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A professor once told me before that he's fine with all kinds of requests and will not be angry as long as the student don't make use of his kindness for it.

There's a part of me deep inside that's always afraid that the people around me will abandon me. Because of that fear, I am always nice to people and will do things for them as long as it's within my abilities.

However, more then often, I end up feeling that some people are taking advantage of me. Because I am easy to talk to; because I am "always" available, I become a back-up friend for them. Someone to look for only when they need something from me, when they need someone to talk to, when they need advices. Somehow, I am just a handy person whom they find valuable to know because I can help them in a way or another.

As I told a friend that day, if there's someone who is able to do things for me without me having to call out for help, I think I will fall for that person.