... trying to train myself to be a mentally strong person like Takuya. *hide*

35. What's your favorite ice cream flavor: vanilla.

36.What's your favorite color: blue.

37.What is your least favorite thing in the world: loneliness

38. How many wisdom teeth do you have: none.. but it's growing!!!

39. How many people have a crush on YOU right now: please, who will have a crash on ME!

40. Who do you miss most right now: erm... Maiko my host in Sapporo?

41. Do you want everyone you sent this to to send it back? : nope... but it'll be intersting if you people fill it in... if you have the time or are as boliaoz as me

42. What are your fears: being alone... yapz.

43. Favourite Song?: Sekai ni Hitotsu dake no Hana (SMAP!!!!!!!!!)

pearll... nope, it's the one playing chengjun... xiancheng's cute too!! but i like chengjun more... the one playing the rich boy, but he looks better in 'Romance'. (^-^)

wait.... what does hu4 kou3 deng1 ji4 mean?? the day he registered his birth??? huh???? ok, 'cause some sites wrote 18 feb for his birthday and some 18 june... and one wrote 18 june as hu4 kou3 deng1 ji4... so what?? he's birthday is 18 feb to be accurate?? huh HUH HUH??????? why will you put 18 june as your birthday if it's the day you register your birth??? I'm confused.... I still like Japan more... blur

I've been watching Korean shows recently... due to the serious lack of Japanese dramas around... then I started taking notice of this guy called 金載沅 (jin zai ruan), Kim Jae Won,Sky, who acted in "Romance" (shown on channel 8) and in My Love Patzzi (channel U every sat 11pm). was thinking that he really looks like Shingo (smap member) with his wide and contagious smile... think he looks good (dun worry Takuya's still no. 1 *grinz*) but, ok... I was roaming the net randomly 'cause I dun wanna mug... and I started looking for his info... and, freak!!
He has the same birthday as me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and 4 years older... he's birthday is on 18 June 1981... wow. I'm dumbfounded, so, what do you call this? affinity? haha... but I really like this guy! he's the first korean whom I felt looks good and have no "dislike" towards... I've been quite 'against' korean stars and dramas for some reason all this while... and upon watching 'Romance' for some reason on fine night... he just caught my eye!!!!! wow.

wanna know who he is... check out this official website... copy and paste yar? lazy for html... http://www.estars.co.kr/kjw/index.asp

to pearll: I didn't recieve a confirmation letter for Edinburgh medicine... but Manchester Uni and Imperial did send confirmation letters... and just just now... I recieved an email from Glasgow to arrange for a time to go down for interview... maybe you'll like to check your email if you applied for Glasgow?
My sis is hopping up and down at the idea that if I go down to Glasgow for interview... she can get to see Hogwarts in real life.. ( she claims that that's where they film parts of the movie...). *sigh*

Pam: duh... it's not every day you get to see hogwarts rite? (fine even if u do see it.. u will only see a ruin ground w a sign board tt says " Danger Ruin Grounds" n u will suddenly remember u have something impt. tt u will need to attend to it asap n u will go off (muggle repelling charms)) so at least i think i'll get to see the muggle version of the most famous n safest place in UK rite?? *shurgs*

Ignore her...

p/s: Chem was harder than expected... damn did I rush to complete the paper!! Spent 20 min trying to balance the equation for Q2... and still cannot balance... thank goodness it's just one mark... just that to get A for this paper... it's an average of 7 marks per question... that's not easy...

*grinz* haha, Takuya shrine sounds good.... but I dun wanna treat him like god... he's just a normal person with flaws... (bad tempered, kiasu...), but isn't that what makes a person so attractive? que1 xian4 mei3 *grinz*

hey Clare... sorry lehz! I dun switch on my handphone usually while mugging... as it distracts me... so I didn't recieve your message till an hour before the exam when I was leaving home for school!! Hope the paper was good for you... actually, even if i told you my school's prediction, I'll be wrong... they 'predicted' (not explicitly) a huge part on agricultural biotech... NOTHING came out... the sperm thing is not really useful since the whole freezing thing was... argh. but your school predicted immobilised enzyme too right? oh dearz... really sorry... I'll sms you my room no. later when I get my handphone back... you can call me at that no. at any time. (I left my handphone on my parent's car... again)

was on the way home today when I was thinking about something... there's two ways to get to my house from down-town... one way is through the overhead expressway with no traffic lights but you'll need to take a U-turn to get to my house... the other way is through the road UNDER the espressway, you don't need to take a U-turn, but there's three traffic lights along the way... My mum prefers the expressway 'cause she doesn't like traffic lights, my dad takes the way under the expressway 'cause he doesn't lke U-turns.
Was thinking that it really resembles their character... my mum is those kind who will go all the way... just GO GO GO... if you make a mistake, just turn back! (so the U-turn) My dad on the other hand plans his movement... he doesn't mind being slower... but his actions will take him straight to the destination.
Which road will you take? both takes you to the destination eventually... it's just the route that you take.
I prefer the route my Dad takes... without the U-turn... for some reason, U-turns gives me a headache... I just dun like the feeling of turning back...

oh, and one good news... at least one UK univresity wants me... Edinburgh has offered me a conditional offer of B for Chem and Bio and B for physics or maths (ie:3 Bs) to study pharmacology there!!!!! so... at least somewhere wants me... and the fact that my personal statement was for medicine and they accepted me for pharmacology... I'm one happy girl. the medicine offers will take longer to come (if they ever come)... the unis just sent those "we've recieved your application and it will take us a few months/weeks before we process your application because of the vast number of applicants" letter...

but just give me an interview maybe?????? Edinburgh and Imperial medicine please??????????? actually... I'll like to take biomedical engineering at Imperial the most...

hahahahahhaha... sorry clare *grinz*
hey, nanyang's having the through-train thing too... although I'm actually against this whole through-train thing... I'm just wondering if sn wants to set up a snjc or something... got a feeling that next year's in-take for sn will not be very good... SN ROX~

wonder if anyone's got the same feeling?

Clare!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy~ haha, you sis's got GOOD TASTE. *grinz* you know what... though I've not met your sis before... I feel that we've got many things in similar.... FEEL... haha... maybe because she thinks that Takuya's VERY good looking... all who thinks Takuya is good looking got something in similar - we've got the same GOOD TASTE. *hide from clare's "Prisssssssssssssssssss"*
Faye Wong said that Takuya is very charming... DUH???!!
ok, back to physics before the tutor comes... I HATE ideal gases...

it's twelve in Japan now.... may I say again.... Happy Birthday dear Takuya~ May you shine on forever. (I'm crazy, I know... :P addiction is a scary thing)

Kimura-kun Otanjyoubi Omedetou!!~

Intended to do this at 11pm (12am Japan time) but I need to sleep... I need a rest from the mugging... and some time to put my focus back to the As and not on worrying about if I'll pass my GP essay and how bad bio paper was... so Takuya, do forgive me yarz? You're still my only one. *grinz* Happy 31st Birthday and may you always look 21 and think like a 11.

