I know my results are not bad.... I am not in the position to sob, not in the position to complain, it's more or less what I had expected, but... but... I know some who read this blog will feel like 'han tum'ing me if they know my results, I know that pple who read this and hear me 'complaining' might be feeling pissed... but here's always this thing about fulfilling your potential... always this thing about performing under your expectations... and I believe this is one of the cases. I'm fine pple... really. but just let me rant ok?

I know my results will allow me to do most things that I wanna do, but that's not the point. I want to do the best of my potential. but that's not happening. I can't help but feel the disappointment felt by some pple around me who feel that I am probably capable of something better. are they expecting too much from me? am I not as good as they think I shld be? or is everything they think about me a results of me being the greatest actress in the century who deserve an Oscar award? bleah... am always told about how it's good to be a small fish in a big sea than be a big fish in a small pond. is that true? but why am I feeling that bad? but yet I think I'm glad that I chose this path. I still believe that this place have given me ALOT of opportunities... but.... sigh.... was I too complacent? I think I've given up on that subject long ago... placed lesser effort on it than the others... so really... nothing to complain... but can I just feel disappointed?

ok... enough of the ranting... guess whatever you want about my results.