Blowing in the Wind
How many roads must a man walk down
Before you call him a man?
Yes, 'n' how many seas must a white dove sail
Before she sleeps in the sand?
Yes, 'n' how many times must the cannon balls fly
Before they're forever banned?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.

How many times must a man look up
Before he can see the sky?
Yes, 'n' how many ears must one man have
Before he can hear people cry?
Yes, 'n' how many deaths will it take till he knows
That too many people have died?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.

How many years can a mountain exist
Before it's washed to the sea?
Yes, 'n' how many years can some people exist
Before they're allowed to be free?
Yes, 'n' how many times can a man turn his head,
Pretending he just doesn't see?
The answer, my friend, is blowin' in the wind,
The answer is blowin' in the wind.

source: http://www.bobdylan.com/songs/blowin.html

first heard this song in one of ELDDS's performances... Mrs. Tian let us watched one of the competition-bound performances by the ld girls and the song just caught my attention.
it kinda struck me at that time... an anti-war, anti-conflict song that I thought was really meaningful... remembered pasting the lyrics on my table back in sec 3... since then, this song had been one of my favorite songs.
heard it again yesterday when Takuya sang this song on SMAPXSMAP, its the song Takuya recomended as the song that sums up this year. was kinda surprised that the theme for mon's song session on SMAPXSMAP was "a song to sum up this year"... then it came to me that it's december... 2004 is coming in 21 days...

just carn help but feel that this year had been so fast... yet so packed with action...
SYF, Chingay, all the cip at alexandra hospital, holding up the full responsibility of designing the Outlook magazine, coping with the upblooming A levels... then taking it, blah blah blah...
feeling a little numb at the moment... perhaps the year has been too fast; my 2 years in JC has been too fast... and all of a sudden, I'm thrusted out of school... as a fresh JC graduate... waiting for my A level results and looking for a job.
a sense of lost? i dunno... in 22 days time, i will not be waking up at 6 am in the morning to change into a uniform and make my way for a new school year... I will no longer need to wear another school uniform in my life anymore, much as the notion appeals to me, i have to admit that it scares me... kinda. what is instilled for me in the years to come? after the sheltered education system of singapore... what am i gonna do? after going through the paved route from primary school, to secondary school and then junior college... where am i heading? to UK? to a singaporean university? or will I try the 'far-fetched' notion of not going to uni? the years to come will be ones of change and challenge.

curious? ready to go out to see the world? wanting to make a difference to the monotonous life of mine? while I'm all geared up for the exciting years to come, apprehension, uncertainty and definately fear looms like a piece of dark cloud that just wouldn't go away. like a warm bed that urges me to sleep longer every morning, i don't really wanna get up from this dream where falling down does not hurt (that much).
but oh wellz... you will need to get up of your comfortable bed to see the sunrise of new day... and much as the road ahead is long and winey, there must be beautiful scenaries along the route... so, the years to come will be colourful!! i hope.