A Student's Prayer

Lord,

Grant me a quiet heart, before the examination starts.
Teach me to use my leisure hours, to reinvigorate my powers.
My mind from daydreams liberate, give me the will to concentrate.
From all the distractions set me free, that in my studies I may be.
A students with this sole intent, to make my work a sacrament.
From my faint heart to love expel, all failures, fears that therein dwell.
And from my pillows drive away, all dark foreboding of the day.
Help me in faith to rest so deep, that I may have untroubled sleep.
While notes and lessons I prepare, may I not lose my zest for prayer.
And may I not forget to look, for daily guidance in Thy book.
In quietness, confidence and peace, may I have swift and sure release.
From needless fears and apprehension, from outward strain and inward tension,
May I ever grateful be, to all who offer prayers for me.
While myself intercede, for all other students too I plead.
So may examinations find, each one alert in heart and mind.
Thus inward joy and peace possessing, exams will prove a source of BLESSINGS.

Amen.

To everyone out there still mugging hard for our papers. We all need it. *hugz*

got a haircut today yesterday to cut away all the bad luck. I'm gonna go lucky from this very day onwards.

Have I told you that I'm SUPER superstitious when I gets to mugging? I'll do ANYTHING.

I'm SCREWED...........
will they allow a re-test???????????????????????????????? I mean... it's not our fault that the damn mung-bean respires so fast that it moves from one end of the capillary tube to the other in one min right??? DIE.
then, the reducing sugar won't change colour... the two out of three stach-enzyme mixture looks the same... 4 marks is given for the drawing of a whole damn tissue diagram of a section of the stem... what can be worse???? thanks.

hey peeps, talked to Mr. Wong on msn (pam's account) last night.... so, I still dunno if he won... (unlike what Pam told me) he told me to watch and find out for myself... *argh* hee.. but I had quite a fun time suaning him.... with things like... "the news is spreading like wild fire!", "everyone's really excited about seeing you can Miss Jeya on TV!!" (not very suaning now that I think of it...) yes, he's my teacher... erm... *smilez* wellz, I told pam to tell him that I'm stressed over the A's and a little conked out... *grinz* but it was fun suaning him. *halo over my head*

yiling dear... I'll love to record the show... but I don't have a working recorder at home! Ber's gonna record it, since it's the day before our A levels papers... and maybe we can watch it when you're back! (^-^)

today's topic,
When Fanatism gets Overboard

guessed what I'm gonna talk about? you're right.

but today, I need to talk about the ugly side of fans. remember when F4 came to Singapore... think some 8000 people or something queue for hours outside Bishan Junction 8 to catch a glimspe of the four monkeys? (my sis being one of them...) the taiwanese people queue for DAYS... to watch the Johnny's artists like Takizawa Hideki concert... blah blah blah... some say it's a way of showing support to the artiste you like... but where do you have to draw the line? when is your fanatism and support for the artiste becoming more of a nuisence than anything else for the artiste?
A Singaporean fan approached Shingo (a SMAP member) in Japan earlier on this year.... not to show her support to Shingo, but to ask Shingo to pass a present to Takuya. Fans at the airport when hysterical upon seeing Takuya and forced notepads upon him get his signature. In Shanghai, the fans' support for Takuya was returned with an angry "Baka (stupid)" by Takuya when a fan reached and pulled Takuya, hurting his already injured arm... then, you see all the bulletin boards going, "what the @#$%^&*", "how can she do that??!!" , "let's give him some freedom"
so where do we have to draw the line?
an entry went: "much as we see him as a familar character, he sees us as a stranger"
I dun know if i'm in the correct position to say this: I don't know how will I respond on seeing Takuya... but I think, if you respect your idol as a person... you'll be able to draw the line well enough. Think about what are the things that you don't want to be done upon you... what are the things that you will frown upon... if you don't them to happen to you... don't do them on your idol. respect him as a human being, he's not a toy... not a piece of real life poster for you to kiss and hug and drool upon.
some fans skip school, skip work to see him... isn't this fanatism getting overboard when you let your fanatism, your idolism interfere with your private life? ok, I'm always like an idiot talking about Takuya, thinking about Takuya, using the net to find out more about him... but as a fan, you are a human being too. you have your life... if you messed up your life for him, will he know? NO. Get a life!! (this going out to me too...)
and about present giving... my dear sis... (sorry, dun hit me!) prepared a present for Vaness before I think... but hey!! does he need it? I don't think so. even if it's something you think he'll like... he, being an artist and all... am able to get all those for himself... he doesn't need your lucky stars and nicely decorated soft-toys... he's a grown-up man! letters are fine if you really need to tell him how much you like him... but well... I think the most practical thing, is to buy his albums, VCDs, magazines, go for his concerts. you'll be putting money into his pockets... and in the meantime, giving yourself enjoyment! and... don't buy pirated goods... apart from the support your idol part... it's unethical.
I don't know... I may go totally bonkers when I finally get to see him... but I don't think I'll go and wait for him outside the TV stations, or in the hotels and stuff... I may go to the airport if I have the time... for it's public... and although the concert is less personal, I think it's the best way to meet your idol - when he's prepared. and who knows?! if you meet him on the streets one day, without planning to do so... it's lady luck shining upon you!!

hahahahhaha, I need to blab... listen people, Mr. Geraint Wong and Miss Jeya is on the Singapore's Brainiest Teacher gonna be shown on channel 5 on 9 Nov. hahahahhahahahhahaha.... okie, I know this is not the right thing to say about your teacher... but it's gonna be so funny!!!!!!! hahahahahahhahahahahahaha... sn people will know what I mean...

and from my sis.... THE TWO OF THEM WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *faint* open champange someone!!

shuz... you know why I can give you such a wonderful testimonial???? *hold your breath everyone!!*


because I'm a shen!! hahahahahahhahahahhahaha

sorry...... *grinz*
okie.... for some serious reflection before I claim I'll go into mugging for the millionth time this month. just some random thoughts, maybe cliche... but just what I've been thinking...

when going about life gets tough... count your blessings, and you'll realise that you are really lucky. Then, maybe going about life will get easier.
praising others is a great thing to do.
don't think you can't do it when you've not even tried!
accept that in life, there's always someone out there better than you in a way or another.
loneliness is the worst feeling on earth.
the most important thing in life is to be yourself.
you live only once, why allow regrets?
you can do anything as long as your action does not bring inconvenience to other people.
reflection is something a person should do every once in a while - this will make you feel good about being alive.
rules are there for a reason, most of the time.

okie... wierd ramblings... but I've seem to feel more about these words then I used to nowadays...

haha clare... the takuya stalkometer grows on me!! and it's on 24-hours a day... can't switch off larz... *grinz* rather... dun wanna switch off... listening to Takuya's radio programme now. LOVE HIM!!!!!!!!! genki Takuya suki~ (like)
super thanks to yiming for the great testimonial on friendster... I'm so nice? *ego* haha... thanks dear. (^-^) I wanna write one for you too!! and for lots of people... clare... nat... pearll... I have so many things to write! but that damx thing is NOT loading... and it's like 1.30am now?? the americans are working... singaporeans are sleeping... why is it not loading and still working like a SNAIL??? 'cause tmr's saturday? maybe...
I've not been studying! HOW HOW HOW???? I need to mug mug MUG!! with my super lousy prelim results... I'm not feeling the panic I should be feeling... HOW?? HOW HOW???!!! panic... I'm like using the net every day, and just randomly slacking around... dare not go out 'cause I should be studying, but yet all I do is roam the net!!!!! die

I give up. min.... I can't approve you yet 'cause the page doesn't turn out... recieved the email of request, but can't find the request in my home page... and the direct link given on the email does NOT work. how fantastic... I'll try tonight.
btw.... takuya should arrive in Shanghai again at this very moment. *grinz*
should go back to mugging.... slacked alot these two days that I'm feeling guilty...

