Chatting with janise just now online... she was telling me about how a friend who did not get into medicine quit school in N U S and went to poly to pursue physiotherapy. WOW. That must have taken alot of courage and determination.

I told janise... in the medical related jobs, I only want to be a doctor. For one.. I know I cannot be a nurse.. because that takes so much more from a person to be a nurse than a doctor... (at least that's what I think) you face so much more stress from patients interaction... and well.. maybe it's the 'glory' associated with being a doctor. I hate myself for being so... but I know a part of me is like that. I feel proud when I get something 'prestigious' and something that's supposed to be 'difficult', I like to be above people in things.

I know there are other reasons too... afterall I did consider doing physiotherapy after not getting into med... but somehow... I don't have the courage to put down that little everything I have now to go to poly. I don't think I will be satisfied being a physiotherapist. I don't exactly know how to put it... but I feel that I will probably spend the rest of my life regreting my decision if I did go do nursing or physiotherapy.

This blog has became a place where I put my innermost thoughts on... *shiver* your friend is a devil afterall. (^-^)