I remember xiaoting asking me before something to the effect of, "do you feel any hatred or resentment towards NUS for not giving you medicine?" Recieved the same question from a few others too... maybe some of you reading this blog have the same queries but never came to the point of asking me...

My answer is no. Well, yes, I've heard all the rumors about the inner workings of the medicine faculty in chooisng people etc... how some of my dear friends think that I should get in etc... But well, I was given an interview. I was given a fair chance (or so it seems and I will take it that it is fair...) as everyone else. And I was rejected. Fair and square. What else can I say? No resentment. Just pure disappointment in myself. The only blame is on me. I could have gotten 4 As, I could have scored an A for my CCA, could have written better for the essay, performed better for the interview... isn't that all about me? So, no one to blame. This is how I performed and I've got my results. I have to accept it.

Of course, that doesn't mean that I'll give up my dreams my dear friends. It's probably a blessing in disguise for me... for me, at 19, I still do not know exactly whether medicine is for me. I just feel that it's something that I will like to do. But if 4 years later, after I graduate, I still want to do it, I believe that it does mean something. By doing bioengin, I'll be still keeping that option of graduate medicine open. If I still want to do med, I'll do it in the end. I just have to make sure that I do well in bioengin and get a first class honours. So, pals, wish me luck and courage to move on yarz?

Peace.