I'm here to complain.... Friendster is DAMN slow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh... and still can't find min!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bleah... fed-up... and min says she can't click my name even though she found me.... I'll try for another few mins... then.... I 'll try again another time... *gek gek*

mushy??? really clare??? beginning to think this obssession with Takuya is getting out of control.... shall not talk about him today, despite the big desire to do so... so what about me today?
oh, Hwa chong's GP paper is hell.... what kinda compre is that? every point is 1/2 mark with a whole lot of inference questions... that's why the hc people's GP is so strong... did the prelim papers today for mock...
yapz... now what else... oh, for those with friendster... look for me at the email address given on this page... and it's really slow!!!!!! kinda fed-up with it. found my classmates... about 10 of them... but couldn't add all of them as frens as the damn thing is SO SLOW!!!!!
Yapz.... that's my life... bland, boring... plain... now you see why writing about Takuya is better? 'cause there's so much more to write about! unless I start ranting about various issues again... and given my pretty biased opinions... I dunno how people will respond... not that I care too much that is.
oh, RJ open house tmr. think it's HC's too.... was thinking about wearing the sn school u back tmr to "kop" the gift bags... then considering the time I have to spend on going there and coming back home... a gift bag is not very worth the effort...

realise that the only thing I do on this blog nowadays is gushing over Takuya... ok... one last (try...) time can??? Takuya signed EVERY signature request in the airport on departure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm gonna faint... he's in such good mood nowadays! sigh... why am I stuck here with A levels??!!
Bush is in Singapore for 30min already... (6pm now...) the roads in paya labar near my house are closed for him... shall TRY not to say anything that may endanger my country... but wonder if bombs are somewhere on this island ready to be ignited... *touch wood* JOKING!~
Physics Prac today is fine... but I can't help but feel disadvantaged with starting with question 2 first... cause I have so much time left for qustion 2 that I RE-CHECKED all my worjk for question 2, and not enough time to repeat my anomalous point for question 1... sigh... but it's generally ok... pray that I didn't make any big blunders.
GP Mock exam tomorrow... I know that my GP is weak and all, but I'm so sick of GP!! been doing one prelim paper every week... this week, I'm gonna have to do TWO... can't we use Japanese to replace GP??? I got an A2 for last year's AO paper... then I can concentrate on the A level papers...
had a tiny "quarrel" with SheYa today through sms... she smsed me just to remind me to watch xi1 jie1 shao3 nian2 (I hope that's the name...) on U chanel... so I replied : "I have no interest in those SMAP imposters dear!!" haha... she replied IMMEDIATELY... "You think your life too long is it??? 5566 is way better than your si ma pu (dead table clothe)" that brought me nursting loud on my mum's car after physics prac... she can still remember her fantastic nick for dear SMAP!! btw... it's Smappu (the pronunciation in Jap of SMAP) not si ma pu!!!!!!!! (^-^) miss all the 4 diligence people...

wasn't intending to blog.... but i need to SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for those who says Takuya is act cool, he's probably a snobbish superstar.... KICK YOURSELF!!!!!!
'cause I can tell you that Takuya is the SWEETEST guy on Earth!!!!!!!!!!!!
okie, the whole incident went... Takuya arrived in Shanghai again yesterday for the filming of 2046, and having missed Takuya the first time he was here... the Shanghai fans are determined not to miss our Hero again. so, there were there waiting for him... fans working in the airport had began sending smses to the fans waiting outside that Takuya's plane has arrived and he's walking out.
report 1:
immediately after leaving the plane on the way out... Takuya had his sunglasses off when he was inside the airpot... fans say that he's got really sweet eyes... looking really shy and uncertain... but once he put on his sunglasses, he looks really cool... that fan commented that he looks like Mr. Shy with shades off and Mr. Cool with shades on.
report 2:
Takuya steps out of the airport where the reporters and all the other fans are waiting... he had his shades on, with no expression on his face... COOL
fans begin calling out his name... holding up all the uchiwas (fans with his face on them... a concert must-have) but he remained expressionless all the way, purposely slowing down his steps so that the fans can see him longer...
one of the fans begin to reach out for him... but was still afraid that it'll make him mad... but she managed to touch his arms for a moment and Takuya seems ok with it.... not showing signs of annoyance (he'll show it really openly if he's angry from past experiences)
the moment he got onto the car... many fans see him smiling immensely... (note: he has really white teeth despite all the smoking) looking like he's on high spirits... he's arm seems to be recovering too.
the reporters had the great fortune of following him all the way by agreeing to takuya's request that they will maintain discipline and will not push or hurt any fans.
report 3:
at the hotel, the bodyguard told the reporters that Takuya will be coming down for phototaking and requested for them to maintain discipline...
takuya came down and a short interview in english goes:
reporter: that's a really nice hat you're wearing!
Takuya: I design! (he's wearing self-designed hat and shirt both with the pirate symbol of a skull on them... it's designed in honour of One Piece... but of course, only the fans know it... it's a black shirt and hat with the skull shaped using something like seqins)
reporter: Have your hand injury recovered?
Takuya: Yes (with a smile)
Reporter: How long will you stay in Shanghai for this time?
Takuya: I don't know!
takuya was in good mood, been really cooperative and sweet.
report 4: YOU MUST READ THIS
the Shanghai fans had been planning this for a long time... they want to tell takuya that his fans wish him all the best and they really like him. so.... one of the fans got some internal information about exactly which level, which room Takuya is living in in Shanghai's Westin hotel...
so, with like the best luck in the world, she managed to slip through all the sercurity and got to the level where Takuya is rumored to stay... upon getting onto that level... she saw just and extremely entry corridoor... not what she was expecting since there must have been extra security on that level... but no, it was empty. anyway... a couple of the rooms are actually unclosed... unlocked... she walked all the way to the last room on the level... the room Takuya is rumored to have been staying...
the room was not locked... and slightly opened like those other rooms... (Takuya's in a really relaxed mood?) she could hear noises from the room. but no, she's not intending to break into the room... feeling all excited... she took out paper (blue, she thinks takuya likes blue) from her bag... and began writing the words... "TAKUYA GOOD LUCK! ALL THE SHANGHAI FANS" and intended to slip it through the door and ring the door bell before she disappears... but she was so.................. nervous that she forgot to write the 'U' in Takuya's name... so, she was leaning on the wall trying to correct her words when the door OPENED. Takuya was standing right in front of her... looking right into her eyes... (apparently takuya must have been quite amused by the fact that there's someone outside) anyway.... Takuya was not wearing shades... wearing a blue hat... she can't remember all the details... the others in the room stepped out too after Takuya.
immediately, she reached out to Takuya and passed him the slip of paper into his hands. he walked to the lift looking at the piece of paper. then she said: "Can you give me a sign?" afraid that Takuya might not be willing... she looked at Takuya... he did not shake his head... so, she started looking for a piece of paper for Takuya to sign... taking quite a long time... she was sure that Takuya saw his uchiwa in her bag... she reached out to him to pass him the piece of paper and pen... then the greatest moment in her life came...
Takuya: "what's your name?"
she stunned.
Takuya again really sweetly: " what's your name?"
she nearly fainted... she'll thank him with all her life as long as he signs it... let alone with her name written on it!!!!!!!!!!!! knowing that takuya won't understand chinese, she gave him an english name KIKI...
Takuya wrote To KIKI, and signed what looked like, Takuya KU. the girl is feeling like the most fortunate girl on Earth...
She's so bear to Takuya that she could smell him... he smelt good like he was just out form the shower.
they have walked to the lift by that time... thinking that she must say something, she pointed to her shirt (a One Piece shirt) and said: "One Piece!" Takuya smiled... it was the whitest teeth the girl has seen before...
that moment, all the bodyguards came out from their rooms... one of his managers asked the girl: "you live here?" in english.... to not let them get suspicious, she replied "yes".
Takuya went into the lift and the girl begin saying "Good Luck!!" , doing the hand gesture of Good Luck that Takuya did in his drama... she gave a deep bow to thank the guards for not chasing her away and to dear sweet Takuya. she rushed off to spread the good news to all Takuya's fans.

