2 Months On

Dear Starlight,

It's been 2 months since you left us...
Seems like a long time ago, but to think about it, 2 months is actually really not that long. Maybe it's because so many things have happened over the 2 months, so I get the impression as though it's been a long time.

Sometimes it feels as though you are still with us. It's just not very realistic that I will not see you around in school anymore. But you've taken the step ahead before us. Are you waiting for us in Heaven? I'm not Christian... will I get to go there to see you when I die?

By the way, how are things there in Heaven? Are the flower garlands there pretty? Is God a pretty bishonen or is he a fatherly person? What about Jesus? Is the THE hot guy in Heaven? What about the people there? Are they all peaceful and friendly? Are you peaceful? Oh well... as long as you are enjoying yourself there yah? ^^

Seriously, I was angry that you left us like that. Of course, the feeling of sadness and guilt is more profound... I know it's your decision, and I will learn to accept it yah? but dear... I really miss you, I miss it when you always tell me that I will be ok, I miss the little sweet chats we have, I miss the times we talk and have lunch, and how you are always willing to listen to my Takuya and WuChun madness... I really wish you are still around.

Hmm... about me... I feel I'm more pessimistic now... and sometimes more lonely too. I don't know if it's because of you, but I get more emotional nowadays. I will try to remember to be nicer to people and to give more; just like the way you always choose to give. I have lost you, I really don't wanna lose another friend.

ok... enough about sad things... I just need to tell you, UCHI is coming back!!! Mr. Kitagawa may have woken up one day and decide to be nice to the JE boys... so Jin's back, so is Uchi! haha~ Or maybe you know about all these already? Oh well, just thought you will like to know. ^^

ok dear... you have fun in Heaven ok? Miss ya very much.


With Love,
Your friend Ale