the "thing" about gifts and presentation

I've always thought I am very "packaging conscious"... Being the gemini that I am... looks ARE important. Or rather... when I give a present, I will usually make it a point to give something that "feels solid". But this time... this whole "must wrap your presents for the japs" things is driving me crazy. I mean... wrapping paper is a SERIOUS WASTE of natural resources... you wrap your present in some pretty paper... then person who recieves it looks at it and tears it open. The next moment, it's in the bin, ready for the rubbish collector.

Yes... I know my habit of putting everything in a reasonably nice paper bag and giving it as it is is not exactly the best gift presentation you have out there... but hey! you can reuse the paper bag! Like for the next 50 gifts you are giving away, you can use this paper bag!! And your paper bag comes with pretty handles that makes it easy for you to carry the gift home RIGHT????!!!

There's a chinese saying that goes: 金玉其外，败絮其中. it basically describes something/someone that's pretty on the outside but rotten on the inside. Unfortunately, the nicely wrapped presents I have recieved so far tends to be so... I'm just thinking... the world today focuses alot on packaging ourselves: applying for a job? make sure you write a nice resume with a good cover letter; going for interview? make sure you dress appropriately. Indeed, dressing is impt as it ofetn shows the attitude/importance we place on an event. However... when this overrides the importance of the inner person, something is gravely wrong.

blog regarding life in Takayama

I'll be writing about my life in Takayama in a separate site. Ask me for the url if you're interested! ^^ (it's on my MSN nick currently too)

This blog will still be in used though... with my rants and thoughts and well... basically anything me. ^^;;

一些想法

最近的自己懦弱得自己都讨厌自己，
没自信得自己都觉得自己很悲哀……
心理的想法一团混乱，我连想要什么都不知道。
需要的，其实是个无条件支持我的肩膀，一个无条件支持我的后盾，
一个愿意宁听我的耳朵，一个愿意用心去体谅我的心灵。

从小到大，我不习惯把心里的想法挂在嘴上，都是埋藏在最深刻的心底。
这样的个性让外人以为我很自信，很有主见，很稳重。
但是真正的我没自信，没想法，没胆识。
其实我也需要支持的，其实我也需要辅导的，其实我也需要有人牵着我的手，教我怎么过人生的。
我需要有家人/朋友无条件地默默支持我做我想做的事情。
我需要有人无条件地倾听我的心声……
但是没有。
这样的要求太苛刻了，
没有人能做得到。

虽然早就知道人生是孤独的，
但是这独处的感觉越来越令人难耐。