faint... a report I got from the BBS of Takuya Forest... she's the most fortunate girl in the world... Takuya is the sweetest guy on Earth... and to those who thinks that Takuya is 163... you can knock yourself on the wall... he's definately 175 and above... really thin... but really good looking... some say 100 times better than how he looks on screen. I feel that I've not liked the wrong guy...

You're Most Like The Season Winter ...

You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is.

Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)


?? Which Season Are You ??
brought to you by Quizilla

me? cold... distant... mature... thanks huh? people who reads this blog will not think so... just been commented as being worst than she ya by clare *read:really hopelessly fanatic* thanks dear.... I'm worst than sheya... ha.... at least I'm more loyal... the ONLY one in my eyes is Mr. Kimura Takuya... lalalalalalala *hides from all the rotten eggs, vegies, insults, swears, hopeless sighs*

update.... hurt his left finger while filming a commercial ad in Japan and sprianed his right shoulder while working out in the gym... (-_-''') and when he left Shanghai... he's arm is no longer in a sling... but he's going back Japan to seek treatment before returning to the filming of 2046.

wanna blog about today's chem prac.... then I remember that someone in who knows India or whatever probably have not taken their pracs yet.... so i guess not... ha... like they even read my blog... but seriously, not in the mood to write about it... so...................... SCREWED... people. what's ur titration value? I got it too high... bleah... and couldn't finish my design...
and darling Takuya broke his hand... what the hexx are you doing Takuya? aren't you supposed to be relatively free now with concert tour over and no dramas on hand? did you burn your hand (but that will not need a sling!!) while cooking at Bitsro SMAP? did you fall down while doing one of those stunts as the 'Skate boys'? slipped and fell on the skating ring while filming "Best Couple' (a conte of SMAPXSMAP the variety show)? how did you get yourself hurt, AGAIN???!!
Takuya looked like in was in high spirits when he arrived in Shanghai smiling to the reporters, waving and looking really good but his HAND!!!!!!!!!!!! the right hand was in a sling... and the left forefinger was bandaged and looked like huge white sausages... argh... they said he hurt himself during work in Japan... and while in Shanghai... he was running a fever. but he continued with work to not stop the progress of the movie...
and to think he's just recovering from a leg injuring from the concert... Takuya... you're 31 this year... can you PLEASE learn to take care of urself?
look at SMAP now... they might as well quit dancing all together... Nakai just had an operation for a hand injury aquired while playing baseball, Shingo got himself a horrendous chameleon haircut... tsuyoshi's hair is so long it can almost be a mop... (honestly, he looked BAD... get a freaking haircut tsuyoshi.....) only goro's is normal... please let him be fine...

haha... shuyan dear... how do you know that the main purpose of the blog is to haunt you with Jap ramblings? muah hahahahahaha!! nah~ Good Luck for your papers! Ganbatte~
Clare dear.... ^5! guess we're the loud and noisy kind... opps...
pearll dear... you're right... that's why my classmates dun know about this blog... just the thought of them reading this blog is....... i'll rather die... not that they are not nice people... but I'm just not comfortable with people I'm not close enough with knowing too much about me... hmm...

I conclude that I'm really boliao.... anyway... you can find the Jap blog in the websites column... nothing much there really... cause of my limited Japanese... I can only ramble about Takuya there I guess.... haha...

sucess!!!!!!!! should I start a Jap blog? just for my own rambling purpose? rambling because 1)only shuyan and seok and xuan can understand... 2)maybe even they can't understand since I probably will be writing in super broken Japanese... hmm.... but just for fun right????????? hmm........ maybe I should return to my 'one piece' instead of thinking about a jap blog...

btw... if you have win xp (i dun noe if it works for other windows) use unicode encoding... basically, I was asking: If I type in jap... I wonder if the entry can be published.

日本語をタイプすれば見えるかなあ～

I think I blog too much.... so, shall keep quiet for some days....

haha.... actually it's because I'm busy reading 'One Piece'. *hee* see you people a few days later! bye~

HUA!!!!!!! *rushes over and gives a BIG TIGHT HUG* love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hee* had the best afternoon for a long time.... really!! it's so great to sit down, hang around and just talk! okie.... I'm just beginning to realise that the shades that Takuya is wearing is a little too big... but just a little! and I think he's the only one who can wear that kinda shades and still looks GREAT. *hides from rotten vegies and eggs* and yes.... i still remember that look on your faces... I'll try to control.... at least dun get all gaga when I talk about him okie? *that's gonna be a task*
thanks clare... read your blog about keeping a private blog... I dun think I want it too... if there's really something that I can't let people know, something that is so personal, I won't say it at all. hmm... but I'm too much of a big mouth to keep shut of my feelings... *opps* and the reason why I don't keep a personal diary.... is because the diary can't speak back. I quite like the idea of Harry Potter's riddle's book.... I mean, having a diary that replies and yet will not 'tell on you' is great! okie... forget about what the diary really is in the book. I guess I'm the kinda person who needs my presence to be known... I don't wanna be the centre of attraction, but I need my presence to be known. I'm not the kinda person who can tolerate blending into the background. so, a diary that I plainly write into, putting all my thought and feelings into is not for me. I mean... I can't just write write! haha... attention seeker...
cyn!! I just bought one piece book 5 to 8! shall read it later!! one piece is GREAT!!

