Shuyan!!!!! Just in time.... MY PAPERS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! well... if you don't consider chem s and physics s next tues and wed... but hey! who cares if I get 2 smiley faces? I proclaim prelims OVER.
dun ask me how the papers so okie? I'm just glad that I'm not applying for US unis that need prelim results... and hopefully the teachers still think ok of me after me blowing up my prelims... argh... something's wrong with me... sigh... lost any residual drive to study since last weekend... which means... I didn't really study for this week's papers... okie... forget it... I'm in the heck care mood anyway...
can i dun take s papers? just the thought of picking up chem s and reading about some funny aldo-keto tautamerism or something like that is revoking... heck.... I have 4 days to worry about it. for bio s people who's studying hard now for tmr's paper, GANBATTE!!! (although I dun think anyone of you know about my blog)
aunt and cousins coming this evening... sigh... never really LIKED kids... hate noisy ones especially... and ESPECIALLY those with parents who think that their kids are the one and only most intelligent, most precious treasured darlings... okie... maybe my aunt who's coming this evening is not so bad... but well, dun really like my cousins, all younger than me, and all they ever seem to want to do, is to exceed me in my acadamic results... ok, correction, all their mothers want them to do. In the first place... I'm not doing well in school. and, I mean.... if you wanna have my life, take it manz... I dun mind being some hanako (ah lian) on Tokyo's streets... some artsy girl drawing on the streets of New York or something... prelims and a levels are definately not the best things on earth.
ok. compromise... if i wanna do medicine or whatever it may be that i wanna do in the future... this is one of the best shxx route that i can take... think of the future!!!!!
honestly... why do we have to live for the future? none of us can be sure that we will not drop dead tomorrow right? why not live today to the fullest? I've always tried to live this way... but ha... who's the one who just told you to think of the future?

this shows how empty my life is.