[pam: roll eyes... n pris shut up i noe ur password anyway... *smirk* strange huh... that i know it even though u NEVER telll me haha]

hello?? this is like MY blog? *getting all possessive* why should I shut up? YOU shut up. *nod head*

[pam: no is *shake head* *grinz* n shut up? how to shut up without talking? n hehe MY blog??? oh n good qn... NITES!!! *ran off to bed*]

that's because it's almost 12.... (past her bedtime) and I asked her why is she doing here in my room when she shld be sleeping... sigh... why am I allowing her to join in my blogging session?

lp said that she dun noe what to write on her blog cause she feels that she's writing to an audience... guess that's why a blog can never replace a personal diary huh?
I'm beginning to feel that too... writing with others in mind... not wanting to write too intimate stuff... too sensitive stuff (ok... I wrote it.) self censoring what i wanna write before putting it up... re-reading my entry before publishing it... never knew that I'm that kinda person who will do these kinda stuff... shuyan told me that day something to the effect that she write whatever she wants on hers and don't care what others think of it... cause the people who don't agree can just go away. when can i be that kinda person? so open, so unaffected by what the others think... I've tried to be true to myself, but my environment affects me. I get bothered my what others think of me, I have an image that I wanna maintain in the minds of others, and that affects the things I do.
you know why I'm so crazy over Takuya? yes... initially, it's his looks... but gradually, as I went to read up about what he did... I admire him as a person. he's what I am not. how can a superstar like him master so much courage to defy his agency... tell the whole world that he is attached when he's an idol? at those times in Japan... it's almost like commiting suicide to admit that you are attached... but that guy admitted (with his manager beside denying everything..) that he's attached. he was about our age. then, he got married... the first one in the whole of his agency... he's the ONLY married artist in Johnny's agency. I think I'll die if I'm him. the japanese entertainment circle is never shocked by what he does... cause he always does what the rest thinks is not conventional... he's being himself.
I don't know... this is an entry that I'm not even sure if I'll put up... cause it exposes too much of my insecurity. I'm admiting to the world (the blogging world that is) that I'm bothered by my environment... that I get affected by what others think if me... things that I probably share with a few close ones... can I master up the courage to expose this insecurity? hmm...
the thing about being yourself... I don't know... while I admire those who can remian true to themselves at all times, I wonder if it's really what I wanna do... 'cause the people around me matters to me. while it's important to be true to myself... it's important that I am considerate to the feelings of other people. I remember Father Berhachate (carn remember the spelling) said before... you can bloody hell do whatever you want... but your actions should not bring trouble to others... (Takuya was brought up this way too! hmm...) but how can I stay true to myself when I don't even know what exactly what I want 'cause I'm affected by so many person A, B and C?

Which One Piece Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net

I'm zoro!! zoro!!!!! hahaha... my fave character in 'one piece'...
what's 'one piece'? hee... Takuya's favorite comic book... *sorry!!* *hee*
I don't read comics actually... but since it's Takuya's favorite and under the strong recommendation from him... I went to buy the comic book (till today I have 4 books) [pam: ya only 4 when i have ALL of F4's comic... ur abit xun lor... *roll eyes*]
erm... it's a children's comic... yapz... and Takuya's 31 this year... erm... [pam again:ya children for childdish people like... you noe... *cough**cough*pris*cough**cough* shh... you didn't hear it from me! *run off*]

ignore that coughing person...

actually it's really quite cute... zoro's the triple-sword swordsman... really cool character... but the main charactor is this funny young boy called Luffy... he wanted to be a pirate since young (long story) and one day, by accident, he ate this devil's fruit that belonged to a great pirate at those times... since then, he became an 'elastic man' - ie: he can stretch like rubber, but the compromise to he's super power is that he can never swim for he is being disliked by the sea (erm... that what the book says). when he grew up, he decided that he wants to go and explore the world and get this treasure called 'One Piece'... but mind you... he's alone and he can't swim for nuts! but well... he became a pirate and started going about looking for companion. the first companion he found was Zoro (me!!!) a pirate-hunter. Zoro decied to join Luffy in this advanture (yes... although he's a pirate hunter... comics dun need to make sense huh?)

for more info, go official website

Takuya was is super crazy over this comic... he talked about it for a continuous month or so on his radio programme... and he actually started thinking about a live version of the comic... he wanted to act as Sanji (this woman's man... really popular amongst the girls... an itallian cook... a dreamer who smokes alot)... but all the letters started going in and demanded that he give the role to Masaharu Fukuyama (fu shan ya zhi if that helps)... actually Takuya gave the role of Zoro to Takashi Sorimachi... but he said he wants the role for himself now... haha... that dreamer... he even wanted the theme of SMAP's concert to be pirates! although it didn't come through in the end, he sounded really satisfied when he said alot of people wore 'pirate wear' to their concert this year. *shake head*

haha... I wonder if you people actually understand of what I said so far... *grinz* after prelims life is GREAT~ there's like nothing to do... I have all the time I want... I can slepp for as long as I want... watch Takuya as long as I want... listen to the cars outside of the windows and feel my existance in this city... it's great!
and lp... read my tag board. (^-^)

clare!! nv say you say Takuya good looking... (although it's an universal fact) I'm trying to tell you that he IS good looking... hahahahahahahaha... sigh... not in the mood to type today.... just wanna laze about... might be going to meet hua tmr... but that's if I can find my way to sixth ave... I'm a road idiot.....
nat: ^5! that's our dearest miss ng. *hee*
shuyan: if you are reading this reply... you shouldn't be... GO AND STUDY!! Good Luck!! in your papers!! ganbatte ne~ (^-^)

I was drowning myself in happy Takuya lala land when my itchy fingers tell me to go random blog-hoping... reading blog from the [r j] people and fear begin dawning upon me... I'm gonna get like ALL my results inculding the darn S papers back within the two days of monday and tuesday next week. and guess what?! I've only finished my prelims this morn! what the heck am I worrying and panicking here when I have 4 days to enjoy no school, holiday life? bleah...
and why am I home? cause I can't go out with my frens as I am due for a blood taking session at alexandra today... think that nurse did a bad job... cause there's a bad ache at where the needle went in now (what do you call that?)... think I'll expect to see a blue-black soon... boo...
gonna go Takuya hunting again... will come back when i feel like writing something again...
and people... sorry to bore you. *wink*
oh! and pearll... thanks. (^-^)

there's not SMAPXSMAP for this week because of the autumn special of another programme... bleah...

just read from a friend's online diary that goes, no one can make you feel inferior without your consent. alot of truth goes into it... and I love this line... it's from somewhere right? but I just can't remember...
if that line is to encourage me today... it's from the killer chem s paper this morn... no one to blame seriously... cause I just can't bring myself to study them notes that the teachers give us... and as for those few little things that I did read through, they did not come to me at all... whatever... as long as I get a double digit (upon 100) result... I'll be one happy girl.
and TING!!!!!!!! you're not blind... you just need a mental check-up. are you crazy???!! PRAYING MANTIS???!!! I have not gotten over the shock since you screamed the words into my ears last night... (-_-'') and... why am I always the loser in a debate with you?? wait... that's because you never argue with logic. *wink*
clare, you finally got my point... Takuya NEVER looked like or sound like whatever anything better than shxx under our miss ng's mouth... *shake head* and... can you really bring yourself to throw rotten eggs at your dear friend? *grinz* Takuya looks GOOD!! lah lah lah lah lah~
nat thanks dear... *hugz* I wish I have a tracker... better still, I'm the tracker! hee... nah... got the news from a china fan site... (^-^) Takuya's fanz are all over the world! ho ho ho... and, I'll tel pam that you say she's cute... (-_-'')

hee... sorry for the Takuya madness... wanna talk about Shark's Fin... but that will have to wait till tmr.... when I'm more in the mood... cause I'm in the Takuya mood now!!!!!!! muah hahahahaha. gonna go and watch the video clips for yesterday night's SMAPXSMAP. byebee~

I'm in my sis's room trying to drive away some depression that has set into me since this evening when I realise that I'm totally unprepared for my chem s tmr...
and pam's beside me... holding a fake 'fairy wand' trying to use the wand to pull out tissue paper from the box... and chanting "wingardium leviosa' as she pulls out a piece of tissue that is thanks to her wonderful magic skills... is torn...
"it's not torn! fine only the first 2 but hey the 3rd one is whole!!!!" - that was Pam... (-_-'')
then... she used her 'wand' to press on the screen brightness button of the computer screen and shouted out "LUMOS!!"... now she wants to release a serpent on me.... ha... when she manage to find herself a plastic serpent and not get frightened away by it herself!!!
tell me that I have a 15 year old sister...

Pam: try having a 18 year old sis with a 3 year old brain! well tt is if u can call a pea size brain 3 year old... (i think 3 sec sounds better but giv her face lar)... *grinz*

I pity myself... (now she's offering to Avada Kedarva me and is having second thoughts about it since she doesn't want to be sent to Askaban)

p/s: she says her wand is 11' with a phoenix feather core...

thanks pearll... it's in your mailbox now.
TAKUYA IS IN SHANGHAI NOW~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!
filming 2046... wonder when will that movie finish filming... it's like 4 years already? and in the meantime... Takuya had filmed 4 successful japanese dramas, got Shizuka pregnant and got married... had Kokomi, their first daughter, then their second daugther Mitsuki... blah blah blah... hopefully we'll be his movie by the end of this year, or early next... and although I probably cannot understand a THING about Wong KarWai's movie... I'm gonna watch it.
dreaming maybe Takuya will come to Singapore to promote the movie?????????? *smiling away in wonderland*

I'm gonna do something that I don't wanna do.... I'm gonna delete THAT particular controversial entry... not because I am gonna take back what I said... cause I will be responsible for what I said and to be honest, I don't think what I said is wrong... but because (sorry min...) min had quoted me in her blog... and I know quite alot of [h c] people visit her blog... in case I arouse some major [r j] [h c] rivery... and with the kind advise from serendipity... I'm gonna delete the entry...
for people I know... I believe most of you have read it... but if you have a dying desire to read it or something... I'm gonna save it as a file myself and i will send it to you upon your request.

*hide from all the rotten eggs* I know you people have got enough of my Takuya madness... But... but.... but... he's SO......... adorable!!

Photo source: Myojo's Kimura Takuya no Kaihoku issue: October 2003
(I know about all the copyright laws... please forgive this little fan for her fanatic desire to share a cute Takuya with her frens. *grinz*)

first.... allow me to apologise to everyone... I blew up when I saw "if u're game for it". I don't like it when people challenge me and well... I'm the kinda person who "chi ruan bu chi ying" - eat soft don't eat hard *hee*.

min dear... sorry that I misunderstood your words. can we not discuss this issue anymore? I'm no longer able to look at this 'sanely' anymore. apologies if my entry offended you in anyway... I guess this is a topic that I should not put up for discussion. I'll take more caution in the future. (^-^) peace?

lp, thanks... I like it too... holiday mood. *grinz*

zixuan was my rebuttal full of arguementative tone? if you're talking about the second reply... it was kinda ment to be... *smile guiltily* I went off the hook when I thought I was challenged.

clare I'll be demoralised big time too if I take [h c]'s paper.... I don't work well under stress... I'm claming down.

I have a feeling that I gave many of you a shock... *hee* sorry. I'm fine... sorry for blowing up. (^-^)

listening to FM 93.3 now... playing the theme song for Takuya's drama, "Good Luck!!" - Ride on Time... *grinz*
and min... is your blog not publishing? can see anything except the nice new layout... (as in no entry...)
clare just read your blog, do comment!! It's gonna be so lonely online if no one replies to my entries! actually I was quite happy that huimin's replying to my entry... ha... until I blew up that is... (^-^) sorry min!!!

sigh..... okie, this reply goes out to huimin
in case you didn't realise.... i'm getting a little sick of this debate... but okie, I'm open to different opinions... i just hope that you understand that I'm entitled to my opinion as you are entitled to yours.

1) if you think that I'm extremely biased... you are entitled to think so. I give opinions based on what I know... and maybe I know too little. but I'm not taking back what I feel because of the people whom I personally care alot for. people whom you don't know, who are around you, and are experiencing a tough time that I don't think they should be experiencing. no elaborations here. apologies... I have people whom I want to protect.

2) I feel that a person should have been given the opportunity to do whatever he wants... people are fully able think for themselves, if they have decided that it's ok for them to screw up the rest of their core syllabus for taking the s paper... they are fully entitled to do so... much as the school is right in 'thinking for the student's best interest', another point of view will go that who is the school to decide if the student have the rights to take s paper.

3) my arguement is distorted. thanks to my limited language abilities... my arguement is pretty much about the core A levels rather than s papers. the point about maximising results goes more for students dropping subject rather than s papers. and although it's not the only factor... i wonder if you can argue without blinking that making students drop subjects does not in a way pull up the standard of the school as a whole... go ahead. ok, it's not THE reason.... but whether it's an effect from making students drop subjects... i think so.... by droping one a level subject... it does give the student the extra time to study the other three subs... ok, let's take it to good will that the only reason for doing so is the allow the student to do will in his A levels.

5) huimin... maybe you can take s papers in another school? (if you want to that is) i don't know why this arguements is so driven towards s papers... cause i feel that my arguement is more towards the A levels. and dear... I think highly of you... even if you don't think highly of me.

6) i don't know if taking one s papers is equivalent to taking none. if you think so. fine. if the student chooses to take one s paper.... why not? it's his choice.

7) what about those in ITE? what about those in poly? you mean they don't have the academics potential? or is it because they are simply less exam smart? I think the second. and my arguement was driven toward the academics.

Thanks once again for letting me see your point of view, I like discussions like that. but, can i be irreasonable? dear... DON'T challenge me with "if u're game for it".... if this reply sounds harsh or rude or whatever... if it's this is gonna bitter our frenship... it's because of this game word.

btw, nice earrings!! (^-^)

actually... i'm not only referring specifically to [h c] here.... (so if you're taking this as an attack on [h c], it's NOT) i'm talking about the entire ranking system and education in Singapore by looking at an example.... which I have to say I regret choosing, is in this case. [h c]. it's a narrow arguement and i agree that it does not cover every point.

do continue defending [h c] it's a nice thing to see a person defending her school so much.... i wonder if i am able to defend my school so strongly...

i think this arguement is a point of perspective... if that's you're perspective, sure. but different people work differently, and I don't work your way... much as i criticize the system, the way some people do things, I do regconise that there's always two sides to the same thing. if my blog's title can shine any light... geminal paradox... both implying that i'm a person who have a pretty double sided character... and it also acknowledges the fact that there's always two distinctly different ways of looking at things... and there is not right or wrong to either side of opinions.

nat dear... yes, SN ROCKS.... although it's not perfect, I love that school.

oh... and i'll appreciate it if min can change my name on your blog to Puriko instead? thanks dear, those people who should know who i am knows who i am.

to min wow... cool down kae?

1) my opinions ARE biased... and I'm not trying to say that it's like right or something... it's MY opinions... apologies for probably using too strong expressions here... i know that this is a sensitive issue... that's why the note at the start of the entry.

2) are you SURE that that those don't take s papers can't cope it with? although the rebuttal may go whether I am sure that all those who takes s papers CAN cope... it's difficult to judge right? a bio oympiad gold medalist got U for his bio s paper... so what? he's not qualified?

3) dear... [r j] does not allow students with D or E to take s papers too...ok... honest.... i don't get what you're trying to drive at with this point.

4) point 4 accepted.

5) as i said... s papers are not the most important things on earth... but should a student WANT to take it... and he's of relative ability with a keen interest in the subject why not? for those who take s paper tuition who I know... take it because they wanna get their distinction... the kiasu syndrom going on here... but those who take s paper tuition as far as i know, are minimal.

6) many people i know take s papers for interest... the want to explore further into the subject... and i feel... if you don't like a subject... you might as well DON'T take it at all (period) and s papers... to be practical... s paper is the key (sort of) to a scholarship just as the story goes that getting an s paper does not ensure you a scholarship, the reverse also works... if you son't have an s paper... you're probably out of running for many scholarships. although i think taking an s paper for scholarships is a bad idea... that the way this screwed up system in singapore work.

7) is developing potential about doing well in school only? getting good results for the three subs you're doing now means you are developing your potential? i beg to differ.

okie... end of the day... if i sound bitter about [h c] getting first... apologies... i guess i do have some foolish pride as a [r a f f l e s i a n] too just like i believe those in [h c] and [v j] have toward their college. although this is gonna sound insincere. congrats to [h c] for doing well. (^-^) honest. [r j] people are at times a tat too proud of themselves ourselves, and i remember my maths tutor scoulding us one lecture... (to the whole of the noisy med fac) "you people think you're the best because you're in [r j]? well... you're not!" ha! well said... but guess that did not go much into the heads of the students...

this is a strong entry... something i have expected from posting the last last entry... guess i put across the idea that [h c] pulls up it's grades by eliminating people. I dun wanna be a hypocrite by saying i dun think so... so, yes, it's true, i did think so... not totally.... but i believe partially. but your entry, min, did show me another side of the story. thanks.

can i be a little bu yao lian and give cheers to our wonderful bunch of [r j] teachers and students too? think they work real hard too. (^-^)

nat dear... yes... I do believe that your senior mug their 'butts off' ^^ in fact.... i believe every student in all the [j c]s mug their heads off... be it [h c], [r j], [n j], [v j] whatever... and whether [r j] is top or not doesn't matter to me at all. as i said, it's just a game of numbers... but you see... the [j c]s ARE playing this game seriously, [r j] included... and i tell you, [r j] is not a bed of roses too... but i like it's open system of administration... very different from [s n]. and... the fact stays that [h c] does ask a number of people to drop subs... (more than [r j] that is) nat.... you might be doing s papers in [r j]... hmm... girl, i think you have the potential (whether you want to or not is another matter)
that's just my opinion... cause i see some of my frens (not from 4 d that is) doing not very good in our [j c] system... and i think there must be something seriously wrong with the system here... (not totally though... cause i think at the end of the day, the problem of not doing well in school boils down to the student) just my opinion... and nat dear... thanks for showing me the other side of the story. (^-^)
yiling, erm.... thanks for the compliment? that eagle thing and gemstone thing is actually from xiao zhang... remember those times when she say that all of us are gems? (^-^) miss [s n] like mad...
haha... beginning to think that this will be a good place to discuss issues... shall write something another day... (^-^) for now... let me go try and mug s paper.... been slacking these two days. (^-^) wish me luck that i dun get two ungraded!

Smile
by Elvis Costello


Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through
For you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear
May be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on tryin'
Smile, what's the use of cryin'
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'd just smile
(x2)

Smile

kinda touched by this song when SMAP sang it on mon's SMAPXSMAP... the theme song for Takuya's drama - Sora kara Furu Ichioku no Hoshi in 2002 too.... meaningful song... and hey! I think Takuya's english pronunciation is GOOD. *gloat*

trying out a new layout and background. first attempt at designing my own blogskin... nice?????? (^-^)
Thanks to pam for her 'technical support'.

Shuyan!!!!! Just in time.... MY PAPERS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! well... if you don't consider chem s and physics s next tues and wed... but hey! who cares if I get 2 smiley faces? I proclaim prelims OVER.
dun ask me how the papers so okie? I'm just glad that I'm not applying for US unis that need prelim results... and hopefully the teachers still think ok of me after me blowing up my prelims... argh... something's wrong with me... sigh... lost any residual drive to study since last weekend... which means... I didn't really study for this week's papers... okie... forget it... I'm in the heck care mood anyway...
can i dun take s papers? just the thought of picking up chem s and reading about some funny aldo-keto tautamerism or something like that is revoking... heck.... I have 4 days to worry about it. for bio s people who's studying hard now for tmr's paper, GANBATTE!!! (although I dun think anyone of you know about my blog)
aunt and cousins coming this evening... sigh... never really LIKED kids... hate noisy ones especially... and ESPECIALLY those with parents who think that their kids are the one and only most intelligent, most precious treasured darlings... okie... maybe my aunt who's coming this evening is not so bad... but well, dun really like my cousins, all younger than me, and all they ever seem to want to do, is to exceed me in my acadamic results... ok, correction, all their mothers want them to do. In the first place... I'm not doing well in school. and, I mean.... if you wanna have my life, take it manz... I dun mind being some hanako (ah lian) on Tokyo's streets... some artsy girl drawing on the streets of New York or something... prelims and a levels are definately not the best things on earth.
ok. compromise... if i wanna do medicine or whatever it may be that i wanna do in the future... this is one of the best shxx route that i can take... think of the future!!!!!
honestly... why do we have to live for the future? none of us can be sure that we will not drop dead tomorrow right? why not live today to the fullest? I've always tried to live this way... but ha... who's the one who just told you to think of the future?

this shows how empty my life is.

clare dear... *hugz* dun think too much huh? at least your bio paper was good huh? (^-^) I've kinda gotten over the terror for the past week... just do your best for the rest of the papers kae?
as for how i did... did I tell all of you before that the chem teachers are out to kill? okie... partly my fault... can't 'save' a thing about inorganic chem into my puny saturated brain computer at all... didn't study biochem option and just can't do the organic chem questions!! calcuated that I've lost over 30 marks in the paper 3 already... plus the horrendous chem prac... i need to get a perfect score for my paper 1 and 2 to even hopefully meet an A... more optimistically... maybe if I mug super hard for my chem this weekend... i can savage a B... *sigh*
the rest of the papers are better than expected except that I can't remember the bacteria that confers the Bt-toxin (or is it T toxin? opps) gene is called Bacillus thuringiensis it's generally okie... *praying hard that it IS okie* now, for the weekend I have to MUG my chem..... and statistics for maths...
but I'm going Compass Point now!!! I'm dying from the studying... (although I was watching SMAPXSMAP last night at 2am while trying to konk in some biotech... ><) and the sleeping at 5am this morn and waking up at 10am is making me a little nausea... but I'm going OUT!! ha...
Minna san (People) all the best for the rest of your papers!!!!!! *muakles and hugz*

a confirmed SARS case in Singapore... that fella got it from the research center where he's working... probably working on the virus...
individual case that seems... careless fella... but sigh... no possible SARS holiday break... opps. someone here's desperate for more time... argh.

is it true that you can't download the file by right click?

people, you MUST listen to this...

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/sngs4D/files/With%20Heartfelt%20Thanks%20%28Grad%20Song%202001%29.mp3

St. nicks' graduation song of the batch 2001 (70th anniversary version). the sn choir sang it on the 70th anniversary celebrations!!!!!!! *scream*
Thanks pearlly for the file....

Miss sn...............................................

the pracs are FINALLY over... overall impression... if I dun work super hard for the actual paper... I'm a gonna... and how am I supposed to hope the teachers will give me an A prediction for my UCAS application?
well... I think I blasted my GP... sigh... it was in a mess! I didn't know where to put the yardstick... " the concern of the need to conserve the environment is being exaggerated" W.H.Y did I choose the question? reallised it's tougher than it sounds half way through the essay... had to go on with it and found myself leading toward the diseastrous routed of writing an example driven essay... in the first place... HOW can you argue that it's NOT being exaggerated? found myself confused during the essay... AND to add to it... I decided to re-write the essay to twist it more towards the question (not sure if i wrote out of point)..... couldn't finish and had to cancel off the already corrected para from the original script... connect it to the original part (like cut and paste) tied my scrpits wrongly.... and in a fluster... think I handed in my draft (in point forms) in the MIDDLE of my essay... if you dun get what I mean... it's ok..... in simplier words... I messed-up... now, the only hope is that the marker see some order in the mess that she recieves... or better still... I didn't hand in my draft along with my essay! (but then..... where is my draft then? well... maybe the invigilator took it away as unused paper when he took the one piece of unused paper on my table as I was getting into a mess...) argh... *praying hard that the latter scenario is what happened*
and well.... I didn't do BOTH of my design questions for my chem prac... what crap was it larz.... it's supposed to be a 75 marks paper scaled down to 50 in the overall paper what consist of 250 marks... but the paper on wednesday was 100 marks... (30 scaled to 25, 35 scaled to 25 and another part with 25 marks... i think) NO ONE finished the paper as far as I know... win.... what joy do the teachers derive from killing us? much as the chem teachers are the most wonderful bunch of dedicated educationers, their papers are always murderous... *shake head*
physics and bio was ok... well.... physics has always not been too bad.... and since not much hope was ever put into bio practicals... (taking the point that the usual average mark for me is a pass...)
TIME MANAGEMENT!!! reallised that I can be really a time waster.... if there is such a word... spend time making sure that the line I drew is straight even if it doesn't matter... making sure that my presentation is neat... blah blah blah... always think it's a good practice... but it proves to be detrimental in examinations... PIRORITISE!! in exams.... getting the most marks in the shortest amount of time is vital... especially in the chem papers where since today..... I have NEVER completed answering a single paper...
hey peeps, hope the papers are going on well for you.... even if it's not, it's still not too late ok? GANBATTE!!!!!! and Good Luck!! *muakles*

voice 1: hey.... it's time you start concentrating on your studies.
voice 2: you're so behind time!!! all your classmates are probably on their 30th round of revision and you still dun know your integration~!
voice 3: there's always a time for everything: this is the time to MUG!
voice 4: you wanna take medicine right? then why are you wasting you life here reading about Takuya?
voice 5: you dun wanna regret it only after prelims right?
voice 6: time you learn to exercise self-discipline... all the trust your dad puts in you to know how to make proper use of the com when he buys you this one you're using!!!!!!!!!

me: OK OK!!! sigh... guess my dear readers already know my reasons for disappearing... give me two months okie? I'll be B.A.C.K...

thanks clare for offering help... i've got somone else to correct it for me already... you know who... ^^ thanks anyway!!!!!!!!! *muakles*

wow... thank lp, yiling and miss sniff and scurry *wink*!!!!!! actaully, shuyan and went through the statement with me (thanks girl!!!! *climbs onto her and gives her a doggie kiss and lick!!*) and it's pretty different now...
I'm applying for Imperial (my dream... and definately first choice), glasgow, edinburgh, and... dunno about the forth one... suggestions? was thinking of leicester... or kings... not sure yet...
just got comments from my uncle... looks like the personal statement is in for major changes.... in organisation at least... dun wanna put it up just yet.... maybe after some corrections... but just yet... it needs some major reconstruction...

My Personal Statement for UCAS application Draft 1 :

A career in Medicine is one that requires the application of professional knowledge, a love for life and mankind, and the ever-ready motivation to improve and engage in life-long learning. This career had intrigued me and is something that I believe I have the caliber for. I desire to be part of this noble profession that works with the mission to save lives.
For the past two years, I had been volunteering at two hospitals to help those suffering from disease. The volunteering experience allowed me direct contact with patients and I had since been more able better to understand the needs the ill. The interaction with patients at the hospitals gave me a personal account of how the doctors had helped to improve their lifestyles, increasing my admiration to the medical workers and indirectly inspiring me to want to do the same things.
In school, I have always been very interested in the sciences, especially Chemistry and Biology. The precision and objectivity of science are things that I like and am good at. Outside of the academic school life, I play the ‘ZhongRuan”, a guitar-like instrument, in the school’s Chinese Orchestra. We have just won a Gold award in the recent Singapore Youth Festival. I am also the Graphics and Layout Editor of the School’s magazine. In secondary school, I was part of the school’s Chinese Drama Society taking part in both acting as well as doing promotions and make-up as a backstage crew. Being a school Prefect for three years in secondary school had taught me organization and interpersonal communication skills.
I had studied Japanese for the past five years and obtained a Pass in the International Japanese Language Proficiency Test Level 2 (Level one being the highest standard). I was very fortunate to be chosen to take part in the Biennial Students Exchange Programme to Sapporo, Japan in 1999-2000 organized by the Singapore Ministry of Education Language Centre.
Last December, I took up a part-time job at the Science Discovery Camp organized by the YMCA and was leader who assisted the teacher to teach children aged 10-12 science in an interesting way through experiments and field trips.
In taking a medical course, I hope to specialize in forensic medicine or the endocrine system. The forensic science had been a branch of medicine that is not ‘well-received’ in an Asian society like Singapore because of the social stigma often attached to it. However, I will like to do something in this area of medicine especially since I do not mind the work associated to it. Having suffered from hyperthyrotoxicosis for the past five years, I am particularly interested in the endocrine area of medicine too. If given the opportunity, I will like to work voluntarily someday in the less-developed nations to enable the less fortunate to also enjoy first-rated medical treatment.


Questions: Should I include performing in Chingay parade?
Will putting in my medical condition undermine my chances

feedback!!!!!! suggestions!!!!!! best still... proofread for me?????? haha...... PLEASE~ (^-^)



not going for grad night... never enjoyed such occassions... (though I must say that the st nicks grad night was mmorable...) feeling guilty as that means that I'm abandoning my class and Singhui (my good friend in class) will be going for it without me... but the 'anti-desire' to attend grad night and the idea of having to go through all the trouble of looking for a prom dress and getting ready for it is enough to get me put off. sorry.... not that I dun like my class (though I like 4 Diligence better.... :p) just that I truly dun like these kinda things....